washingtonbound
Bluelighter
I am close to 30 years old and so sick of living with my mother, I can't stand it anymore. I think there's a bit of a fucked up codependent relationship where I depend on her for certain things, and I've been the sounding board for a lot of her bullshit over the years. Anyway, after my parents divorced I went to live with her, and constantly listened to her talk shit about my dad hiding money. I have lived with her for the majority of the last decade, since eighteen. She has called the police on me several times and gotten me thrown in the psych ward, and even though I was manic, she would be the culprit of getting me thrown in there most the time and not other people. When I was in high school, she wouldn't shut the fuck up about me having Asperger's and forced me into therapy. I was also sent to a wilderness program. So I still hold a bit of a grudge for this.
The worst factors are her attempting to file a legal guardianship over me twice, during episodes of psychosis. Despite having psychosis I would not have considered myself totally incompetent. I was able to get rid of the guardianship through a court process thankfully. On three separate occasions, she drugged me with haldol by putting it in my food without my knowledge. Since I had recently gotten out of the ward in these instances, I figured I was just having some kind of rebound effect. I didn't want to believe this and was in shock when she told me, absolutely disgusted in fact, as I should've been.
I have attempted to get the hell away from her and live in South America on my social security disability, only to fail miserably because I only was receiving around 600 dollars a month, and couldn't supplement the rest teaching English. Even though South America is cheap, you really still need around 2k to live comfortably. Anyway, so once again I would wind up back at my mother's, irritated as hell about it.
I am pretty mentally ill and have a hard time holding a job. I wish my disability check was enough to get by, but it's not and I really need a way out of this. Thankfully I was able to get it raised to 950, after bothering them enough at the social security office, so I'm taking off again hoping I can make it work this time.
Point is, I can't stand it anymore. Sometimes when I receive texts from her, I throw my phone against the wall and have broken many screens that way. I don't think she's a "bad" person, but I am genuinely sick of the mamas boy bullshit and being stuck in the damn apartment with her all the time. Doesn't help that I have no friends either.
The worst factors are her attempting to file a legal guardianship over me twice, during episodes of psychosis. Despite having psychosis I would not have considered myself totally incompetent. I was able to get rid of the guardianship through a court process thankfully. On three separate occasions, she drugged me with haldol by putting it in my food without my knowledge. Since I had recently gotten out of the ward in these instances, I figured I was just having some kind of rebound effect. I didn't want to believe this and was in shock when she told me, absolutely disgusted in fact, as I should've been.
I have attempted to get the hell away from her and live in South America on my social security disability, only to fail miserably because I only was receiving around 600 dollars a month, and couldn't supplement the rest teaching English. Even though South America is cheap, you really still need around 2k to live comfortably. Anyway, so once again I would wind up back at my mother's, irritated as hell about it.
I am pretty mentally ill and have a hard time holding a job. I wish my disability check was enough to get by, but it's not and I really need a way out of this. Thankfully I was able to get it raised to 950, after bothering them enough at the social security office, so I'm taking off again hoping I can make it work this time.
Point is, I can't stand it anymore. Sometimes when I receive texts from her, I throw my phone against the wall and have broken many screens that way. I don't think she's a "bad" person, but I am genuinely sick of the mamas boy bullshit and being stuck in the damn apartment with her all the time. Doesn't help that I have no friends either.