We usually open presents at night so ppl can sleep in. w glasses of wine a a k-pin later I couldn't give a fuck Holidays for the last 2 years have sucked. Last year I was dependent on Xanax and had so much that opening presents was a blurry and this year BL thank you very much you have ruined it. Not to I might have been depressed and suicidal anyway, but I don't know why I bother. I guess I come back to confirm how I see myself. I hear others dislike or even hate me, so it comfirms how I feel about me. Other than that. BL has caused a lot of pain recently. Not that anyone gives a fuck. Personally I was thinking where is Drug Wench when I need her but maybe she would have agreed. Happy fucking holidays. Lets see how much I can remember this year... fuck it.
P.S. I'm angry and hurt and venting get over it.
P.S. I'm angry and hurt and venting get over it.