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Mephedrone Addiction

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Mental Kenny said:
For me mephedrone is only compulsive while I'm on it, as soon as I get some sleep and sober up I don't think about it anymore, it also fucks my body a bit too much, I guess the main problem and the reason so many people got hooked on it is the price and the fact you can get it delivered to your door.
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Exactly the same for me, I find a couple lines of ket takes my mind off the mephedrone (along with reality) and I end up sobering up off ket with with no more cravings for meph. Unfortunatly good ket has disapeared:\
 
Here in northern ireland meph is already illegal and people are still going mad for it, i would definately say it has a psychological addiction nevermind the horrible smell :(
 
^^The weird part for me is that I like the smell...it's like a sweet chemical....at first it stinks, but after you use it for awhile, the smell is all over my wallet and it grows on you. With mephedrone, I never binge past a weekend, although if I had the time and money I do not want to know how bad I would get with this one. It has the "pull" of coke and the empathy/music appreciation that I long for on the weekends. It is trouble to keep my mind off of it during the work week, but in some weird, twisted way it gives me something else to look forward to than going to the movies/see music/etc.
 
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The smell is one thing i just could not stick! long weekends just sinking of the stuff drives me mad :(
 
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I think I am soon to have had my fill of this chem. I realize it's total mental masturbation. I just sit at home and wank for hours and feel like I didn't really get anything out of the experience apart form a seedy cpl of hours.

At least with MDMA when you go to a rave you get that connection with the world and others etc. etc. like a sort of spiritual experience at times which is somewhat fulfilling.

I did 250mg this morn and as I came up decided to take a hot bath which felt great. I must have been in the bathtub for like three hours wanking like the clappers determined to bust a nut. During this time I felt myself coming down but I was trying to concentrate on the wank as each time I did it would give me another burst of dopamine to bring me back up somewhat.

Anyhow I didn't manage to finish in the bath and the water was going cold so making me comedown more. I got out then managed to bust one of those sex wee mega cums which are so familiar with dopamine agonists.

I then thought 'meh' what a waste of a morning and took 7.5mg of diazepam and became stupefied and went to bed for a cpl hours.

All it does is makes me a compulsive wanker (lol) and I can't think about anything else for even 5 mins without trying to crack one off again till it totally wears off.

I think I have to find something else (non drug!) that I enjoy doing to fill the gap as I haven't worked in two years and just while away my days watching youtube etc. and cos I'm not doing anything else recently I've been like 'might as well get high'- which of course is a slippery slope and a potentially dangerous behaviour pattern.

If it's not meph it's the other latest rc but I am trying to fill the gap with one chem or another to 'pass time'. Doc said I'm depressed (went to see him about other stress related symptoms) and should go on SSRI's cos I have no motivation to work or for anything else really except girls/sex which is my main succour but relying on them to make me feel good is also bad cos when I don't get my end away then I get pissed off and want to take drugs.

Anyone else have exp with SSRIs? think they would be a good replacement to stop me taking these random chems?
 
Harambulus said:
I think I am soon to have had my fill of this chem. I realize it's total mental masturbation. I just sit at home and wank for hours and feel like I didn't really get anything out of the experience apart form a seedy cpl of hours.

At least with MDMA when you go to a rave you get that connection with the world and others etc. etc. like a sort of spiritual experience at times which is somewhat fulfilling.

I did 250mg this morn and as I came up decided to take a hot bath which felt great. I must have been in the bathtub for like three hours wanking like the clappers determined to bust a nut. During this time I felt myself coming down but I was trying to concentrate on the wank as each time I did it would give me another burst of dopamine to bring me back up somewhat.

Anyhow I didn't manage to finish in the bath and the water was going cold so making me comedown more. I got out then managed to bust one of those sex wee mega cums which are so familiar with dopamine agonists.

I then thought 'meh' what a waste of a morning and took 7.5mg of diazepam and became stupefied and went to bed for a cpl hours.

All it does is makes me a compulsive wanker (lol) and I can't think about anything else for even 5 mins without trying to crack one off again till it totally wears off.

I think I have to find something else (non drug!) that I enjoy doing to fill the gap as I haven't worked in two years and just while away my days watching youtube etc. and cos I'm not doing anything else recently I've been like 'might as well get high'- which of course is a slippery slope and a potentially dangerous behaviour pattern.

If it's not meph it's the other latest rc but I am trying to fill the gap with one chem or another to 'pass time'. Doc said I'm depressed (went to see him about other stress related symptoms) and should go on SSRI's cos I have no motivation to work or for anything else really except girls/sex which is my main succour but relying on them to make me feel good is also bad cos when I don't get my end away then I get pissed off and want to take drugs.

Anyone else have exp with SSRIs? think they would be a good replacement to stop me taking these random chems?
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a very upfront and honest report sir. I can relate to what you say 100%. Hope you get sorted.
 
I've really grown to hate this drug over the past few months.

I've been opposed to it pretty much since I first tried it though I did have an amazing time, everytime I've used it or been in the company of people using it since my opinion of it has slid below rock bottom. Im quite bitter about it as it ruined the last relationship I had with a girl I met at uni, I'd been seeing this girl for about six months and in the last two months we were still hanging out she started to cain meph more frequently, to the point where she was doing one - two grams (if not more) daily, staying awake for days on end, over a period of a month she lost over two stone in weight which was alot considering she wasn't overweight beforehand and it seemingly sapped everything I found attractive about her away. It was just depressing really.

I also find that when in the company of people doing it, or doing it myself after the inital high the constant bumps do nothing except chase the first up of the night and it gets to the point where it's not even that, people are doing bumps to avoid the comedown and it gets to the point where over £100 worth has gone in a single session and everyones just getting more greedy overr what they have left and more paranoid about the people around them.
 
I quite enjoy the seediness (at the time) exploring your sexuality in a debauched manner and whatnot but it can be pervasive; too pervasive - in that I am unable to do ANYTHING else except wank.

It's more the frustration aspect- I will be ultra horny but my mind will be so compulsive while on it that I can't think of one thought long enough to satisfy myself (cum). I'll make an image in my mind and then immediately think 'nonono that one isn't right' then again and again. I find I can only cum once I begin to comedown and I can concentrate on an image long enough to cum.

I also shagged a girl once while it it but couldn't cum that time either but that was cos I wasn't that into her more than the meph.

Anyhow I am pleased I am going off it now cos I don't want to seek it out any more.

In terms of redosing I never have the compulsion to do that.

I have 750mgs left so it will be a nice send off- 3 more 250 mg doses.

So in terms of quelling the compulsiveness of it someone above rec's some beers? I'd like the dopamine high but with a bit of a cushion so that I can rest in it and not be constantly feeling dissatisfied. Is that possible :) or a intrinsic part of the dopamine overload effect? I take diazepam after it but I was wondering what maybe half a diazepam would do at the same time? cos it gives me a nice cushioned feeling on the ital end thought it could take the compulsive edge off during- altho maybe alcohol would be a better choice for that?
 
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Harambulus said:
I think I am soon to have had my fill of this chem. I realize it's total mental masturbation. I just sit at home and wank for hours and feel like I didn't really get anything out of the experience apart form a seedy cpl of hours.

At least with MDMA when you go to a rave you get that connection with the world and others etc. etc. like a sort of spiritual experience at times which is somewhat fulfilling.

I did 250mg this morn and as I came up decided to take a hot bath which felt great. I must have been in the bathtub for like three hours wanking like the clappers determined to bust a nut. During this time I felt myself coming down but I was trying to concentrate on the wank as each time I did it would give me another burst of dopamine to bring me back up somewhat.

Anyhow I didn't manage to finish in the bath and the water was going cold so making me comedown more. I got out then managed to bust one of those sex wee mega cums which are so familiar with dopamine agonists.

I then thought 'meh' what a waste of a morning and took 7.5mg of diazepam and became stupefied and went to bed for a cpl hours.

All it does is makes me a compulsive wanker (lol) and I can't think about anything else for even 5 mins without trying to crack one off again till it totally wears off.

I think I have to find something else (non drug!) that I enjoy doing to fill the gap as I haven't worked in two years and just while away my days watching youtube etc. and cos I'm not doing anything else recently I've been like 'might as well get high'- which of course is a slippery slope and a potentially dangerous behaviour pattern.

If it's not meph it's the other latest rc but I am trying to fill the gap with one chem or another to 'pass time'. Doc said I'm depressed (went to see him about other stress related symptoms) and should go on SSRI's cos I have no motivation to work or for anything else really except girls/sex which is my main succour but relying on them to make me feel good is also bad cos when I don't get my end away then I get pissed off and want to take drugs.

Anyone else have exp with SSRIs? think they would be a good replacement to stop me taking these random chems?
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May be wise to quit the meph, however your depression may be circumstantial (no job). You might find exercising and social activitiess will lift your mood. I'd try adjusting your lifestyle before taking ssri's. Don't try to cover the issues, deal with em
 
If you want to discuss effects of meph or anything unrelated to ADDICTION to mephedrone please go and do it in the meph megathread.

Honestly don't know how the purpose of this thread could be made any clearer in the title.
 
wibble said:
Honestly don't know how the purpose of this thread could be made any clearer in the title.
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Perhaps "Posts about you being addicted to Mephedrone"?

The vast majority of people who have used Mephedrone have no understanding of the term "addiction" in relation to Mephedrone.
 
theotherside26 said:
^^The weird part for me is that I like the smell...it's like a sweet chemical....at first it stinks, but after you use it for awhile, the smell is all over my wallet and it grows on you. With mephedrone, I never binge past a weekend, although if I had the time and money I do not want to know how bad I would get with this one. It has the "pull" of coke and the empathy/music appreciation that I long for on the weekends. It is trouble to keep my mind off of it during the work week, but in some weird, twisted way it gives me something else to look forward to than going to the movies/see music/etc.
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Yeah the smell sticks to everything. My wallet still stinks 5 months since it contained any.

I work in a garage and I first noticed meph was getting big when people were giving me banknotes which stunk of drone.

Anyway, to add to the thread, my addiction is gone now. Nose has healed, blood pressure is normal, no urges what so ever. This has taken about 5 months or so. Also, I've noticed this summer I've actually been out doing loads of shit again, just like normal.

Last year I spent it sniffing drone in a house. Ha.
 
sundayraver said:
May be wise to quit the meph, however your depression may be circumstantial (no job). You might find exercising and social activitiess will lift your mood. I'd try adjusting your lifestyle before taking ssri's. Don't try to cover the issues, deal with em
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Exercise is certainly helpful when trying to beat depression. A good work out can be quite uplifting and makes me feel good about myself.

Socializing will definately help. If your trying to avoid meph then probably best to go easy on the booze if your out. And try to avoid putting yourself in a situation where you might be tempted to take any meph for the first while.
 
Ye, I'm not gonna go with the ssri's. As it goes I had a good sleep last night and feel great.

I think it's mainly the insomnia which makes me feel like shit (4 hours is my usual, 6+ being a luxury). I've found magnesium a 'wonder drug' of sorts in that it helps with loads of stuff including helping me sleep.

Ironically I told the doctor who I went to see recently about how magnesium has helped me and he goes: 'the jury is still out on whether magnesium aids sleep/is a muscle relaxant. It was just a placebo effect. TBH I could give you anything and say it would help you and it would cos you believe it would' I was thinking- alright dickhead I know my body well enough to tell what is placebo and what isn't. I certainly know that when I take magnesium before stimulants that the muscle relaxant properties are not a 'placebo' due to it almost completely diminishing the aching jaw/sores on my gums which I used to get without it.

It was right after this that he tried to get me on SSRIs.

When I wrote my other post I was just coming down from 250mgs so was surely being a lil melodramatic at the time.
 
Hmm, I did another dose today and I do wanna stop doing this stuff now.

It's such a waste of my time. I got up about 11 and began drinking cider immediately and ripped another 250mg dose on an empty stomach.

The insidious part of this substance I find is not the redosing potential like most but my urge to want it days/weeks later creeps back in.

I won't want it immediately after but as time goes by I seem to rationalize myself into it.

Now I know it's harder to get but it's still possible if I set my mind to it.

I want to quash my desire for it rather than it being confiscated and me still wanting it.

The high feels great at the time but I know it's pointless cos I have nothing to show for it after, except a headache/exhaustion + all the other comedown symptoms.

I think the key is to find something else to do which I enjoy cos really I don't do anything at all except waste away on my computer in the daytimes.

I still have 500mg left but I don't wanna chuck it while I'm on a comedown so then I can later rationalize it was cos I was down. I will wait a couple days then throw it. I say this cos I did the same before. I was on a comedown and threw the rest away then a few days later rationalized it was the comedown and bought some more.
 
^You've had hallf a gram in 2 doses in over a week. You'll be better off posting in the mephedrone thread. You're not addicted
 
Well the Chinese have just banned the production of Mephedrone, so that's good news for those of you that spend every hour snorting the stuff, looking at porn and deep down wishing you could get your lives back together.

Good luck.
 
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