stardust.hero
Bluelight Crew
My night started out with my boyfriend leaving my house and myself having a good hour to kill before he got home. I had done the last of my Mephedrone the night before while talking to a friend online, but decided I would check the bag as I knew there was some still stuffed into the corners. I scraped inside for a decent while and to my surprise I had a nice compilation of about perhaps 100mg. I was pleased and split the line into two. I specifically liked splitting it into two because during a Mephedrone high (at least for me) when I take deep breaths in and can feel the small remnants of the substance there, and it helps surge my euphoria even more.
So I do the two lines. The burn was the same as usual but I have come to love the burn almost as much if not equally as the high. Without the burn, at least in my head, the high would not exist. I enjoy the feeling of snorting and feeling the burn and then laying back and concentrating on the burn turning into the euphoria that is unworldly great...a euphoria that continues to surpass that level of greatness until there human ability has ceased to understand it's level of pleasure. I realized that I had not hit the top of the euphoria chain that I was used to hitting with Mephedrone but as usual and also to my surprise (also as usual) I wasn't the least bit dissatisfied with my high. The high was still very intense but instead of hurrying to get online to talk to people to allow my empathetic euphoria surge I laid back on my floor. I knew my other Meph friend was at a concert and another friend was not online, and my boyfriend had a good hour before he would be home so I allowed all worries to leave my brain and I just laid there on the floor concentrating on the euphoria I had running through my body.
I would like to say that I controlled my high and that I took the deep breaths consciously to contribute to my high, but that is not the case. For the large part of my high I found myself "in the moment" so to speak. Whether it been concentrating so deeply on my breathing as the euphoria surrounded me or whether it be just staring ever so contently with my eyelids half closed at my ceiling unconscious but conscious at the same time. At times I would take a moment to think of things that made me happy, such as cuddling with my boyfriend, or being around close friends. These thoughts made me feel so content inside and still while thinking of such things I was able to keep on absolute attention with how good the euphoria I felt. It came very natural. At times I would concentrate on the internal tingling and energy I could feel throughout my body. All of these thoughts would usually just end up throwing me into a euphoric meditation until I came to realization that I was in that state maybe 10 minutes later. At which point it wasn’t difficult to think of another thought which would then throw me back into it again.
Eventually my boyfriend came back and I decided I would talk to him until he went to bed. He left shortly after and I decided I would put a little water into the bag and snort the droplets. I did that and the euphoria surged once more (not an intense euphoria but a euphoria that I greatly appreciated that night). Normally after a night of Meph I as wide awake and generally take a few Xanax to put me down. Tonight however, I was in such a deeply relaxed perhaps I can go as far to say meditative state, that I decided that I would turn everything off and lay in my bed in complete darkness. It is the strangest thing to say, but this highly meditative and inner calming high was the exact same “feeling” I got from Mephedrone when I snorted it, and was running wild talking to people with my empathetic feelings. It is like the two are on opposite sides of the Meph euphoria spectrum, yet they produce the exact same feeling two completely different ways. I must have laid in the darkness enjoying the high for a while because I can remember small in stances of finding myself in “that moment” and just continuing to go with it. It was a wonderful feeling and completely caught me off guard at the direction this high took me. I purely believe that my attitude going into the high (mostly me realizing that I had no more Meph left to do and that rush that I wanted wasn’t going to happen tonight) allowed me to somewhat direct the euphoria in this way. Mephedrone never ceases to amaze me at its pure intensity, complexity, and also it’s ability to produce such a diverse arrangement of highs.
As always, two thumbs up for Mephedrone.
Tagged by Xorkoth
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So I do the two lines. The burn was the same as usual but I have come to love the burn almost as much if not equally as the high. Without the burn, at least in my head, the high would not exist. I enjoy the feeling of snorting and feeling the burn and then laying back and concentrating on the burn turning into the euphoria that is unworldly great...a euphoria that continues to surpass that level of greatness until there human ability has ceased to understand it's level of pleasure. I realized that I had not hit the top of the euphoria chain that I was used to hitting with Mephedrone but as usual and also to my surprise (also as usual) I wasn't the least bit dissatisfied with my high. The high was still very intense but instead of hurrying to get online to talk to people to allow my empathetic euphoria surge I laid back on my floor. I knew my other Meph friend was at a concert and another friend was not online, and my boyfriend had a good hour before he would be home so I allowed all worries to leave my brain and I just laid there on the floor concentrating on the euphoria I had running through my body.
I would like to say that I controlled my high and that I took the deep breaths consciously to contribute to my high, but that is not the case. For the large part of my high I found myself "in the moment" so to speak. Whether it been concentrating so deeply on my breathing as the euphoria surrounded me or whether it be just staring ever so contently with my eyelids half closed at my ceiling unconscious but conscious at the same time. At times I would take a moment to think of things that made me happy, such as cuddling with my boyfriend, or being around close friends. These thoughts made me feel so content inside and still while thinking of such things I was able to keep on absolute attention with how good the euphoria I felt. It came very natural. At times I would concentrate on the internal tingling and energy I could feel throughout my body. All of these thoughts would usually just end up throwing me into a euphoric meditation until I came to realization that I was in that state maybe 10 minutes later. At which point it wasn’t difficult to think of another thought which would then throw me back into it again.
Eventually my boyfriend came back and I decided I would talk to him until he went to bed. He left shortly after and I decided I would put a little water into the bag and snort the droplets. I did that and the euphoria surged once more (not an intense euphoria but a euphoria that I greatly appreciated that night). Normally after a night of Meph I as wide awake and generally take a few Xanax to put me down. Tonight however, I was in such a deeply relaxed perhaps I can go as far to say meditative state, that I decided that I would turn everything off and lay in my bed in complete darkness. It is the strangest thing to say, but this highly meditative and inner calming high was the exact same “feeling” I got from Mephedrone when I snorted it, and was running wild talking to people with my empathetic feelings. It is like the two are on opposite sides of the Meph euphoria spectrum, yet they produce the exact same feeling two completely different ways. I must have laid in the darkness enjoying the high for a while because I can remember small in stances of finding myself in “that moment” and just continuing to go with it. It was a wonderful feeling and completely caught me off guard at the direction this high took me. I purely believe that my attitude going into the high (mostly me realizing that I had no more Meph left to do and that rush that I wanted wasn’t going to happen tonight) allowed me to somewhat direct the euphoria in this way. Mephedrone never ceases to amaze me at its pure intensity, complexity, and also it’s ability to produce such a diverse arrangement of highs.
As always, two thumbs up for Mephedrone.
Tagged by Xorkoth
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