Mesmerize Me

[E-girl]

with just a look, the space between your eyes and mine...
i'm mesmerized
falling all over myself
its hard to pull away from your gaze,
trying so hard not to be pulled in by that look
not knowing what any of it means,
and afraid to let you see the fear in my eyes
it could be so easy to stay in this moment with you
to be careless and swept up
and let all the things that haunt me be pushed aside
but tonight
even in the glow of this room,
with its tearful memories
screaming with broken promises,
i feel empty beside you
because you're not him?
because its not his mouth i'm kissing,
or his arms around me?
because i'm scared, terrified
that it will all end up the same...
being lying alone here in this bed
dreaming about a few great nights we had,
nights we said would never end
and then there you'll be,
sweeping another blond off her feet
as i watch from a distance...
i dont know what's holding me back
maybe its you,
maybe its not knowing what you see when you look at me
not knowing if you'll think of me tonight
when you go home,
or if you'll talk about me with a smile to your friends
maybe its knowing that two wrongs wont make a right,
or that two empty souls wont make one that shines
i dont know
how can i begin to get this all out when you look at me like that...
the way a guy looks longingly at a girl who's heart he's trying to win
how can i pull away from your arms,
when they are the only safe thing i know?
justin said to me on the phone,
"if he is smarter than i was,
he won't hurt you"
but how can i know
maybe this will be our last night together...
a little dinner, a little music
a little kiss on the cheek
and some sad line about dont call me i'll call you...
i dont know where tonight will take us
but i hope i find the strength to do the right thing,
whatever that is,
and i'm not just carried away on a whim
when you look in my eyes
and mesmerize the hell out of me.

 

[harraser]

i dont know what's holding me back
maybe its you,
maybe its not knowing what you see when you look at me
not knowing if you'll think of me tonight
when you go home,
or if you'll talk about me with a smile to your friends
you got into my heart yet again. beautiful poem babe.

 

[frostyangel]

gurl, i just wanted to tell you this one more time..........
don't read into this to hard just because justin, fucked around on you in every way, doesn't mean that every guy you meet will do the same.
If you keep pushing all these men away, then you might miss out on something really good, someone that has alot of potential for you.
I know that you'll know when you meet the one, by the way you feel inside. But, if you never get over justin by moving on by liking another,
you'll never find love again.
He haunts to many of your memories, and with that you need to let go, he holds you back from all your dreams and happiness.In every way.
I know it is hard, I have been where I felt that person was the one for me, but I wasn't for them,
it hurts, just like waking from a smack in the face. Because your brought back into this stupid unhappy reality that we call our lives.
Just walk around with that head held up high,
let someone love you more than you love them for once. because in the end it always work out
no matter how many times you cry yourself to sleep
*hugs*
love one of your best friends!!
[ 02 April 2002: Message edited by: frostyangel ]

 

[x eNiGmA kiD x]

this is another profound piece! I relate.

 

[Dagny]

Okay, girlie, I have an idea! Since I'm scared and you're scared and we both have these boys who make us swoon and want to run screaming and cry and stay and be safe and wonder (all at the same time of course)....
Me and you. One day at a time. Let's see where it takes us both, meet back here for updates, and for fucking christ's sake, let's take a chance baby girl, 'cause we deserve this. I don't have any idea that he won't make me cry tomorrow, or a year from now. But I'm tired of letting 'what if's' keep me company, and I want first kisses and butterflies and all those things in my life again. So let's do this. I know we're strong enough, and we don't have to give them our hearts just yet, but a little piece of our minds won't hurt. Besides, if they fuck up, we still have each other, and I'm down for throwing water balloons off a skyscraper with you anyday.

 

[Crow]

 

[Dagny]

Must keep this one active for updates E-girl... I haven't forgotten.

 

[someone]

i dont know what's holding me back
maybe its you,
maybe its not knowing what you see when you look at me
not knowing if you'll think of me tonight
when you go home,
or if you'll talk about me with a smile to your friends
maybe its knowing that two wrongs wont make a right,
or that two empty souls wont make one that shines
i dont know
... wow, do i know how you feel ... your not alone out there
"if he is smarter than i was,
he won't hurt you"