I've kinda had roller coaster emotions, sort of. The depression kicks in at times, in spite of meth or lack of, but damn! After 2 days w/o meth all I could do was fucking sleep. Doing a lot more (than the $40 bag yesterday I got, now gone) would merely be putting a band aid on the situation..
I've heard men bitch on another site about too many fakes and phonies. What exactly do they mean by that? Are they referring to chicks that stand them up? Chicks that want to spend a great deal of time with emails/phone first? Or chicks like me that are straight up and say not interested? lol.
I understand the frustration. I remember back in the late 90's, I had a few dates from a phone site instead of a net site. Half the time I hooked up, the other half I declined, but I remember feeling very frustrated on a couple of occasions whenever I'd run across the odd guy that didn't want to hook up right away. It wasn't about the sex for me, but since w/o being able to see what he looked like in advance, one pretty much had to do the meet up in person. If he didn't like me, or vice versa, obviously that was that.
I'm not the most patient person, I admit. So out of frustration, I wrote the dudes off that wouldn't hook up. I don't like people wasting my damn time, which is exactly why I am very up front on my profile or tell someone "no" when I'm not interested. "No," is not always very well received, though.
Also, I haven't been the duck that lets unwanted water roll off it's back lately. I give in to frustration with less hrs, less $, no car, yada yada which certainly hasn't done my libido any favors.
It's also the fact that at my age now, I hate the damn hurry to jump in the sack. I was once the exact opposite 23+ yrs ago, so I know how it feels to be bombarded with hormones, the way men are. Sigh. I'm in a mental funk now and can't respond sexually until my shit is resolved and dealt with. How's that for honesty? I have a tendency to be too honest at times, which I know can be a big turn off.
It's over correcting my old "passive-aggressive" ways, except on the other extreme. This one rich dude came back on yahoo under a different name and offered financial assistance as well as the use of one of his spare cars until I find a new one. I knew immediately that would be a bad idea, and while I certainly don't expect to get something for nothing, when he told me his stipulations, I of course said forget it.
He wanted/demanded that I spend 4 hrs a day with him for his "help" and we're talking pretty long term here by my standards, a year, 2 years? Uh, no can do. Hell, I never spent THAT much time every day with my damn boyfriend. The only other person I can honestly cop to doing that with was my first ex fiance. We worked together, had our own places, but he was always at my place or I was at his.
That was my first sense of suffocation because he demanded I spend every free waking moment outside of work with him. I called it off after 4 months, and even after that, he still pursued me for 2 yrs after the break up. So when this rich dude whom I didn't even know gave his terms, it brought back memories of my ex some 15 odd years ago. I'm a solitary creature by nature and I adore friendships/romantic relationships, but not in the conventional way...
I'm too set in my ways to change now, lol as far as the commitment man/woman thing. It's the reason I've tended towards married or attached men to single ones. It's not that I want some other woman's man. It's simply due to the need to be on the side as opposed to being someones main course. That's very unusual for a woman, hell for 99% of the world population, probably. I live by my own rules and pay the price.
I've heard men bitch on another site about too many fakes and phonies. What exactly do they mean by that? Are they referring to chicks that stand them up? Chicks that want to spend a great deal of time with emails/phone first? Or chicks like me that are straight up and say not interested? lol.
I understand the frustration. I remember back in the late 90's, I had a few dates from a phone site instead of a net site. Half the time I hooked up, the other half I declined, but I remember feeling very frustrated on a couple of occasions whenever I'd run across the odd guy that didn't want to hook up right away. It wasn't about the sex for me, but since w/o being able to see what he looked like in advance, one pretty much had to do the meet up in person. If he didn't like me, or vice versa, obviously that was that.
I'm not the most patient person, I admit. So out of frustration, I wrote the dudes off that wouldn't hook up. I don't like people wasting my damn time, which is exactly why I am very up front on my profile or tell someone "no" when I'm not interested. "No," is not always very well received, though.
Also, I haven't been the duck that lets unwanted water roll off it's back lately. I give in to frustration with less hrs, less $, no car, yada yada which certainly hasn't done my libido any favors.
It's also the fact that at my age now, I hate the damn hurry to jump in the sack. I was once the exact opposite 23+ yrs ago, so I know how it feels to be bombarded with hormones, the way men are. Sigh. I'm in a mental funk now and can't respond sexually until my shit is resolved and dealt with. How's that for honesty? I have a tendency to be too honest at times, which I know can be a big turn off.
It's over correcting my old "passive-aggressive" ways, except on the other extreme. This one rich dude came back on yahoo under a different name and offered financial assistance as well as the use of one of his spare cars until I find a new one. I knew immediately that would be a bad idea, and while I certainly don't expect to get something for nothing, when he told me his stipulations, I of course said forget it.
He wanted/demanded that I spend 4 hrs a day with him for his "help" and we're talking pretty long term here by my standards, a year, 2 years? Uh, no can do. Hell, I never spent THAT much time every day with my damn boyfriend. The only other person I can honestly cop to doing that with was my first ex fiance. We worked together, had our own places, but he was always at my place or I was at his.
That was my first sense of suffocation because he demanded I spend every free waking moment outside of work with him. I called it off after 4 months, and even after that, he still pursued me for 2 yrs after the break up. So when this rich dude whom I didn't even know gave his terms, it brought back memories of my ex some 15 odd years ago. I'm a solitary creature by nature and I adore friendships/romantic relationships, but not in the conventional way...
I'm too set in my ways to change now, lol as far as the commitment man/woman thing. It's the reason I've tended towards married or attached men to single ones. It's not that I want some other woman's man. It's simply due to the need to be on the side as opposed to being someones main course. That's very unusual for a woman, hell for 99% of the world population, probably. I live by my own rules and pay the price.