Meth—Why am I doing NOTHING productive?

[jasperkent]

That's the sick irony of the drug, it gives you all this extra time (that you oughta be spending asleep) but you use that time mindlessly scrolling through internet pornography or tinkering away on some tweaker project that never quite reaches completion etc. Spending lots of time not really do much of anything is highly relatable, trust me

Exactly my experience. I might be productive and/or creative the first day of use, but after that it's all downhill. And annoying as shit.
That's one of the reasons I rarely do meth anymore.

 

[Geek Riddle]

I have a hard time putting sentences and ideas together and then actually don't send. It can be pretty sick actually.

 

[Nightwalker973]

I put it this way for my own issues with this. "I want to do everything at once, but I can't! So instead of doing everything, I just do nothing."

 

[Tazadeguate]

Ok so I tried finding SOMETHING that relates to my situation but I can't seem to find shit besides people saying they can't get high. I can get high. A lil Backstory tho : I been a daily user for the better part of the last 5 years. Got clean for maybe 6 months once almost 2 years ago but aside from that I been HEAVY using daily. Used to do gram or more hot rails multiple times a day. Then in a really dark time about 9 months ago I was in a shit living situation (won't indulge into that) and decided I was gonna fuck myself off (kill myself but there's no way to sound cool saying that), and I might as well ask the only friend I had in that city to shoot me up (he started recently) cuz I said I never would and fuck it imma die anyway. Well. I obviously did not kill myself. The friend I had knew I was depressed and pretty much never left me alone to kill myself. Now I moved away. Got back with my shitty ex for a minute. Been depressed as hell since i moved back to my shit hometown and my depression has made my house DISGUSTING. like Jesus. My shit was ALWAYS clean and now I look like a bad episode of hoarders. But I can't get shit done. I shoot multiple times a day. It's good shit. Trust me I know my way around the block. I get high for a minute. And I do nothing. I can do a ball in a day and I got nothing. I just lay in bed and eat or sleep or masturbate and then usually pass out after that or sit on my phone. Like what the fuck is wrong with me? I'm high but I have no motivation and nothing seems to help. Anytime I do get something done, I start fuckin off with something stupid and I don't finish.. A tolerance break isn't an option honestly with my super good job cuz I'd be sure to fuck that up with not being able to wake up for a week.. Is anyone else like this? How do I stop? It's probably stupid to ask but am I just like... SUPER depressed or what? Shooting shit has definitely taken me down a road I never wanted to go. I knew that when I did it. But I never imagined I'd be so LAZY on it. What the fuck. Some insight, advice or whatever y'all got, I'm all ears cuz what in the actual fuck is this bullshit I'm experiencing??

I think you are probably a person with adhd and that’s treated with amphetamines to help slow you down and focus. If you are adhd the amohetamibes won’t work the same way as a normal person

Ok so I tried finding SOMETHING that relates to my situation but I can't seem to find shit besides people saying they can't get high. I can get high. A lil Backstory tho : I been a daily user for the better part of the last 5 years. Got clean for maybe 6 months once almost 2 years ago but aside from that I been HEAVY using daily. Used to do gram or more hot rails multiple times a day. Then in a really dark time about 9 months ago I was in a shit living situation (won't indulge into that) and decided I was gonna fuck myself off (kill myself but there's no way to sound cool saying that), and I might as well ask the only friend I had in that city to shoot me up (he started recently) cuz I said I never would and fuck it imma die anyway. Well. I obviously did not kill myself. The friend I had knew I was depressed and pretty much never left me alone to kill myself. Now I moved away. Got back with my shitty ex for a minute. Been depressed as hell since i moved back to my shit hometown and my depression has made my house DISGUSTING. like Jesus. My shit was ALWAYS clean and now I look like a bad episode of hoarders. But I can't get shit done. I shoot multiple times a day. It's good shit. Trust me I know my way around the block. I get high for a minute. And I do nothing. I can do a ball in a day and I got nothing. I just lay in bed and eat or sleep or masturbate and then usually pass out after that or sit on my phone. Like what the fuck is wrong with me? I'm high but I have no motivation and nothing seems to help. Anytime I do get something done, I start fuckin off with something stupid and I don't finish.. A tolerance break isn't an option honestly with my super good job cuz I'd be sure to fuck that up with not being able to wake up for a week.. Is anyone else like this? How do I stop? It's probably stupid to ask but am I just like... SUPER depressed or what? Shooting shit has definitely taken me down a road I never wanted to go. I knew that when I did it. But I never imagined I'd be so LAZY on it. What the fuck. Some insight, advice or whatever y'all got, I'm all ears cuz what in the actual fuck is this bullshit I'm experiencing??

i think you are likely a adhd person and that the drug works opposite for you than most people. They prescribe meth for adhd and it slows them down somehow. You’re probably meant to use in smaller doses.

 

[Them Witches]

Humans can really complicate their "sense of well-being and ability to turn the page." We tend to put our hands damn near into the center of a fire and complain of intense heat, pain, and how or why we ended up in the position. The depth of the water changes drastically when we stand up. Yet some lose the sense to stand-up in a mud puddle protesting against those not willing to toss a life raft their direction...

The issue is not always the drugs, it is the host and whomever built or programmed the host. Normally drugs are the symptom of something, the something is what many humans spend their entire life trying to figure out. We are simply a product of our own programming, influenced by surrounding factors we have little control over and we have little influence on

Within 2 days a human's brain and body rapidly comes unwound, once sleep and food are withdrawn alone. Add having the brain stuck in "fight or flight mode" to that, then things start getting scary.

I hope the OP has found peace without of losing their life.