Jim_Morrison
Greenlighter
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- Jan 5, 2018
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So I have done meth probably six or seven times now, all in the span of 2-3 months. I have noticed that every time I do it I get more and more sick of it the days after, but paradoxically, I also get more used to the sleep deprivation. I have never stayed up for more than 30-35 hours before; I have always managed to sleep.
I feel betrayed by the people who educated me about drugs when I was growing up (I'm 20). Everyone always told me to stay away, showing me horror stories of end-stage meth users with nasty faces and skinny bodies. What they didn't tell me is that every individual reacts differently. I have stayed up all night with my buddy and the next morning (after we talked for hours on end) stayed productive. He is an artist, so he was writing a verse while I was writing a paper for my university class. The next day it is indistinguishable whether or not we slept, not to mention if we smoked crank or not.
I'm not saying meth is all sunshine and rainbows. In fact, after the last time I used (3 days ago) I have felt more anxiety than usual. But every day it gets better, and of course I still think about it, but I am smart enough to wait a bit until my next use. The "not even once" slogan is complete bullshit and is oversimplified. I honestly believe I can use this drug, sparingly, to help me be more productive.
I'm not worried about the physical dependency aspect of the drug. I have abused many drugs in the past and have always been smart enough to not fall into the rabbit hole (including opiates). Drug addiction isn't just because of the drug- it is because of the underlying issues of the drug user. I am worried about the physical damage meth does to the white matter in the brain. It's a damn shame meth is neurotoxic , because if it wasn't, I'd be using that stuff like a morning cup of coffee.
Thoughts?
I feel betrayed by the people who educated me about drugs when I was growing up (I'm 20). Everyone always told me to stay away, showing me horror stories of end-stage meth users with nasty faces and skinny bodies. What they didn't tell me is that every individual reacts differently. I have stayed up all night with my buddy and the next morning (after we talked for hours on end) stayed productive. He is an artist, so he was writing a verse while I was writing a paper for my university class. The next day it is indistinguishable whether or not we slept, not to mention if we smoked crank or not.
I'm not saying meth is all sunshine and rainbows. In fact, after the last time I used (3 days ago) I have felt more anxiety than usual. But every day it gets better, and of course I still think about it, but I am smart enough to wait a bit until my next use. The "not even once" slogan is complete bullshit and is oversimplified. I honestly believe I can use this drug, sparingly, to help me be more productive.
I'm not worried about the physical dependency aspect of the drug. I have abused many drugs in the past and have always been smart enough to not fall into the rabbit hole (including opiates). Drug addiction isn't just because of the drug- it is because of the underlying issues of the drug user. I am worried about the physical damage meth does to the white matter in the brain. It's a damn shame meth is neurotoxic , because if it wasn't, I'd be using that stuff like a morning cup of coffee.
Thoughts?