stardust.hero
Bluelight Crew
This is really long. I'm sorry ahead of time. This was a conscious stream of thoughts for 3 hours.
Tonight is the night I'm going to try Mephedrone for the first time. I do not have any past experience with ecstasy or methanphetamine so this will be completely new to me. I've decided I'm going to take 100mg and then a 50mg booster. I have 1g so, so far I have divided it into two 500mg lines. I'm going to further cut it into 250mg lines and then finally hopefully into two 100mg lines and one 50mg line from there. I'm definitely eyeballing these doses so it's not completely accurate to the mg. I have a .1g scale so I can be off by nearly 100mg each time. So I've decided to try and eye the dosage and use the scale as a rough estimate. I put the 2nd 500mg bunch back into the bag for later.
The substance is much more fluffy and humid than I had expected. It is prone to clumping as if the humidity in the air was making it moist. I cut it down to 150mg which I will do in 3 separate microscopic lines. 150mg is a very small like especially when the substance is so fluffy. Some of the meph got onto my finger and it is EXTREMELY chemical tasting. I am afraid to put even this small amount of it up my nose. It might have been safer to swallow this in a cap but I'm here now and this is what I'm doing. Cutting lines out of this stuff is nearly impossible >_<. Maybe if I lived in the Sahara desert this shit would cut properly. It somewhat frightens me that such a small amount of something can potentially get you so fucked up. This is a smaller amount than the xanax lines I do and xanax are small.
T: 11:43 i railed about 75-90mg. Feeling a slight mood lift. Eye distortion (I can't quite describe it). I feel a bit speedy. The chemical drip is really shit. I find it much more important to talk to people on AIM than to write this report![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
. I'm feeling rather speedy with only a slight mood lift. I'm feeling repetitive. I think I'm gonna do another 50. I feel the need to open a lot of AIM tabs and talk to people. I don't know if this is a placebo. I feel different. Not so much euphoric as I do speedy. VERY SPEEDY.
T: 11:53 It's odd that at exactly 10 minutes I did another 25mg. Definitely feeling better and better as the minutes go by. I'm not feeling that mental orgasm I'm expecting. I feel fucked up but not euphoric. Not even close to opiate euphoria
. Im a bit disappointed so far. It's only been 10 minutes.
T: 12:00 I feel kind of fucked up. I lost a lot of inhibition. I feel very lazy and yet I am talking and typing like crazy. I don't know how I feel. I feel numb and good and happy. Pleasant. I love the people I'm talking to in AIM and whoever is reading this I love you too (in advance). My pupils are the size of basketballs! It's only been 3 minutes. If i rail another line I might get too fucked up to function. I have no idea. This is getting better by the minute. I feel energy surging through my body. I feel tingly energy.
T: 12:09 Did another 25ish. I feel lovely. I think I want to just do the rest. If I did it all I would have gotten a nice rush but I wanted to be safe. I've only done around 125mg. 200 is the average dose. This could be much better. I'm telling myself this because I want to rail the rest. I should just do it. My heart is definitely beating much faster than usual. I don't have enough inhibition to see what the actual rate is. My TV sounds loud so i'm going to turn it down. I don't know if it's actually loud. I definitely feel I am able to function and talk to people through a closed door. I would do this again. I have a strong want to take more now. I'm gonna rail the rest of this shit at 12:20. I'm looking on my buddylist for people to talk to. I want very badly to talk to people. I wanna rail this damn line! I wanna do it so bad! Time is going so slow and I wanna fuckin do it! My pupils are 2 different sizes I think. I'm gonna do the last bit of my 150.
T: 12:20 I did the last of my 150mg. I feel very good. I am definitely high. I'm going t do the full 250. I don't think 150 is enough. I am desperate to talk to someone. I am IMing people I never talk to. This can't end well. I should be pleased at my current state because I am VERY HIGH. But I want more. I'm gonna rail a big one. I'm far too fucked up to measure anything so i'm just gonna eyeball it. This cannot be goood.
T: 12:30 Very moreish. I know I should not be doing this but I'm gonna do it anyways. I didn't even measure it. I railed it all that was great. It just gets better and better with every line.I should have done one big line then I wouldn't want to keep doing smaller ones. I feel fantastic. Absolutely fantastic. I don't give a fuck about anything. People are not responding to me fast enough. My vision is absolutely absurd. 250mg is the most wonderful feeling in the world. If I was with people I would feel a lot better. One thing I notice though is that I think that I do something and then I realize that I didn't. Like I thought that I changed the channel on my TV but it's still on the same channel since I started. I forgot that I put this straw back in my backpack. My jaw is very tight. This would be a fantastic social drug.It is incredibly difficult to focus. My vision is very jumpy/pulsating. It is very difficult to carry on a meaningful IM conversation with someone. I can't quite read or focus my thoughts on what other people are saying. This stuff is fantastic. Vivid is a word I could use.
T12:40 I don't really know how close together I am doing these times. I don't feel like checking. I feel wonderful and I want the world to know it. I am desperate to talk to people. I am telling people I wouldn't normally tell that I am high. Not anyone important..but online friends that really don't need to know that I snort research chemicals for fun. I am full of energy and happiness and everything. I just want to say I love you i love you i love you over and over again but this would be really pointless and boring if I did. I am talking to my friend who is also high through text and I just want to go on and on about how much I love her and I an happy that she is talking to me and how I want to feel like this forever. This is absolutely ridiculous. MY TV IS STILL ON THIS SAME FUCKING CHANNEL. It's only been 6 minutes which is wonderful btw. I make no sense I don't think I'm going to post this under trip reports. We'll see tomorrow. I don't think it would be possible to feel any better than I feel right now. Absolute bliss, heaven, love, wonder, there are not enough words in the English language to describe how wonderful I feel.
12:50 I'm going to log times in 10 minute increments. I don't feel any difference or lowered euphoria. It's a pretty constant pleasant good wonderful (here we go again) feeling. I am surprised at how well I am typing and how much I am typing and how fast I am tying. I am finding that I can just go on rants and I need to stop myself. I want to type infinitely free thought with no regard for punctuation or anything. I just want to type what I am thinking. I am surprised at how well I am typing. I just want to keep telling my friend that I love her. I can describe how thankful I feel for everything. I am so happy that my friend who also does drugs is talking to me through txt because I love her and she makes me happy. We actually aren't have any meaningful conversation and we've actually only been talking for 10 minutes. But I love her. And I love the world and I have lost all interest in writing a trip report and I just want to type meaningless shit because it makes me happy. Words cannot describe how happy it makes me feel. Every text I send her I write that I love her. It's very redundant. I know it but it makes me happy every time I write it. She doesn't have AIM so I'm going to try and IM her on myspace IM. I can't make things happen fast enough. Love. I just want to add the word love into every sentence. It is easy to forget things. I should drink some water. I am not moving.
T: 1:00 I wish I was with people but I am happy talking through IM. My mouth is dry I'm going to drink a lot of water. I drank half a bottle of water. It felt good. I feel so alive. I haven't noticed any decrease so far in my mood. I spent the past 7 minutes typing to ym friend about how good this is and how I want to type that I love her over and over. This is not a drug to take when you have things to do because all you want to do is say that you love the person you are talking to/with and that you are so thankful and glad that they are there. I just wanna go on and on about how good this shit is and how wonderful it is. I want to be like this forever. I think I am typing really fast I don't know. In the back of my mind there is a slight fear that this will wear off and I don't want this feeling to leave me. I am trying very hard to remember and type everything I am thinking to make this report true to fact.
T 1:14 I feel like I've lost something. I am still very high but I can feel it decreasing. I want to do more but I wont. It is a wonderful feeling and I want to experience it with my boyfriend this weekend. This is wonderful. I feel very content. I know I am coming down but I am happy I experienced this and I am going to enjoy the rest of the ride. I can feel some residual stuff in the bridge part of my nose. It makes me happy knowing it's there. Just wanted to state that ridiculous fact.
T 1:21 My last time log was 6 minutes ago. That is ridiculous. Time is going very slow. I can't believe my non drug friends are sitting here listening to me talk about this random shit. I am typing faster than my computer can register the text. I want to feel like this forever. I think my computer is just lagging and I am not actually typing this fast. I have no concept of anything. I am just rattling off anything that comes to mind at this point. This would be fantastic to do at a party or a club. ABSOLUTELY fantastic! I am retyping a lot of what I say in IMs into this report. It seems relevant. Who knows at this point. I still feel wonderful. For a second I thought I lost it... but I didn't. I shouldn't have read those trip reports. I think they are tainting my experience because I am terrified I am going to lose this feeling. I would have rathered just go into the trip not knowing anything so when it disappears it will be a surprise instead of me dwelling on it. I am logging time in 10 minute time blocks and I just want to free write for the full 10 minutes. I have so many thought I want to write down. I am afraid my blog and all my thoughts are going to disappear so I am backing them up in notepad like every 2 minutes. My mouth is so dry. It's almost 1:30. This os so long nobody is going to read it. I just want to write everything I think. Every thought is important.
T 1:32 I want to type everything I want to express every thought. I have a very dry mouth and I want to drink more but I don't want to stop typing. It makes me so happy to think to feel to type this and see my words and let others see my words. I want to talk to everyone. My friend who was also high left to go lay down. I am very sad she left. I have 1 friend left to talk to. I think this text ls lagging because I have so much text and the forum can't handle it. I'm gonna switch to notepad.It took a great deal of effort to stop typing in bl and move to notepad. This is much better though. I love everything. If my boyfriend was here I'd totally be loving him up right now. I wonder how long this report is. It looks hella long. I don't think trip reports are this long. This is not a trip report anymore. This is jsut me babbling about shit. Concious stream of thought as they call it I think.I duno. My mouth is dry. I am going to force myself to drink even though I just want to type foreverrrr. It's only 1:39.I am overly dramatic in text messages. For a while I thought it would be really annoying to be the person on the other side listening to me say this stupid shit but I thought about it again and it's probably actually quite funny. I am very energetic. I like to talk to energetic people. In fact if I could clone myself I would talk to myself all night. I've written a lot of words so far I feel that I have collected something. Like I have a collection and I am proud of it. I just feel good. Nothing in the world right now could feel any better. I am just at peace with everything and happy...and I'm not gonna go on one of these tangents again no matter how bad I want to. I went into an AOL chat and said I was hi and told everyone I loved them. They didn't love me back. I'm going to go in another chat and try and carry on a normal conversation.
1:43 I think it's been longer than an hour. This is still going strong. My laptop has been unplugged since I started and it's just running out of juice now. I feel like that is some sort of accomplishment. I am worried my report will get lost and all of my precious writing will be gone. I saved it but i'm afraid I will forget where I saved it. I'm going to check and make sure it's in the correct place.My mouth is really dry. I wonder if my body is burning a lot of calories. I feel like I've been running. Like i'm still running and I have infinite energy. I can picture myself running and feeling like this. It feels good.I took another drink. It felt good. But I want to type thoughts. I would imagine if I was with people I would be talking and expressing these thoughts. But I am alone in my room so I am typing away non stop with an occasional IM to my one remaining friend.I can't believe he is still talking to me. Everything is just in superdrive. If presented a topic I can roll with it on a dime and just spit out words and sentences and thoughts. I find it fun to just roll with sentences like the last one and keep naming things like and this and that and this and that and this and that. Wow I could definitely kept typing that last sentence over and over and over and over >_< if I wanted. I'm on a damn roll! I have to keep asking my friend to elaborate and explain what he is talking about because I have no idea. MY MOUTH IS SO FUCKING DRY.
T 1:50 I drank the rest of my water. I am so happy I talked to Steph. I am going to have to go back tomorrow and edit names out of this. Or maybe I wont. I have noclue. This is probably going to be really long and I wont want to edit it. I am so damn over exaggerated with everything I say in IMs. I wish I was with people. This would be fantastic. I am normally a somewhat hyper person but this would put me over the edge...but in a good way. I want to do everything just a note. I am happy this residual stuff is in the bridge of my nose. It's like it reminds me of a long lost friend. This is my first time doing this and I feel like I've known it forever. It feel so natural. It isn't how I expected it to be in any way but it is so equally wonderful in it's own way.I really wanted to write a good trip report but I think this is way too much text and it's just babbling bullshit and I don't think it's allowed to be posted. I'm probably going to do a summary tomorrow. I can't/don't want to think about tomorrow because I am so happy in the moment today.I continue to IM new people in an attempt to talk to new people. I wish I was still talking to Steph. i want to talk about the drug and my feelings. I want to tell her I love her because I do. I love everyone I know they are so great and I am so thankful for how I feel right now.A new friend IMed me but she can't know about my drug endeavors. I am going to try and talk about something else.I can't believe my friend is still talking to me. I wish Justin was here. It's going to be so fun to do with him I am so excited. I feel so much love for him. I think this will help my relationship.I want to comment people on myspace.
T 2:00 I am writing a PM to a friend on BL. It is dificult not to go on rants and tangents and so on and so forth etc etc etc... see what I mean? I am still talking to my other friend in IM. I can't believe he is still talking to me and not getting bored. We really arn't talking about anything worth talking about. Anything anyone would say to me at this moment would be wonderful. Human contact even if it's through words on a computer screen feel wonderful. I am so thankful and happy I am talking to them. Wow I completely forgot to think about what my body actually feels like this whole time and I have been focused on my mind and my thoughts and feelings. My body still feels really amazing. There is a subtle tingling through my entire body. It feels wonderful. My eyesight is somewhat difficult to focus but that feels good as well. I wouldn't trade the way I feel right at this moment for anything else in the world.I scrolled up for a second. I am writing a book. I want to have more text messages open. I am putting it out of my mind that this feeling will eventually leave me because it makes me sad. I'm going to try and roll (hahaha) with it all night. I like that I can IM people and just tell them I love them. It's a great feeling but in no way normal or socially acceptable. I don't care and I love the feeling. I drank all of my water and my mouth is terribly dry. I want to go t the kitchen to fill my bottle up but I'm afraid I will wake someone.Everyone is so peaceful. When I think about the feeling of railing a line and the slight burn and the smell it makes me have a mind orgasm.I wrote my other friend a PM and at the end I wrote Love, Me...and that was the only place that it felt right to put the word love so I took advantage of it and wrote it a lot. From time to time I notice that I have a body. Actually only 2 times throughout this whole session I noticed how my body felt. The entire rest of the time I have been focused on my thoughts and writing them as fast as I can. My chest feels a bit tight like I've taken the stack. I am sweating and am very hot. I think I may be over heating. I should drink water. I've drank an entire bottle of water already. That is more than I drink in a day. I wonder if my body is using more if it.
T2:12 I opened AOL a while ago (I'm not gonna look how long it's been I'll look later and edit this) and I still haven't opened the chat window. I really wish I was cuddling with Justin and telling him how much I love him. This is the 3rd time in the night I took notice took my body rather than my mind. I noticed this time that my jaw feels very tense like I want to move it and chew. It feels unused.I think I have been mouthing what I'm typing the entire time. That's a funny thought. I wonder how long it's been. I worry this will run out soon. I'm not going to take more despite how fantastic it is. No matter how interesting and fun typing in notepad allll night seems to me at the moment. I don't think I want to redose. I am a bit tired. Curing in a ball seems like it would be nice. An opiate ball of happiness. I have way too much energy to put anything down or stop talking and typing on my computer. I seriously think I am writing a book. I am afraid to look up and see how much I wrote. I can imagine the feeling of snorting another line of that shit. It feels wonderful it is a wonderful thought. It is so grand. I still haven't changed that channel since I started this. I just noted that. It's funny. I want to just change it for the simple fact to say that I did. But it doesn't matter. I'm just gonna type more and look at more stuff. Energy energy energy.I IMed my friend who left at like 11:30 I sent him this text :come online come online come online it's be fun I promise i promise i promise! I thought it was really funny. I really like those words I want to type them over and over and over again.
2:20 I think that being in public on this would be a compleatly different situation and it would be even greater but that is hard to fathom because this is the greatest moment right now. I'm going to go back to talking about the TV channel here because I can't focus/take the time to look through my last paragraph and find that part. But anyways I wanna make a note about the channel: I cannot find the change to change it because every second is taken up and busy doing something else. Mainly typing and thinking thoughts. Lots and lots of thoughts that are meaningless. It is so fun to just think and type and be here and be sitting on my bed. I wonder what it would be like to put my computer away and close my eyes and lay on my bed. I bet that would feel wonderful but right now I am getting my giddies off of typing this shit and IMing people.I My feet are numb I just noticed. I don't know if it's from the mehpedrone or from being in the same spot the entire time. They are tingly and cold like when your foot falls asleep and it's slowly gaining the blood back. That feels amazing.That was the 4th time I thought about my physical feeling the ENTIRE time. This really is a mentally stimulating drug. I was expecting to feel orgasmic in my body. But it is a different euphoric feeling. My chest feels tight kind of like I've been running or doing strenuous exercise. For those who have heard of DDR it's like when you try and pass a really hard ass song and you push yourself to finish and your heart is beating so fast. But my heart isn't beating that fast. In fact i can't feel my heart beating (which could be a good thing). I'm going to take all of my clothes off because I am very very hot and am starting to sweat. I feel like I've run a marathon! A wonderful marathon of joy and bliss. I actually haven't moved or done anything physically since 11. All mental thoughts. Moving feels good my laptop is very hot so I have on boxers.
2:30 These 10 minute increments feel very long. Which is good because I want this to last forever. I just scrolled up. That was a scary amount of text I wrote. I can't belive this is all thoughts. I can't even think what I could have written. I wonder if it makes sense. I've definitely peaked and don't feel that over the top off the wall amazing euphoric love and emotion and feeling that I did. I feel a bit speedy I feel like I can think anything I feel very mentally powerful. I feel like I am coming out of the euphoric haze and I can type a better report now. I am NOT at all tired. I am on the opposite side of the scale from tired which would be awake. I want to make the word AWAKE a more powerful word than it is because that is how I feel. I feel infinite. I have just noticed that my computer is running very hot. This is the 5th time I noticed something in my physical surrounding or my physical self. I don't feel AS empathetic and lovey as I did but I still and very happy and thankful and content right now.I wish my friend was online. I miss her a lot. This would be so much better of she was here. But thinking about her makes me happy as well. Knowing that she is there and that I know here. It is wonderful. I still haven't opened a chat. I am going to attempt to now since my thoughts have slowed. It's 2:35 i get worried that I missed my 10 minute timing intervals (like it matters) but it does right now. I bet it would be interesting to read all this crap that I wrote. I would like to read it right now but I want to type my thoughts and feelings. I am going to sup this up into a legitimate trip report tomorrow and maybe I will post the raw version (this version) in an external link inc ase any crazy person wants to read all this crap.I want a drink and my urge to pee has subsided. I've entered another chat. I don't feel as much of an urge to express my feelings to them as I did before.I want to talk to people. It doesn't have to be a meaningful conversation (which it would be/or isn't because I'm high) but I just want to talk to people. It helps me enjoy the high. it potentates it.
2:40 I bet it would feel good to lay down and enjoy this or dance but I really feel the need to communicate with people. It brings out the empathy in the high. It is rather difficult to look at the chat and read what people are typing. I am far too stimulated to try.I'm going to put a shirt on even though I am sweating. I'm going to turn on my fan. Movement feels really good. I would enjoy dancing right now or cuddling with someone or touching someone specifically my boyfriend who I love a lot. It feels wonderful to breath.I lost interest in the chat and closed it. I didn't read anything that anyone said. I'm going to make a brave move and go pee and get a drink because I don't feel I can enjoy the high with these on my mind.That was fun. My chest feels tight but not in an unpleasant way. It's tight in a sense like when you take a big breath and it feel so good. I just want to take a million of those. I got water also. It is very moist in my mouth. It feels like pouring water on the sahara desert like the ground sucks up the water, my tongue just sucked up all that water. My friend just asked me what a trip report was. Oh god here we go. This is gonna be a full on ramble about shit that will never end. Who knows when I'll be back. I explained that really fast. I thought it would take longer. I just realized that I haven't listened to any music this entire time. WTF is wrong with me. I'm gonna put on some tunes. I think I'm experiencing the speedy after effects from the Meph because this music is kind of distracting. I can't tell whether this song is better than it usually is or not. It's alright. I should have been listening when I was peaking but I was too busy. In other reports I read that the drug was very moreish and you wanted to do more and more after the peak because there was no come down.
T: 2:50 I think it's been well over an hour and according to other reports I shouldn't be feeling anything. My pupils are still very dilated and I still have the overall vision and coordination aura. The Euphoria is great but only seems to last an hour. The speedy comedown is cool. I would like to do more because it was a fun run but I don't feel the NEED to do it now. I'm very content with whatever comes next whether I fall asleep or keep typing. It's all good. My friend is now going to bed. I am not nearly as sad as I was before about him leaving. I am accepting and happy. I feel overall content. I find that I am licking my lips a lot because my mouth is very dry. I find that I keep writing "I feel.. I feel... I feel...." a lot. I kind of wish I was talking to someone important (not just anyone like before). I think my heart rate has come down because my fan is making me a bit chilly. I'm listening to Technologic. It's rather catchy. I look forward to experimenting with this drug in other different situations to see which it performs best in. It would be a lot better right now if I was cuddling with Justin. It's only been 3 hours since I started this ride and it feels like it's been an eternity. I'm going to read the ridiculous PMs I wrote and see how funny they are.I just opened my mouth fully for the first time this entire time and it felt very good. Like getting out of a seat and stretching after you've sat for a while. It feel so tight and I just want to move it.
T: 3:00 I don't know if I'm tired or not. Exhausted maybe? I don't know. I am very content and feel very good thought. Like a low opiate buzz. I just read the PMs I sent to people and they are absolutely ridiculous. I am reading over these PMs and reading the words I can feel how much bliss and enjoyment I was in. I miss it a little. I want to lay down and close my eyes but I feel very awake. I am exhausted but not tired. My sinuses feel wonderful. I think I'm going to try and get some sleep. This will probably be impossible.
T3:13 I am going to try and go to bed.
To sum up my Mehpedrone trip, I could definitely say that this is a very social drug. If I were at a party or around a large amount of people it would be very fun to do. I didn't feel the need to redose after the peak as much as I felt the need to keep dosing one line after the other because each felt better than the first and I wanted to keep increasing the euphoria. Althought if I wasn't so tired at the time and I wasn't home I would say that I would have definitely wanted to redose. I planned on taking 150mg but once I reached that I wanted to go one step further so I took out a small but which I didn't measure and snorted it right up .I am a pretty conscious and sane thinking person but while on Mehpedrone I found that I just wanted to do it to make myself happy. I think it's more moreish in the fact that you want to peak harder. The lines are not that bad to snort and it is a very small amount. The initial burning was noted but not too bad at all. The burning after that felt good because I knew I was getting higher with the burn. I would say that the burn is a good feeling associated with this high. I did small dosing increments so I didn't really get that initial rush. I do have to note that at the moment I feel that the next time I do this I will want to do 250mg with a 150mg booster. I actually just want to take 500mg for myself. The extreme euphoria is rather short lasting probably an hour and a half but afterwards there is definitely a warm, content, but speedy feeling. Also I noted absolutely NO smell what so ever. It tasted a bit strongly of chemicals like xanax and others taste but it in no way smelled bad. I laid in bed for a while after I stopped writing the report and I felt very good. My face felt nice and my overall body had a good feeling. The only thing I noted was that I felt tired but I couldn't quite fall asleep. However, It didn't take me that long to fall asleep, maybe a whole hour after I left.Usually my computers fan and lights annoy me at night but I couldn't actually hear the fan last night. I look forward to doing Mehpedrone again. It was a very fun experience. As of today I feel very good with a definite positive aura still lingering from the drug.
Tagged by Xorkoth
substancecode_mephedrone
substancecode_4mmc
substancecode_cathinones
substancecode_stimulants
explevel_firsttime
exptype_positive
exptype_glowing
roacode_nasal
Tonight is the night I'm going to try Mephedrone for the first time. I do not have any past experience with ecstasy or methanphetamine so this will be completely new to me. I've decided I'm going to take 100mg and then a 50mg booster. I have 1g so, so far I have divided it into two 500mg lines. I'm going to further cut it into 250mg lines and then finally hopefully into two 100mg lines and one 50mg line from there. I'm definitely eyeballing these doses so it's not completely accurate to the mg. I have a .1g scale so I can be off by nearly 100mg each time. So I've decided to try and eye the dosage and use the scale as a rough estimate. I put the 2nd 500mg bunch back into the bag for later.
The substance is much more fluffy and humid than I had expected. It is prone to clumping as if the humidity in the air was making it moist. I cut it down to 150mg which I will do in 3 separate microscopic lines. 150mg is a very small like especially when the substance is so fluffy. Some of the meph got onto my finger and it is EXTREMELY chemical tasting. I am afraid to put even this small amount of it up my nose. It might have been safer to swallow this in a cap but I'm here now and this is what I'm doing. Cutting lines out of this stuff is nearly impossible >_<. Maybe if I lived in the Sahara desert this shit would cut properly. It somewhat frightens me that such a small amount of something can potentially get you so fucked up. This is a smaller amount than the xanax lines I do and xanax are small.
T: 11:43 i railed about 75-90mg. Feeling a slight mood lift. Eye distortion (I can't quite describe it). I feel a bit speedy. The chemical drip is really shit. I find it much more important to talk to people on AIM than to write this report
. I'm feeling rather speedy with only a slight mood lift. I'm feeling repetitive. I think I'm gonna do another 50. I feel the need to open a lot of AIM tabs and talk to people. I don't know if this is a placebo. I feel different. Not so much euphoric as I do speedy. VERY SPEEDY. T: 11:53 It's odd that at exactly 10 minutes I did another 25mg. Definitely feeling better and better as the minutes go by. I'm not feeling that mental orgasm I'm expecting. I feel fucked up but not euphoric. Not even close to opiate euphoria
. Im a bit disappointed so far. It's only been 10 minutes.T: 12:00 I feel kind of fucked up. I lost a lot of inhibition. I feel very lazy and yet I am talking and typing like crazy. I don't know how I feel. I feel numb and good and happy. Pleasant. I love the people I'm talking to in AIM and whoever is reading this I love you too (in advance). My pupils are the size of basketballs! It's only been 3 minutes. If i rail another line I might get too fucked up to function. I have no idea. This is getting better by the minute. I feel energy surging through my body. I feel tingly energy.
T: 12:09 Did another 25ish. I feel lovely. I think I want to just do the rest. If I did it all I would have gotten a nice rush but I wanted to be safe
. I've only done around 125mg. 200 is the average dose. This could be much better. I'm telling myself this because I want to rail the rest. I should just do it. My heart is definitely beating much faster than usual. I don't have enough inhibition to see what the actual rate is. My TV sounds loud so i'm going to turn it down. I don't know if it's actually loud. I definitely feel I am able to function and talk to people through a closed door. I would do this again. I have a strong want to take more now. I'm gonna rail the rest of this shit at 12:20. I'm looking on my buddylist for people to talk to. I want very badly to talk to people. I wanna rail this damn line! I wanna do it so bad! Time is going so slow and I wanna fuckin do it! My pupils are 2 different sizes I think. I'm gonna do the last bit of my 150.T: 12:20 I did the last of my 150mg. I feel very good. I am definitely high. I'm going t do the full 250. I don't think 150 is enough. I am desperate to talk to someone. I am IMing people I never talk to. This can't end well. I should be pleased at my current state because I am VERY HIGH. But I want more. I'm gonna rail a big one. I'm far too fucked up to measure anything so i'm just gonna eyeball it. This cannot be goood.
T: 12:30 Very moreish. I know I should not be doing this but I'm gonna do it anyways. I didn't even measure it. I railed it all that was great. It just gets better and better with every line.I should have done one big line then I wouldn't want to keep doing smaller ones. I feel fantastic. Absolutely fantastic. I don't give a fuck about anything. People are not responding to me fast enough. My vision is absolutely absurd. 250mg is the most wonderful feeling in the world. If I was with people I would feel a lot better. One thing I notice though is that I think that I do something and then I realize that I didn't. Like I thought that I changed the channel on my TV but it's still on the same channel since I started. I forgot that I put this straw back in my backpack. My jaw is very tight. This would be a fantastic social drug.It is incredibly difficult to focus. My vision is very jumpy/pulsating. It is very difficult to carry on a meaningful IM conversation with someone. I can't quite read or focus my thoughts on what other people are saying. This stuff is fantastic. Vivid is a word I could use.
T12:40 I don't really know how close together I am doing these times. I don't feel like checking. I feel wonderful and I want the world to know it. I am desperate to talk to people. I am telling people I wouldn't normally tell that I am high. Not anyone important..but online friends that really don't need to know that I snort research chemicals for fun. I am full of energy and happiness and everything. I just want to say I love you i love you i love you over and over again but this would be really pointless and boring if I did. I am talking to my friend who is also high through text and I just want to go on and on about how much I love her and I an happy that she is talking to me and how I want to feel like this forever. This is absolutely ridiculous. MY TV IS STILL ON THIS SAME FUCKING CHANNEL. It's only been 6 minutes which is wonderful btw. I make no sense I don't think I'm going to post this under trip reports. We'll see tomorrow. I don't think it would be possible to feel any better than I feel right now. Absolute bliss, heaven, love, wonder, there are not enough words in the English language to describe how wonderful I feel.
12:50 I'm going to log times in 10 minute increments. I don't feel any difference or lowered euphoria. It's a pretty constant pleasant good wonderful (here we go again) feeling. I am surprised at how well I am typing and how much I am typing and how fast I am tying. I am finding that I can just go on rants and I need to stop myself. I want to type infinitely free thought with no regard for punctuation or anything. I just want to type what I am thinking. I am surprised at how well I am typing. I just want to keep telling my friend that I love her. I can describe how thankful I feel for everything. I am so happy that my friend who also does drugs is talking to me through txt because I love her and she makes me happy. We actually aren't have any meaningful conversation and we've actually only been talking for 10 minutes. But I love her. And I love the world and I have lost all interest in writing a trip report and I just want to type meaningless shit because it makes me happy. Words cannot describe how happy it makes me feel. Every text I send her I write that I love her. It's very redundant. I know it but it makes me happy every time I write it. She doesn't have AIM so I'm going to try and IM her on myspace IM. I can't make things happen fast enough. Love. I just want to add the word love into every sentence. It is easy to forget things. I should drink some water. I am not moving.
T: 1:00 I wish I was with people but I am happy talking through IM. My mouth is dry I'm going to drink a lot of water. I drank half a bottle of water. It felt good. I feel so alive. I haven't noticed any decrease so far in my mood. I spent the past 7 minutes typing to ym friend about how good this is and how I want to type that I love her over and over. This is not a drug to take when you have things to do because all you want to do is say that you love the person you are talking to/with and that you are so thankful and glad that they are there. I just wanna go on and on about how good this shit is and how wonderful it is. I want to be like this forever. I think I am typing really fast I don't know. In the back of my mind there is a slight fear that this will wear off and I don't want this feeling to leave me. I am trying very hard to remember and type everything I am thinking to make this report true to fact.
T 1:14 I feel like I've lost something. I am still very high but I can feel it decreasing. I want to do more but I wont. It is a wonderful feeling and I want to experience it with my boyfriend this weekend. This is wonderful. I feel very content. I know I am coming down but I am happy I experienced this and I am going to enjoy the rest of the ride. I can feel some residual stuff in the bridge part of my nose. It makes me happy knowing it's there. Just wanted to state that ridiculous fact.
T 1:21 My last time log was 6 minutes ago. That is ridiculous. Time is going very slow. I can't believe my non drug friends are sitting here listening to me talk about this random shit. I am typing faster than my computer can register the text. I want to feel like this forever. I think my computer is just lagging and I am not actually typing this fast. I have no concept of anything. I am just rattling off anything that comes to mind at this point. This would be fantastic to do at a party or a club. ABSOLUTELY fantastic! I am retyping a lot of what I say in IMs into this report. It seems relevant. Who knows at this point. I still feel wonderful. For a second I thought I lost it... but I didn't. I shouldn't have read those trip reports. I think they are tainting my experience because I am terrified I am going to lose this feeling. I would have rathered just go into the trip not knowing anything so when it disappears it will be a surprise instead of me dwelling on it. I am logging time in 10 minute time blocks and I just want to free write for the full 10 minutes. I have so many thought I want to write down. I am afraid my blog and all my thoughts are going to disappear so I am backing them up in notepad like every 2 minutes. My mouth is so dry. It's almost 1:30. This os so long nobody is going to read it. I just want to write everything I think. Every thought is important.
T 1:32 I want to type everything I want to express every thought. I have a very dry mouth and I want to drink more but I don't want to stop typing. It makes me so happy to think to feel to type this and see my words and let others see my words. I want to talk to everyone. My friend who was also high left to go lay down. I am very sad she left. I have 1 friend left to talk to. I think this text ls lagging because I have so much text and the forum can't handle it. I'm gonna switch to notepad.It took a great deal of effort to stop typing in bl and move to notepad. This is much better though. I love everything. If my boyfriend was here I'd totally be loving him up right now. I wonder how long this report is. It looks hella long. I don't think trip reports are this long. This is not a trip report anymore. This is jsut me babbling about shit. Concious stream of thought as they call it I think.I duno. My mouth is dry. I am going to force myself to drink even though I just want to type foreverrrr. It's only 1:39.I am overly dramatic in text messages. For a while I thought it would be really annoying to be the person on the other side listening to me say this stupid shit but I thought about it again and it's probably actually quite funny. I am very energetic. I like to talk to energetic people. In fact if I could clone myself I would talk to myself all night. I've written a lot of words so far I feel that I have collected something. Like I have a collection and I am proud of it. I just feel good. Nothing in the world right now could feel any better. I am just at peace with everything and happy...and I'm not gonna go on one of these tangents again no matter how bad I want to. I went into an AOL chat and said I was hi and told everyone I loved them. They didn't love me back
. I'm going to go in another chat and try and carry on a normal conversation. 1:43 I think it's been longer than an hour. This is still going strong. My laptop has been unplugged since I started and it's just running out of juice now. I feel like that is some sort of accomplishment. I am worried my report will get lost and all of my precious writing will be gone. I saved it but i'm afraid I will forget where I saved it. I'm going to check and make sure it's in the correct place.My mouth is really dry. I wonder if my body is burning a lot of calories. I feel like I've been running. Like i'm still running and I have infinite energy. I can picture myself running and feeling like this. It feels good.I took another drink. It felt good. But I want to type thoughts. I would imagine if I was with people I would be talking and expressing these thoughts. But I am alone in my room so I am typing away non stop with an occasional IM to my one remaining friend.I can't believe he is still talking to me. Everything is just in superdrive. If presented a topic I can roll with it on a dime and just spit out words and sentences and thoughts. I find it fun to just roll with sentences like the last one and keep naming things like and this and that and this and that and this and that. Wow I could definitely kept typing that last sentence over and over and over and over >_< if I wanted. I'm on a damn roll! I have to keep asking my friend to elaborate and explain what he is talking about because I have no idea. MY MOUTH IS SO FUCKING DRY.
T 1:50 I drank the rest of my water. I am so happy I talked to Steph. I am going to have to go back tomorrow and edit names out of this. Or maybe I wont. I have noclue. This is probably going to be really long and I wont want to edit it. I am so damn over exaggerated with everything I say in IMs. I wish I was with people. This would be fantastic. I am normally a somewhat hyper person but this would put me over the edge...but in a good way. I want to do everything just a note. I am happy this residual stuff is in the bridge of my nose. It's like it reminds me of a long lost friend. This is my first time doing this and I feel like I've known it forever. It feel so natural. It isn't how I expected it to be in any way but it is so equally wonderful in it's own way.I really wanted to write a good trip report but I think this is way too much text and it's just babbling bullshit and I don't think it's allowed to be posted. I'm probably going to do a summary tomorrow. I can't/don't want to think about tomorrow because I am so happy in the moment today.I continue to IM new people in an attempt to talk to new people. I wish I was still talking to Steph. i want to talk about the drug and my feelings. I want to tell her I love her because I do. I love everyone I know they are so great and I am so thankful for how I feel right now.A new friend IMed me but she can't know about my drug endeavors. I am going to try and talk about something else.I can't believe my friend is still talking to me. I wish Justin was here. It's going to be so fun to do with him I am so excited. I feel so much love for him. I think this will help my relationship.I want to comment people on myspace.
T 2:00 I am writing a PM to a friend on BL. It is dificult not to go on rants and tangents and so on and so forth etc etc etc... see what I mean? I am still talking to my other friend in IM. I can't believe he is still talking to me and not getting bored. We really arn't talking about anything worth talking about. Anything anyone would say to me at this moment would be wonderful. Human contact even if it's through words on a computer screen feel wonderful. I am so thankful and happy I am talking to them. Wow I completely forgot to think about what my body actually feels like this whole time and I have been focused on my mind and my thoughts and feelings. My body still feels really amazing. There is a subtle tingling through my entire body. It feels wonderful. My eyesight is somewhat difficult to focus but that feels good as well. I wouldn't trade the way I feel right at this moment for anything else in the world.I scrolled up for a second. I am writing a book. I want to have more text messages open. I am putting it out of my mind that this feeling will eventually leave me because it makes me sad. I'm going to try and roll (hahaha) with it all night. I like that I can IM people and just tell them I love them. It's a great feeling but in no way normal or socially acceptable
. I don't care and I love the feeling. I drank all of my water and my mouth is terribly dry. I want to go t the kitchen to fill my bottle up but I'm afraid I will wake someone.Everyone is so peaceful. When I think about the feeling of railing a line and the slight burn and the smell it makes me have a mind orgasm.I wrote my other friend a PM and at the end I wrote Love, Me...and that was the only place that it felt right to put the word love so I took advantage of it and wrote it a lot. From time to time I notice that I have a body. Actually only 2 times throughout this whole session I noticed how my body felt. The entire rest of the time I have been focused on my thoughts and writing them as fast as I can. My chest feels a bit tight like I've taken the stack. I am sweating and am very hot. I think I may be over heating. I should drink water. I've drank an entire bottle of water already. That is more than I drink in a day. I wonder if my body is using more if it.T2:12 I opened AOL a while ago (I'm not gonna look how long it's been I'll look later and edit this) and I still haven't opened the chat window. I really wish I was cuddling with Justin and telling him how much I love him. This is the 3rd time in the night I took notice took my body rather than my mind. I noticed this time that my jaw feels very tense like I want to move it and chew. It feels unused.I think I have been mouthing what I'm typing the entire time. That's a funny thought. I wonder how long it's been. I worry this will run out soon. I'm not going to take more despite how fantastic it is. No matter how interesting and fun typing in notepad allll night seems to me at the moment. I don't think I want to redose. I am a bit tired. Curing in a ball seems like it would be nice. An opiate ball of happiness. I have way too much energy to put anything down or stop talking and typing on my computer. I seriously think I am writing a book. I am afraid to look up and see how much I wrote. I can imagine the feeling of snorting another line of that shit. It feels wonderful it is a wonderful thought. It is so grand. I still haven't changed that channel since I started this. I just noted that. It's funny. I want to just change it for the simple fact to say that I did. But it doesn't matter. I'm just gonna type more and look at more stuff. Energy energy energy.I IMed my friend who left at like 11:30 I sent him this text :come online come online come online it's be fun I promise i promise i promise! I thought it was really funny. I really like those words I want to type them over and over and over again.
2:20 I think that being in public on this would be a compleatly different situation and it would be even greater but that is hard to fathom because this is the greatest moment right now. I'm going to go back to talking about the TV channel here because I can't focus/take the time to look through my last paragraph and find that part. But anyways I wanna make a note about the channel: I cannot find the change to change it because every second is taken up and busy doing something else. Mainly typing and thinking thoughts. Lots and lots of thoughts that are meaningless. It is so fun to just think and type and be here and be sitting on my bed. I wonder what it would be like to put my computer away and close my eyes and lay on my bed. I bet that would feel wonderful but right now I am getting my giddies off of typing this shit and IMing people.I My feet are numb I just noticed. I don't know if it's from the mehpedrone or from being in the same spot the entire time. They are tingly and cold like when your foot falls asleep and it's slowly gaining the blood back. That feels amazing.That was the 4th time I thought about my physical feeling the ENTIRE time. This really is a mentally stimulating drug. I was expecting to feel orgasmic in my body. But it is a different euphoric feeling. My chest feels tight kind of like I've been running or doing strenuous exercise. For those who have heard of DDR it's like when you try and pass a really hard ass song and you push yourself to finish and your heart is beating so fast. But my heart isn't beating that fast. In fact i can't feel my heart beating (which could be a good thing). I'm going to take all of my clothes off because I am very very hot and am starting to sweat. I feel like I've run a marathon! A wonderful marathon of joy and bliss. I actually haven't moved or done anything physically since 11. All mental thoughts. Moving feels good my laptop is very hot so I have on boxers.
2:30 These 10 minute increments feel very long. Which is good because I want this to last forever. I just scrolled up. That was a scary amount of text I wrote. I can't belive this is all thoughts. I can't even think what I could have written. I wonder if it makes sense. I've definitely peaked and don't feel that over the top off the wall amazing euphoric love and emotion and feeling that I did. I feel a bit speedy I feel like I can think anything I feel very mentally powerful. I feel like I am coming out of the euphoric haze and I can type a better report now. I am NOT at all tired. I am on the opposite side of the scale from tired which would be awake. I want to make the word AWAKE a more powerful word than it is because that is how I feel. I feel infinite. I have just noticed that my computer is running very hot. This is the 5th time I noticed something in my physical surrounding or my physical self. I don't feel AS empathetic and lovey as I did but I still and very happy and thankful and content right now.I wish my friend was online
. I miss her a lot. This would be so much better of she was here. But thinking about her makes me happy as well. Knowing that she is there and that I know here. It is wonderful. I still haven't opened a chat. I am going to attempt to now since my thoughts have slowed. It's 2:35 i get worried that I missed my 10 minute timing intervals (like it matters) but it does right now. I bet it would be interesting to read all this crap that I wrote. I would like to read it right now but I want to type my thoughts and feelings. I am going to sup this up into a legitimate trip report tomorrow and maybe I will post the raw version (this version) in an external link inc ase any crazy person wants to read all this crap.I want a drink and my urge to pee has subsided. I've entered another chat. I don't feel as much of an urge to express my feelings to them as I did before.I want to talk to people. It doesn't have to be a meaningful conversation (which it would be/or isn't because I'm high) but I just want to talk to people. It helps me enjoy the high. it potentates it. 2:40 I bet it would feel good to lay down and enjoy this or dance but I really feel the need to communicate with people. It brings out the empathy in the high. It is rather difficult to look at the chat and read what people are typing. I am far too stimulated to try.I'm going to put a shirt on even though I am sweating. I'm going to turn on my fan. Movement feels really good. I would enjoy dancing right now or cuddling with someone or touching someone specifically my boyfriend who I love a lot. It feels wonderful to breath.I lost interest in the chat and closed it. I didn't read anything that anyone said. I'm going to make a brave move and go pee and get a drink because I don't feel I can enjoy the high with these on my mind.That was fun. My chest feels tight but not in an unpleasant way. It's tight in a sense like when you take a big breath and it feel so good. I just want to take a million of those. I got water also. It is very moist in my mouth. It feels like pouring water on the sahara desert like the ground sucks up the water, my tongue just sucked up all that water. My friend just asked me what a trip report was. Oh god here we go. This is gonna be a full on ramble about shit that will never end. Who knows when I'll be back. I explained that really fast. I thought it would take longer. I just realized that I haven't listened to any music this entire time. WTF is wrong with me. I'm gonna put on some tunes. I think I'm experiencing the speedy after effects from the Meph because this music is kind of distracting. I can't tell whether this song is better than it usually is or not
. It's alright. I should have been listening when I was peaking but I was too busy. In other reports I read that the drug was very moreish and you wanted to do more and more after the peak because there was no come down. T: 2:50 I think it's been well over an hour and according to other reports I shouldn't be feeling anything. My pupils are still very dilated and I still have the overall vision and coordination aura. The Euphoria is great but only seems to last an hour. The speedy comedown is cool. I would like to do more because it was a fun run but I don't feel the NEED to do it now. I'm very content with whatever comes next whether I fall asleep or keep typing. It's all good. My friend is now going to bed. I am not nearly as sad as I was before about him leaving. I am accepting and happy. I feel overall content. I find that I am licking my lips a lot because my mouth is very dry. I find that I keep writing "I feel.. I feel... I feel...." a lot. I kind of wish I was talking to someone important (not just anyone like before). I think my heart rate has come down because my fan is making me a bit chilly. I'm listening to Technologic. It's rather catchy. I look forward to experimenting with this drug in other different situations to see which it performs best in. It would be a lot better right now if I was cuddling with Justin. It's only been 3 hours since I started this ride and it feels like it's been an eternity. I'm going to read the ridiculous PMs I wrote and see how funny they are.I just opened my mouth fully for the first time this entire time and it felt very good. Like getting out of a seat and stretching after you've sat for a while. It feel so tight and I just want to move it.
T: 3:00 I don't know if I'm tired or not. Exhausted maybe? I don't know. I am very content and feel very good thought. Like a low opiate buzz. I just read the PMs I sent to people and they are absolutely ridiculous. I am reading over these PMs and reading the words I can feel how much bliss and enjoyment I was in. I miss it a little
. I want to lay down and close my eyes but I feel very awake. I am exhausted but not tired. My sinuses feel wonderful. I think I'm going to try and get some sleep. This will probably be impossible.T3:13 I am going to try and go to bed.
To sum up my Mehpedrone trip, I could definitely say that this is a very social drug. If I were at a party or around a large amount of people it would be very fun to do. I didn't feel the need to redose after the peak as much as I felt the need to keep dosing one line after the other because each felt better than the first and I wanted to keep increasing the euphoria. Althought if I wasn't so tired at the time and I wasn't home I would say that I would have definitely wanted to redose. I planned on taking 150mg but once I reached that I wanted to go one step further so I took out a small but which I didn't measure and snorted it right up .I am a pretty conscious and sane thinking person but while on Mehpedrone I found that I just wanted to do it to make myself happy. I think it's more moreish in the fact that you want to peak harder. The lines are not that bad to snort and it is a very small amount. The initial burning was noted but not too bad at all. The burning after that felt good because I knew I was getting higher with the burn. I would say that the burn is a good feeling associated with this high. I did small dosing increments so I didn't really get that initial rush. I do have to note that at the moment I feel that the next time I do this I will want to do 250mg with a 150mg booster. I actually just want to take 500mg for myself. The extreme euphoria is rather short lasting probably an hour and a half but afterwards there is definitely a warm, content, but speedy feeling. Also I noted absolutely NO smell what so ever. It tasted a bit strongly of chemicals like xanax and others taste but it in no way smelled bad. I laid in bed for a while after I stopped writing the report and I felt very good. My face felt nice and my overall body had a good feeling. The only thing I noted was that I felt tired but I couldn't quite fall asleep. However, It didn't take me that long to fall asleep, maybe a whole hour after I left.Usually my computers fan and lights annoy me at night but I couldn't actually hear the fan last night. I look forward to doing Mehpedrone again. It was a very fun experience. As of today I feel very good with a definite positive aura still lingering from the drug.
Tagged by Xorkoth
substancecode_mephedrone
substancecode_4mmc
substancecode_cathinones
substancecode_stimulants
explevel_firsttime
exptype_positive
exptype_glowing
roacode_nasal
Last edited by a moderator:
. I hope it portrays how good Meph is thought.