Bah, stupid browser crashed and ate my reply. And not you've replied and toned it down slightly, so I can't retype my original paragraph of swearwords, cunt!
I'll give you the abridged version
i don't know how much you bought but it sounds like a lot, so what the FUCK were either of you thinking ordering in bulk when you both consistently go on about your lack of self control? did you actually think for even one second that you'd be able to control it?
Yes, that was idiotic. We did think we could control ourselves, fuck knows why.
D-E-N-I-A-L!!
and here's the proper cunt part - do you maybe think that the two of you being "together" has been the worst possible thing for both your drug problems? you seem to do fuck all but encourage each other to get more & more addicted to drugs. obviously i know nothing other than the stuff you post on here but it seems to me like it's nothing but destructive.
I understand your point, but I think you have a few things wrong:
- I'm 99% sure I'd be addicted to meph by now anyway, even if I'd never met mugabe. All the warning signs were there.
- We don't
encourage each other.
We talked a lot about how it was becoming a problem and we needed to 'get it under control'. During a binge we don't go any further than making a bit of a face and asking if more really a good idea --- getting annoyed and going on about it wouldn't help at all..... I know that it'd make me an anxious wreck if I knew he was annoyed and disaspproving. Is probably one of the reasons why our posts are so damn upbeat about meph even up until recently.
We don't try very hard to stop the other from taking the first dose of a new binge.... we should do, but of course we both are craving it. So in that respect you're right.
Our relationship being "nothing but destructive" is obviously something I disagree with. I don't think that it's destructive at all....
Shambles said:
I kinda agree with the problems associated with co-dependency and addiction, PC. I used to swear blind that being with the then Mrs Shambles (also an addict) was beneficial cos we could support each other through the rough times of withdrawal.
Mugabe said pretty much the exact same phrasing, about supporting each other through cravings somewhere in an old fucked thread.
I think we'll have to accept that we can't help each other with that. Or rather.... it's slightly worse... when I say "arrrrg, I'm really fiending for some meph" all I want is for him to say "me too" then for us to engage in some nonsense justification convo. Complete bullshit like "we'll go to sleep at a normal time" (this has NEVER HAPPENED) and "it's nearly the weekend, it's Thursday tomorrow!".
I hadn't really thought about this, and think we both need to be careful to not try to reply on each other for any control/restraint.
StoneHappyMonday said:
I've always thought what they display online, aside from the meph addiction, is one of the more positive loving relationships I see or hear about.
Thanks!! That's nice to hear. It's.... it's really, really good. I could talk about how great it is all day. Don't worry, I won't
I'm sick of typing and you guys ahve made more posts already!!! I'll reply later maybe
Shocking how much money they must be making, and how much of this stuff is going out.
![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
. mugabe and angel were on a big denial trip and reacted with hostility to any suggestions of addiction/problems for a good while before the penny dropped. it's a very positive thing they have admitted it and i really wish them all the best in stopping. with psychological addiction major lifestyle changes will probably be necessary to stop it sneaking back in.