Meth/Amphetamines: Serious Discussion Only - V.2: MERGED with amps quitting thread

[DexterMeth]

I had a crazy flash back right before I woke up this morning. It was of the first time I ever did crystal...
I was sitting there with this guy smoking the shit and absolutely blown away by the amount of energy I had for the first time, and so euphoric obviously too. I was superman. We stole my friend's van, drove acrossed town and stole an ATV from the side of someone's house in the middle of the night. After working very slowly and quietly, moving it like an inch ever 10 seconds..then we figured out how to get it in gear and just rolled it away and loaded up in the van. We drove down the freeway smoking crystal the whole way..and in no time the sun came up. Back at his house we smoked more crystal and fixed up the ATV to go riding in the canyon. Some random guy came over, walked right up to my friend, took the pipe out of his hand and smoked a fat hit and left. He was one sketchy fuck, but whatever. Got the ATV working so we loaded it up again smoked more got gas for it. While pumping gas, some random aquaintance of my new tweaker friend pulled up and let 2 under age girls from his car (They were probably in 8th fucking grade and we were all 18). That guy showed us he had crystal and hopped in my van, we all went out to the canyon. Parked in the canyon, both guys pulled out guns, took them apart and cleaned them. The dude I was hanging with from the previous night was trying to make his own firing pin from this gear box I had..shit could of fucked up his hand so bad if it back fired. A few hours later he sold the ATV to a guy that owned some golf shop acrossed town, through the back of his store..we all smoked crystal. I needed to get ready for work after the weekend so dropped them off at the gas station, took my share of the money and bought crystal. On the way home I stole a $500 guitar from a small music shop. I never did shit like this before. A year later my life was in shambles. What a fucked up drug. How did I not see all of this as an obvious warning sign before hand? It's like i'm addicted to experience no matter how bad the result. Whatever, I just wanted to vent.

Sweet P, I hope you can get on the dexies or something. Too bad you don't live in 1950s USA..the amps were plentiful

 

[Sweet P]

Too bad you don't live in 1950s USA..the amps were plentiful

And transsexuals were institutionalised.

I've got heaps of stories about meth-related escapades, but I've always been too scared to post them in case a friend/acquaintance happens to read it, identify me, and kick my ass for telling. Maybe I'll write about them in my blog sometime, which is a bit more private than the main forums.

 

[hyroller]

^^^^ hehehehe... I love to read/hear about crazy stories.... I don't have any good ones, all mine end in me getting ripped off by someone & wanting to go postal at them, but not being able to do shit!

yes it's becoming silly... after a few days of smoking here & there my tolerance just went sky high stupid again. not impressed, not with the price this shit costs. the final hurrah on the meth bandwagon comes as a huge relief - I'm tired of chasing a high that is no longer achievable

thank god for the availability of xanax to ease the comedown.. still been sleeping more than I should but oh well. sleep doesn't cost money.

 

[eddie_eagle]

i'd like to believe in the theory of prescribing dex during rehab. It did not work for me and only fueled my addiction and ensured that I successfully destroyed the remaining positives left in my life.

re crazy stories...ive stopped trying to tell mine as no one was believing them

 

[Sweet P]

i'd like to believe in the theory of prescribing dex during rehab. It did not work for me and only fueled my addiction and ensured that I successfully destroyed the remaining positives left in my life.

Hmmm... I'll keep that in mind. Sorry to hear it only worsened things for you. But I have heard of some positive cases which still gives me hope. I guess it's worth a try, at least? Dexies are the lesser of two evils when compared to meth.

 

[eddie_eagle]

modafinil is a safer option, obviously not as effective but it means you are not taking any class of amphetamines

 

[2spun4one]

^ Be careful, dude. Driving without sleep for 4 days isn't exactly safe!

Yep....past palm springs and yeah you are right....luckily there's someone driving with me & we've been taking turns on the driving...... managed to get 3 or 4 hours sleep in that time. I really only ever like to sleep for 4 or 5 hours max, mostly because I usually feel rested after that long andmost of the time if i sleep 8+ hours i end up so way tired out that it takes a lot to bring me out of it...honestly i think the longest i've ever stayed up & going was about 22 days....and by day 22.....i'm sure you can attach an end to that one!!!

 

[Sweet P]

modafinil is a safer option, obviously not as effective but it means you are not taking any class of amphetamines

Only trouble is, I'm dependent on amphetamines and I'm not sure how much of an effect non-amphetamine medications would have...

 

[DexterMeth]

And transsexuals were institutionalised.

I've got heaps of stories about meth-related escapades, but I've always been too scared to post them in case a friend/acquaintance happens to read it, identify me, and kick my ass for telling. Maybe I'll write about them in my blog sometime, which is a bit more private than the main forums.

Damn, I bet you have some great stories.

 

[Sweet P]

^ Haha, that I do. I wrote a little story in my blog last night about an old dealer of mine.

 

[DexterMeth]

Is it on BL?

 

[Sweet P]

^ Yup, in the blogs section.

Right now I'm pissed off - at meth for not giving me the high I was wanting. I've gone through nearly a gram of pure today, and yes I'm spun, but I'm not enjoying it. There's no euphoria and no "on top of the world" feeling that I used to get. Fucking tolerance sucks.

 

[Sweet P]

That's it, I think I'm done with the drug & alcohol service. They aren't helping at all, and after each appointment I just end up feeling annoyed. It probably won't look good when I'm sentenced in a few weeks, but frankly I just don't care any more. Today has been one hell of a shitty day.

 

[DexterMeth]

Try some dilantin...to potentiate...besides that ...and shit FUCK THAT...LAY OFF SP. WTF is wrong with you? And i'm not saying this from any other point than you know because you certainly do..so fucking lower your tolerance.

 

[Sweet P]

^ Fuck that, I think I'll just increase my usage. And maybe return to IV'ing.

 

[Cloudburst]

IV meth made me extremely close to losing my arm. I'd rather fucking die.

Have you at least considered different ROAs if you're not gonna quit? Sublingual will help you not crave as much. Don't look at the big picture right now.

 

[Sweet P]

^ Nah, like I said in the PM, I've tried every ROA for meth and smoking and shooting are the only ones that get me off. I still chase the rush, even though the euphoria disappeared ages ago. I just get a blast of energy instead. It wakes me up - without it I'm a vegetable.

 

[2spun4one]

^^^^ hehehehe... I love to read/hear about crazy stories.... I don't have any good ones, all mine end in me getting ripped off by someone & wanting to go postal at them, but not being able to do shit!

yes it's becoming silly... after a few days of smoking here & there my tolerance just went sky high stupid again. not impressed, not with the price this shit costs. the final hurrah on the meth bandwagon comes as a huge relief - I'm tired of chasing a high that is no longer achievable

thank god for the availability of xanax to ease the comedown.. still been sleeping more than I should but oh well. sleep doesn't cost money.

Hey did you ever try loading up a big bowl (like .5/.6)...and snorting a decent sized rail, and sprinkle some crushed up powdery on your hand and lick it off (it don't taste that bad) and yes your prolly looking at blowing thru around .8 or so to put all that together, but I bet if you do it in this order... smoke, snort, lick...by the time you get the taste out of your mouth you will be high. and if that don't work...try starving yourself (only do bare minumum to keep yourself from bottoming out) for a day or two...make it hard on yourself, don't take any with you if you go somewhere for a few hours....make your own shit unavailable to yourself, onlycoming off with a little here and there to keep from feeling bad. I know exactly how you feel, I've even tried blaming it on bad shit to the point of argueing with my connect about it...its never enough sometimes it seems. sometimes i think it boils down to being so high for so long i don't even realize it, other times i feel like i'm getting into the 'getting high when your high' routine...it's kinda like without sadness is there really any happiness....one thing i know from experience is when the time comes that you cannot do any (for whatever reason...fill in blank) each day without gets to the point where you dream of how nice it would be to have just one big rip off a pipe. I don't really know what im trying to say but do you know what I mean? I mean, I get very crafty when it comes to conservation especially if I anticipate a dry spell. I found that if you keep some party balloons handy, and blow your hits into balloon, then take hit back out of balloon, it does work!! If the hit is a big ass smoky one you can blow into balloon and suck it back 4 or more times and you will notice it working...

 

[hyroller]

Hey did you ever try loading up a big bowl (like .5/.6)...and snorting a decent sized rail, and sprinkle some crushed up powdery on your hand and lick it off (it don't taste that bad) and yes your prolly looking at blowing thru around .8 or so to put all that together, but I bet if you do it in this order... smoke, snort, lick...by the time you get the taste out of your mouth you will be high.

nah - never had this amount of gear that I'd be willing to munch through in one sitting

no real desire to do that really... I prefer smaller doses, and working my way up from there....

I just meant I'd had maybe 4pts over 4 days, which was enough to set the tolerance levels back in motion. oh well, them's the breaks.

 

[thedeadlywar]

Ugh... I've been back to using for the last two months nearly. Lately it has been making my chest feel tight on the left side, and I wheeze a lot... Path of addictive self destruction. This is so stupid.