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Mephedrone Addiction

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sundayraver said:
Did you even ring work?
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Yes.

sundayraver said:
Won't you get sacked if you carry on missing work and underperforming when you do turn up?
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What's that post supposed to achieve??? Remind me that I'm fucking my life up????? That I'm a whisper away from losing EVERYTHING? Well, consider me duly reminded. I hate what I'm doing to myself, ok? I hate myself. Pointing out why I should hate myself....

Your post made me cry :( Well, obviously not your post but its content - just reading that sentence again and again and again and knowing that it's true.


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Alright - now I want to go back and edit that to sound a lot less mental. Crazy mood swings. Sorry.

Take xanax over valium as it's much shorter lasting and wont leave you as groggy the next day
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Oki. Some others have recommended that too.
Don't have any xanax but should soon.
 
xanax has a very short lasting and more euphoric than valium and the very easiest one to develop physical dependency on so may not be the best idea. have friends who have had physical withdrawal from use that didnt even seem that regular, i'd advise against it in your situation. while off work have you any chance of getting away from the flat for a bit, change of situation could help massively.
 
anglesmoke... i had to go to the hospital over meph, took a bit to much and had chest pains... but I relapsed and went on a 5 day binge... not good at all but thats when i took a break... obviously you know you're an addict and need help, but you can't solve this problem by replacing it with other drugs... from reading all your responses to when people are giving you advice, you seem to have a lot of self pitty and don't really wanna do anything about it... but shit man addiction sucks and the only way out is consequently a hard one. YOU have to take charge and stop letting your mind feel sorry and just keep living the way you are.

The only way you can quit is if you go and get help.. go see a drug counselor or go to an NA meeting... it's not humiliating at all and you'll feel really good afterwards.... and once you at least take a break and figure yourself a little, you should be alright...
 
Hi Angel, sounds like a shit day! :(

Hope today is going better. Maybe as your boss knows you're having a bad time it's time for you to flush all the meph away? Yes, it's going to result in a few dark days, but if you're boss knows life isn't exactly fine at the moment then this could be a great opportunity?

And remeber, tommorow is Thursday and that is almost the weekend? ;)
 
angelsmoke said:
Crazy mood swings. Sorry.
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Big time! 8o

A decent regular sleep pattern should sort that out.
& I wouldn't rely on benzos for that.

Better off using benzos in conjunction with cutting down on meph.
The more NATURAL regular sleep you get, the more stable you will be mentally.
This will no doubt involve alot of fucked-up dreams. :\
Fucked-up dreams are just your brain's way of dealing with sleep dep & over-stimulation when you're awake.

felix said:
i think the inevitable crash should be dealt with sooner rather than later.
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^& this. Best of luck! <3
 
Why the fuck would her boss know about any of this? When you can't go into work because of substance related issues you don't ring up and say "Yes hello, I can't come into work today because I'm a fucking drug addict and I am sleeping all day because its the only time I can sleep....previously I have been taking this drug at work all day every day and going in on zero sleep...please don't sack me boo hoo"
 
like crazynate says, you have to REALLY WANT to quit and take control of your life. Realise your actions have consequence. Self pity will only drag you further down. If you are seriously depressed and therefore using drugs to compensate you should defiantly see a counseler, or even if you are not, just see a counselor. If you are open and honest with them, they have an amazing ability to get to the root of things. You will come away feeling lighter, with a better understanding of how to get things together, i guarantee it! However, you must be sober when you see them otherwise you will get nowhere.

I guess to reiterate though. You have to REALLY have want to stop and accept your going to feel like crap for a few weeks and ride it out. Stay away from the meph, completely. Will power is the only thing you have to beat it, no excuses!
 
It's past the middle of the week now so progressibly less work is done till friday, no time like the present to ditch the last of the meph. At least if you have a rough couple of days this week at work you'll probably have gained quite a lot of sleep over the next 4 days to be feeling much better to speak to you boss on Monday.
 
wibble said:
It's past the middle of the week now so progressibly less work is done till friday, no time like the present to ditch the last of the meph. At least if you have a rough couple of days this week at work you'll probably have gained quite a lot of sleep over the next 4 days to be feeling much better to speak to you boss on Monday.
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The above sound's like good advice to me. :)
 
^Its not as easy as everyone makes out to just clear house of mephedrone, we have a date set now, and that is not going to be broken or pushed back.

It's been about 2 days without meph for myself, but im craving it a lot now. Im hoping something else will take my mind of it soon before I cave in and indulge. It would be much easier if it just wasnt here but that is not a possibility at the moment. It is complicated.
 
mugabe said:
^Its not as easy as everyone makes out to just clear house of mephedrone, we have a date set now, and that is not going to be broken or pushed back.

It's been about 2 days without meph for myself, but im craving it a lot now. Im hoping something else will take my mind of it soon before I cave in and indulge. It would be much easier if it just wasnt here but that is not a possibility at the moment. It is complicated.
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It's as easy as putting it down the bog and flushing. It's not complicated, it's just you are making it complicated.

Well done for doing 2 days, but you've got to put some physical distance between you and the meph.
 
Why not give it to a friend to hold on to until arrangements are made? That way its not around. Explain the situation to them, and tell em not to give you any.
 
The Kid said:
It's as easy as putting it down the bog and flushing. It's not complicated, it's just you are making it complicated.

Well done for doing 2 days, but you've got to put some physical distance between you and the meph.
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Wise words. Sorry, fair play I can understand you can't afford to just throw it away. Surely though theres more than a few trustworthy people in your area *snip*. I used to use it often, after a hellish weekend of no sleep and multiple g's meph I quit. Flushed what I had left, I could see it was ruining me! And I concider myself pretty mad for hammering most drugs!!

Well done for your 2days off. I hope you keep it up :)
 
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angelsmoke, if the only reason you are not stopping yourself taking any more mephedrone RIGHT NOW is that you don't want to miss work you need to get some perspective.

You health, mental and physical, is much more important than your job and i suspect they will realise something is up if you keep going in as you are. Stop taking the meph, skip work a few days (pull a sicky) and if they fire you at least you are off the mephedrone and not dead or driving yourself further round the bend.
 
Mephedrone may turn out to be one of the most neurotoxic drugs introduced to the market in terms of destructive effect to either serotonergic or dopaminergic/norepinephrinergic neurons. I'm, rather grimly, curious about how the people strongly abusing the stuff will come out. I've seen horrific nightmares of people turned into shells of their former selves by high dose IV methamphetamine abuse: inability to sleep regardless of sedatives given, inability to do basic arithmetic, inability to judge the consequences of their actions, and worst, inability to feel most any emotion except for wanting to do more methamphetamine. These effects had persisted for years and it's my guess that these people will suffer for their lifetimes for their mistakes, which is more than anyone deserves.

Anyway, I hope that things pan out okay in the long run. :/
 
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eclipsedesign said:
Kara I think that's a fooking good post man.
About to speak to a councilor about my drug use at the moment, going to see how it goes.
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Listen folks. I managed to beat a coke addiction that lasted for about 4 years. Almost cost me my wife and home. After wasting thousands of £££ I finaly managed to let it go.

If it had not been for my wife's attitude and help god knows where I'd be.

Don't try and kick it yourself. Get the help of a partner or spouse. It really makes things easier.

Good Luck
 
Angel, Mugabe not really sure what to say as I'm plagued with an addictive personality and it's turning out to be a lifetime affliction, if ain't one thing it's another... not the easiest of things to live with - but dealt with it must be as it's going to lead to long-term physical and mental problems. Left to run rampage it will limit your life and what you want to do with it.

Angel, regarding your work situation - do you have an employer who offers counselling or addiction services? Many do. Thankfully, I have been able to avail myself of this kind of service and be able to access long term sick leave when I was especially bad and not fit for work. It was private and discreet, though I'm not kidding myself that it's not on my personnel records. It did get me back to work and productive in the long term though - all good stuff.

Some form of counselling / therapy can be very useful in "handling" yourself...there's a good chance that this will happen again with something else at some point down the line. Learning new skills to cope with it really does help.

I just want to thank you for sharing this with us, and letting us see "the inside" and how you're dealing with it. You are very brave. It's important information and even if it helps one person, you'll have done a good thing sharing. Hopefully, this platform - BL, will also ultimately help you both cope.

You're on the road to recovery now you've taken the first steps... it's not going to be easy, you know this, but you are heading in the right direction - keep on going.

Much love to you both <3
 
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