I am very new here on the forums, browsing and reading to self educate myself in areas of interest. However, I too have been addicted to meth, but I have made it 4 years away and it was not easy. If you are here, you came to read and post for a reason and you should already pat yourself on the back. Life cannot change if you don't want it to.
My experiences started when I was 14 and lasted until I was 21 - 2 stints in rehab, 1 ER visit, and constant paranoia contributed to my decision to finally stop. I did meet my wife while I used and even encouraged it in our early months of dating, I would feel guilt every day but if she didn't experience this, she couldn't of ever understood me - even to this day. Life isn't what most consider normal, but what is normal? My nerves are a constant problem, I am easily overwhelmed and suffer from anxiety. I have nervous habits I can't prevent and I worry a lot.
Everyone has the ability to beat the addictive cycle but you have got to remove yourself from those that will bring you down. I had one relapse when I was 23, already married and had my toddler. I rarely even thought about spinning, much less than in my initial 12-18 months. My neighbor smoked pot and asked if I wanted to come by. We did this and then he asked if I wanted to smoke meth. Completely startled, quickly said hell no. 4 hours later I was knocking on the door asking if he had more - I spent hours pacing and acting weird at home completely oblivious to my family before going back. One hit and I went straight home, confessed, cried and we picked the pieces up - I barely tasted it, but it was as if I set myself back years.
Nothing will replace your drug of choice, and it's not just the drug, it's the lifestyle. Do all you can to separate yourself, if your "friends" understand, they will back you, if they don't then they are not a friend. Everyone on here seems very supportive - reach out to people important to you, you may of lost relationships but you can build more and rebuild broken. Don't expect people to understand what you are going through, it can be just as difficult from the outside looking in. Be strong and keep smiling.
My experiences started when I was 14 and lasted until I was 21 - 2 stints in rehab, 1 ER visit, and constant paranoia contributed to my decision to finally stop. I did meet my wife while I used and even encouraged it in our early months of dating, I would feel guilt every day but if she didn't experience this, she couldn't of ever understood me - even to this day. Life isn't what most consider normal, but what is normal? My nerves are a constant problem, I am easily overwhelmed and suffer from anxiety. I have nervous habits I can't prevent and I worry a lot.
Everyone has the ability to beat the addictive cycle but you have got to remove yourself from those that will bring you down. I had one relapse when I was 23, already married and had my toddler. I rarely even thought about spinning, much less than in my initial 12-18 months. My neighbor smoked pot and asked if I wanted to come by. We did this and then he asked if I wanted to smoke meth. Completely startled, quickly said hell no. 4 hours later I was knocking on the door asking if he had more - I spent hours pacing and acting weird at home completely oblivious to my family before going back. One hit and I went straight home, confessed, cried and we picked the pieces up - I barely tasted it, but it was as if I set myself back years.
Nothing will replace your drug of choice, and it's not just the drug, it's the lifestyle. Do all you can to separate yourself, if your "friends" understand, they will back you, if they don't then they are not a friend. Everyone on here seems very supportive - reach out to people important to you, you may of lost relationships but you can build more and rebuild broken. Don't expect people to understand what you are going through, it can be just as difficult from the outside looking in. Be strong and keep smiling.
with polydrug combinations to synergize or get AS fucked up as posssible or to raise my speed dose... the star of the show for me.... all i do on it it think about it and shit... wacked out clean im done no libido like before.... unless like last month a 38 yr old girl knocked on my motel door... let her in shhe came back and i was her rebound for her husband fucking with her life.... idk hope im clean now lol....
