aquascaper
Greenlighter
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- Mar 8, 2010
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Hi all, new here but long-term lurker and a big fan of the site.
Here's a little about me for some background info...
http://www.bluelight.ru/vb/showthread.php?t=492534
It's worth noting that the only drugs I touch now are alchohol (wine with meal etc.) and coffee. Very occasionally I smoke weed at a friends, but my job carries out compulsory drug testing, so I have be careful about timings. Thankfully, over 30s rarely get tested, but you never know!
So I received 1g Mephedrone early this week, costing £14.50 inc. P&P.
It arrived at my home address in a discreet envelope that was sent recorded delivery (thanks goodness my wife didn't open it - she is as straight as a die). The envelope contained the gram in the usual style bag, and nothing else. No invoice, receipt or product description i.e plant feed.
I work away from home midweek but go home every Wednesday and weekends.
Yesterday evening (Wednesay) I decide to give it a little taster and prep a tiny line (10-20mg) just to ensure that I don't have a terrible reaction.
This Mephedrone is a fine pure white/translucent powder, and I was a little concerned that it wan't the real deal. Still, £14.50 isn't a bad risk, but I was more concerned about the potential health implications.
1700 - Snort 10-20mg line in my locked bathroom away from my family. The powder does not need chopping, which is cool. I use dismantled broken biro. Cash notes seem too dirty! The powder does not hurt as much as anticipated. I soon get the taste in the back of my throat and wash it down with water. I actually like the taste feeling, associating with the coke I used to do. The act of snorting brings back good memories.
1702 - Increased awareness but likely pure placebo in anticipation.
1705 - Can sense a tiny increase in hear rate and sit down with my 4 year-old daughter to read her a story - The Gruffalo.
1710 - Feel more alert, like a strong cup of coffee but also enjoy engaging with my daughter a lot more than usual. I am certain she subconsciously detects something and is more affectionate than usual.
1730 - I decide to take another line - around 20-25mg. Suggest to my daughter we listen to some music (she loves Mylo) and we make a house with her Lego - my feet are tapping automatically. She also has some old Technic Lego of mine and we make a simple pneumatic piston set up. She is fascinated and I conclude she takes after her Dad with an engineering background. We are both having a great time. I sense my mouth drying a little so take a glass of water and share it with my daughter using two straws.
1800 - My wife and eldest daughter return from school. My eldest is almost 14 and is extremely bright. She won an academic scholarship to a prestigious private school in England. My wife starts to prepare our evening meal and I sit with my two daughters either side of me. My eldest gets out her laptop and starts her homework. My youngest and I watch Tom and Jerry and laugh a lot together. I glance through my eldest's books and read an essay she wrote on China. I think about how China will eventually become a bigger superpower than the US and consider that the Mephedrone was likely produced there, and wonder about the potential economic influence Mephedrone may have on UK society (and speed, coke, E sales) if it were to remain legal (which it won't, of course).
1815 - Take another 20-30mg. This stuff is incredibly more-ish, as the highs are relatively short-lived but so promising. I check myself out in the mirror and notice slight dilation of the pupils and increased heart rate. I chat with my wife, and feel entirely comfortable. I say how much I've missed her and the kids this week and look forward to snuggling on the sofa once the kids are in bed. My wife responds very positively and we share an intimate kiss; I tell her I love her and she says, "good job really, you're not so bad yourself!" I laugh out loud and help serve dinner.
1830 - Can really feel the stimulant effect now, but find it easy to eat my dinner (pasta carbonara), although the portion is smaller than usual. I finish relatively quickly and talk about design and technology with my eldest daughter. She is a natural and is always bringing us home her creations. Her latest was an 'executive toy'; two wooden fish perfectly balanced on a wire frame that spins for ages on a painted wooden support. Very cool. I help my youngest daughter with her meal and she asks to get on my lap. I want to let her but the wife disapproves, as she's 'not a baby'. We discuss that my wife is the bad cop and I am good cop. I think about how contrasting it is to my role at work where I manage over 20 staff - welfare, morale and discipline, in that order.
1900 - Now I am confident that the drug suits me and I am behaving appropriately I up the next dose to around 50mg.
1905 - I feel the euphoria that I have read about and can sense the rush of dopamine as my eyes roll a touch. Heart rate increased again, but it does not worry me. Life feels very good - like I have my cake and I'm eating it. I look around the house and am thankful for my material blessings and more importantly, my healthy family. My jaw starts to clench and lips dry further so I take on more water and make a conscious effort to control my mouth movements. Thankfully my wife has led a fairly sheltered life and isn't aware of subtle symptoms, so I am not overly concerned.
1910 - Watch a bit of TV with my youngest daughter before bath time. I find it hard to concentrate on it - it's a cartoon designed to educate very basic maths. The colours and sounds are so intense, too gaudy really. I wonder what research goes into what kids like in terms of aesthetics and sounds. I read through more of my eldest's books and discover the chemistry she is doing is already way beyond me. I feel a sense of pride, and confirm that she still wants to be a vet - and not a stereotypical footballer's wife, or something equally as 'shallow'.
1930 - My wife is in the bath and I admire her body, especially her breasts. I become excited about the prospect of sex later, and consider how I'm going to do another line just prior to it. I hope that my climax will be delayed so I can give my wife a lot of pleasure. My youngest daughter gets in the bath with her mum and has a quick wash. We agree that she can stay up until 8pm and watch a little bit more TV, but only have one story read to her (she has up to five).
2000 - Another line. I am getting more generous with qty. This one is likely 80mg+. The euphoria is quite intense. It seems the 'high' lasts about 30 mins average and I wonder if larger qtys. will last longer or just be more intense, or both. I realise how addictive this stuff may become and tell myself that I will only do 500mg total this evening. I have good self-discipline and willpower so it's not an issue.
2015 - I read my youngest daughter a bedtime story - "Why is the sky blue?" I admire the artwork and wonder how easy it is to make a living from being a children's illustrator. I presume like most artists, they need a break and to be in the right place at the right time. Talent is essential, of course! I reflect on my own career and am grateful I have a secure income to support my family.
2030 - My youngest daughter is asleep already. She's always tired from school on a weekday. She snores a little and I sit there listening to her breathing. I love her so much and gently kiss her forehead.
2040 - Time for another line. The buzz is great but disappointingly short-lived. No wonder folk go through grams at a time. This one is about 80mg again.
2050 - Another nice euphoria and this time I get rushes/tingles up and down my spine. Similar to MDMA. My eldest daughter is watching Rosemary and Thyme, a cheesy crime/murder drama with Felicity Kendell and another bigger actress. Felicity is over 60 but still very attractive and I love her posh voice. I joke with Emily and say if you saw those two together you'd run a mile, as someone is gonna get murdered!
2100 - My eldest daughter goes to bed and I help my wife sorting a load of paperwork, banking, accounts etc. I find it surprisingly easy to concentrate and have a good attention span. I go through a load of expenses receipts from my freelance work (to supplement my main job) and am a little shocked at the final figure! I realise that we are quite a materialistic family, but on balance have a good moral/ethical code and contribute in a positive manner to society. We both volunteer for youth work and have an incredibly diverse range of friends; from surgeons to unemployed single mothers.
2130 - I become quite impatient about finishing the admin tasks and offer to make some tea. I nip into the toilet next to the kitchen and hoover up around 100mg. The bag is nearly half full so I promise myself one more small line before bedtime.
2145 - This is the best hit yet. I am sitting with my wife, she is half laid down on the sofa with her legs on top of mine. I am sitting in an upright posture, feeling pleasant sensations, physically, mentally and spiritually. I gently rub my wife's legs with my hand between her loose fitting pyjama bottoms. We discuss our horses, as we were considering selling one. We decide we can still afford two and would rather make sacrifices elsewhere than give up our animals that are part of the family. We discuss getting a large aquarium, as my wife has made room for it in the living room I visualise what it will look like and feel good about it. We talk about our marriage ups and downs and I reassure my wife we will be together forever. She says, "have you had a knock on the head", and I simply say, "I just feel happy to be here right now with you". I stare into her eyes and wonder if she notices my dilated pupils. I don't worry, as I can use the line, when you're attracted to someone your pupils automatically dilate.
2330 - We've talked constantly for almost two hours. More than we've done for a long time. I realise how the TV is so distracting to basic inter-personal communication and make a conscious effort to switch it off more often. I realise that it's the Mephedrone that has allowed this level of communication and am almost tempted to tell my wife about it. However, she would hit the roof. Ignorance that cannot be overcome, and it's probably a good idea, to help keep me from turning to the Dark Side, when drugs control you and not the other way around. I promise myself I will make more of an effort to communicate like this when I am straight. The rewards are well worth the effort.
0000 - I sneak in another smaller line - around 40-50mg just before I get in the shower before bed. We make love - it feels incredible. So close. My climax takes a lot longer than usual, which makes the wife happy.
0130 - My wife is very tired but I am keen to keep talking. I tell her how much she means to me and gently scratch her back - it's her favourite 'thing'. I let her sleep and lie there, mind relatively blank. No closed-eye-visuals which was a bit disappointing. I fall asleep at about 0200.
0330 - I wake up needing a pee and blow my nose. No blood, thankfully. I take a glass of water and go back to sleep.
0600 - Alarm goes off and we both get up. My wife goes out to sort the horses whilst I have my breakfast and a coffee. I feel surprisingly fine. Clear-headed, with very minor jaw ache.
0630 - I drive to work and reflect on my evening. I still have another 500mg and consider when I will do it again. I think I will try mixing 200mg with water next time I'm at my friends house.
In conclusion - a very nice drug with only minor negative side-effects if the doses are appropriate, in my limited experience. It will be interesting to note any depressed feelings a few days afterwards like MDMA. Of course, we don't know potential long-term effects, but I will not be using this frequently - if ever again.
I would be very careful about taking high doses, as you can physically feel the strain on your heart (I know my body well, and am very fit).
It has made me aware of how I can communicate more effectively with my loved ones and has given me a new appreciation to my positive existence.
I am concerned about folk, young and old, getting hooked on this, and think making it illegal is probably for the greater good.
I hope that is of some interest to you.
Cheers.
Here's a little about me for some background info...
http://www.bluelight.ru/vb/showthread.php?t=492534
It's worth noting that the only drugs I touch now are alchohol (wine with meal etc.) and coffee. Very occasionally I smoke weed at a friends, but my job carries out compulsory drug testing, so I have be careful about timings. Thankfully, over 30s rarely get tested, but you never know!
So I received 1g Mephedrone early this week, costing £14.50 inc. P&P.
It arrived at my home address in a discreet envelope that was sent recorded delivery (thanks goodness my wife didn't open it - she is as straight as a die). The envelope contained the gram in the usual style bag, and nothing else. No invoice, receipt or product description i.e plant feed.
I work away from home midweek but go home every Wednesday and weekends.
Yesterday evening (Wednesay) I decide to give it a little taster and prep a tiny line (10-20mg) just to ensure that I don't have a terrible reaction.
This Mephedrone is a fine pure white/translucent powder, and I was a little concerned that it wan't the real deal. Still, £14.50 isn't a bad risk, but I was more concerned about the potential health implications.
1700 - Snort 10-20mg line in my locked bathroom away from my family. The powder does not need chopping, which is cool. I use dismantled broken biro. Cash notes seem too dirty! The powder does not hurt as much as anticipated. I soon get the taste in the back of my throat and wash it down with water. I actually like the taste feeling, associating with the coke I used to do. The act of snorting brings back good memories.
1702 - Increased awareness but likely pure placebo in anticipation.
1705 - Can sense a tiny increase in hear rate and sit down with my 4 year-old daughter to read her a story - The Gruffalo.
1710 - Feel more alert, like a strong cup of coffee but also enjoy engaging with my daughter a lot more than usual. I am certain she subconsciously detects something and is more affectionate than usual.
1730 - I decide to take another line - around 20-25mg. Suggest to my daughter we listen to some music (she loves Mylo) and we make a house with her Lego - my feet are tapping automatically. She also has some old Technic Lego of mine and we make a simple pneumatic piston set up. She is fascinated and I conclude she takes after her Dad with an engineering background. We are both having a great time. I sense my mouth drying a little so take a glass of water and share it with my daughter using two straws.
1800 - My wife and eldest daughter return from school. My eldest is almost 14 and is extremely bright. She won an academic scholarship to a prestigious private school in England. My wife starts to prepare our evening meal and I sit with my two daughters either side of me. My eldest gets out her laptop and starts her homework. My youngest and I watch Tom and Jerry and laugh a lot together. I glance through my eldest's books and read an essay she wrote on China. I think about how China will eventually become a bigger superpower than the US and consider that the Mephedrone was likely produced there, and wonder about the potential economic influence Mephedrone may have on UK society (and speed, coke, E sales) if it were to remain legal (which it won't, of course).
1815 - Take another 20-30mg. This stuff is incredibly more-ish, as the highs are relatively short-lived but so promising. I check myself out in the mirror and notice slight dilation of the pupils and increased heart rate. I chat with my wife, and feel entirely comfortable. I say how much I've missed her and the kids this week and look forward to snuggling on the sofa once the kids are in bed. My wife responds very positively and we share an intimate kiss; I tell her I love her and she says, "good job really, you're not so bad yourself!" I laugh out loud and help serve dinner.
1830 - Can really feel the stimulant effect now, but find it easy to eat my dinner (pasta carbonara), although the portion is smaller than usual. I finish relatively quickly and talk about design and technology with my eldest daughter. She is a natural and is always bringing us home her creations. Her latest was an 'executive toy'; two wooden fish perfectly balanced on a wire frame that spins for ages on a painted wooden support. Very cool. I help my youngest daughter with her meal and she asks to get on my lap. I want to let her but the wife disapproves, as she's 'not a baby'. We discuss that my wife is the bad cop and I am good cop. I think about how contrasting it is to my role at work where I manage over 20 staff - welfare, morale and discipline, in that order.
1900 - Now I am confident that the drug suits me and I am behaving appropriately I up the next dose to around 50mg.
1905 - I feel the euphoria that I have read about and can sense the rush of dopamine as my eyes roll a touch. Heart rate increased again, but it does not worry me. Life feels very good - like I have my cake and I'm eating it. I look around the house and am thankful for my material blessings and more importantly, my healthy family. My jaw starts to clench and lips dry further so I take on more water and make a conscious effort to control my mouth movements. Thankfully my wife has led a fairly sheltered life and isn't aware of subtle symptoms, so I am not overly concerned.
1910 - Watch a bit of TV with my youngest daughter before bath time. I find it hard to concentrate on it - it's a cartoon designed to educate very basic maths. The colours and sounds are so intense, too gaudy really. I wonder what research goes into what kids like in terms of aesthetics and sounds. I read through more of my eldest's books and discover the chemistry she is doing is already way beyond me. I feel a sense of pride, and confirm that she still wants to be a vet - and not a stereotypical footballer's wife, or something equally as 'shallow'.
1930 - My wife is in the bath and I admire her body, especially her breasts. I become excited about the prospect of sex later, and consider how I'm going to do another line just prior to it. I hope that my climax will be delayed so I can give my wife a lot of pleasure. My youngest daughter gets in the bath with her mum and has a quick wash. We agree that she can stay up until 8pm and watch a little bit more TV, but only have one story read to her (she has up to five).
2000 - Another line. I am getting more generous with qty. This one is likely 80mg+. The euphoria is quite intense. It seems the 'high' lasts about 30 mins average and I wonder if larger qtys. will last longer or just be more intense, or both. I realise how addictive this stuff may become and tell myself that I will only do 500mg total this evening. I have good self-discipline and willpower so it's not an issue.
2015 - I read my youngest daughter a bedtime story - "Why is the sky blue?" I admire the artwork and wonder how easy it is to make a living from being a children's illustrator. I presume like most artists, they need a break and to be in the right place at the right time. Talent is essential, of course! I reflect on my own career and am grateful I have a secure income to support my family.
2030 - My youngest daughter is asleep already. She's always tired from school on a weekday. She snores a little and I sit there listening to her breathing. I love her so much and gently kiss her forehead.
2040 - Time for another line. The buzz is great but disappointingly short-lived. No wonder folk go through grams at a time. This one is about 80mg again.
2050 - Another nice euphoria and this time I get rushes/tingles up and down my spine. Similar to MDMA. My eldest daughter is watching Rosemary and Thyme, a cheesy crime/murder drama with Felicity Kendell and another bigger actress. Felicity is over 60 but still very attractive and I love her posh voice. I joke with Emily and say if you saw those two together you'd run a mile, as someone is gonna get murdered!
2100 - My eldest daughter goes to bed and I help my wife sorting a load of paperwork, banking, accounts etc. I find it surprisingly easy to concentrate and have a good attention span. I go through a load of expenses receipts from my freelance work (to supplement my main job) and am a little shocked at the final figure! I realise that we are quite a materialistic family, but on balance have a good moral/ethical code and contribute in a positive manner to society. We both volunteer for youth work and have an incredibly diverse range of friends; from surgeons to unemployed single mothers.
2130 - I become quite impatient about finishing the admin tasks and offer to make some tea. I nip into the toilet next to the kitchen and hoover up around 100mg. The bag is nearly half full so I promise myself one more small line before bedtime.
2145 - This is the best hit yet. I am sitting with my wife, she is half laid down on the sofa with her legs on top of mine. I am sitting in an upright posture, feeling pleasant sensations, physically, mentally and spiritually. I gently rub my wife's legs with my hand between her loose fitting pyjama bottoms. We discuss our horses, as we were considering selling one. We decide we can still afford two and would rather make sacrifices elsewhere than give up our animals that are part of the family. We discuss getting a large aquarium, as my wife has made room for it in the living room I visualise what it will look like and feel good about it. We talk about our marriage ups and downs and I reassure my wife we will be together forever. She says, "have you had a knock on the head", and I simply say, "I just feel happy to be here right now with you". I stare into her eyes and wonder if she notices my dilated pupils. I don't worry, as I can use the line, when you're attracted to someone your pupils automatically dilate.
2330 - We've talked constantly for almost two hours. More than we've done for a long time. I realise how the TV is so distracting to basic inter-personal communication and make a conscious effort to switch it off more often. I realise that it's the Mephedrone that has allowed this level of communication and am almost tempted to tell my wife about it. However, she would hit the roof. Ignorance that cannot be overcome, and it's probably a good idea, to help keep me from turning to the Dark Side, when drugs control you and not the other way around. I promise myself I will make more of an effort to communicate like this when I am straight. The rewards are well worth the effort.
0000 - I sneak in another smaller line - around 40-50mg just before I get in the shower before bed. We make love - it feels incredible. So close. My climax takes a lot longer than usual, which makes the wife happy.
0130 - My wife is very tired but I am keen to keep talking. I tell her how much she means to me and gently scratch her back - it's her favourite 'thing'. I let her sleep and lie there, mind relatively blank. No closed-eye-visuals which was a bit disappointing. I fall asleep at about 0200.
0330 - I wake up needing a pee and blow my nose. No blood, thankfully. I take a glass of water and go back to sleep.
0600 - Alarm goes off and we both get up. My wife goes out to sort the horses whilst I have my breakfast and a coffee. I feel surprisingly fine. Clear-headed, with very minor jaw ache.
0630 - I drive to work and reflect on my evening. I still have another 500mg and consider when I will do it again. I think I will try mixing 200mg with water next time I'm at my friends house.
In conclusion - a very nice drug with only minor negative side-effects if the doses are appropriate, in my limited experience. It will be interesting to note any depressed feelings a few days afterwards like MDMA. Of course, we don't know potential long-term effects, but I will not be using this frequently - if ever again.
I would be very careful about taking high doses, as you can physically feel the strain on your heart (I know my body well, and am very fit).
It has made me aware of how I can communicate more effectively with my loved ones and has given me a new appreciation to my positive existence.
I am concerned about folk, young and old, getting hooked on this, and think making it illegal is probably for the greater good.
I hope that is of some interest to you.
Cheers.
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..... A+ for effort though
