Crazyandhazy
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Can certain mental illnesses cause a bad reaction to weed, or like, have any mentally ill people on here had bad experiences with it? I've smoked weed only three times in my life, the first time was a tolerable experience, next was when I'd already drunk some beer and it was not great, but the third was actually one of the worst things I've experienced. I've suffered from anxiety and depression and cPTSD (long term trauma, abusive father, all that) my whole life but a year ago I developed bipolar. My first two experiences with weed were before I developed bipolar, the third was after.
Basically what happened when I smoked weed most recently was I started out just really giggly, which is how I was the prior times. But then the laughing got out of control and I started sobbing and having some kind of flashback about my mom? And all I could say was "it's the wrong color" about some silly putty I was holding, and I tried to sit down but I couldn't, felt like I was being pulled by magnets, thought there was something in the corner and couldn't stop looking there every two seconds, couldn't focus my eyes, nauseous, the room kept flipping (as if I saw it in a mirror, then normally, then mirrored again). Things got better when they pulled the shade down so I couldn't see my reflection in the window, but I was still all over the place. I could not stop crying even when my breathing became normal there were tears pouring down my face. I also thought I was a two year old at one point and I just remember feeling this huge sense of fear and like something had been lost and I was never going to find it.
The thing is, I've had pretty bad anxiety attacks so I know this was...something else. Anxiety for me comes up in thoughts and hyperventilation, but this was more physical.
Could it have to do with my bipolar disorder?
I didn't smoke much (literally like four hits max), I was smoking with friends who were smoking the same stuff so it definitely wasn't laced, and one of the friends also has depression and is on Zoloft for it. The only other thing I can think of is that I'd had a really emotional day during which I had to call the cops on my friend's suicide attempt but does that affect the experience?
I really just want to know what happened because smoking weed is a social thing where I am so if I can solve the issue, I'd like to. Thanks
Basically what happened when I smoked weed most recently was I started out just really giggly, which is how I was the prior times. But then the laughing got out of control and I started sobbing and having some kind of flashback about my mom? And all I could say was "it's the wrong color" about some silly putty I was holding, and I tried to sit down but I couldn't, felt like I was being pulled by magnets, thought there was something in the corner and couldn't stop looking there every two seconds, couldn't focus my eyes, nauseous, the room kept flipping (as if I saw it in a mirror, then normally, then mirrored again). Things got better when they pulled the shade down so I couldn't see my reflection in the window, but I was still all over the place. I could not stop crying even when my breathing became normal there were tears pouring down my face. I also thought I was a two year old at one point and I just remember feeling this huge sense of fear and like something had been lost and I was never going to find it.
The thing is, I've had pretty bad anxiety attacks so I know this was...something else. Anxiety for me comes up in thoughts and hyperventilation, but this was more physical.
Could it have to do with my bipolar disorder?
I didn't smoke much (literally like four hits max), I was smoking with friends who were smoking the same stuff so it definitely wasn't laced, and one of the friends also has depression and is on Zoloft for it. The only other thing I can think of is that I'd had a really emotional day during which I had to call the cops on my friend's suicide attempt but does that affect the experience?
I really just want to know what happened because smoking weed is a social thing where I am so if I can solve the issue, I'd like to. Thanks