opaloid189
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Ok, soooo this is my second post on these forums. I hope the techniques I am about to explain can help someone else, maybe then all the decisions I've made will not totally of been in vein!
In order for people to fully grasp what I'm going to be explaining I have to discuss my own personal experiences. Growing up I was always the one to be picked on, I kept to myself. Years of this treatment lead me to lifting. I got massive, my senior year of high school no one picked on me and I vastly expanded my social network, especially with the females. I relate lifting and to a large amount of positive effects, physically, emotionally and mentally.
I then went to college and eventually started experimenting with basically anything and everything. There was always one true favorite for me, of course this was the blissful (at first) feeling of pain killers. I eventually tried heroin at the end of my senior year (graduated in 2012) and fell of the wagon a couple months. I moved away with my soon to be wife (not far enough). I would dabble here and there and kept it under control until about November of last year. Then a friend hit me up for $40 buns and all control was lost. You could say my decision making ability was behind the moon and out of contact for a while.
I was lifting regularly while using. It actually allowed me to never go through acute WD no matter how much I did, granted I was the crazy guy sweating and almost vomiting at my peak of fitness. The high from both was incredible. But of course I got lazy eventually around May and everything then went to shit.
I kept using (snorting I may add, needles and the risk was always to much for me) a secret from my wife. Eventually she found out in July...and then again just about 2 weeks ago. $50 a day is easy to notice when we are broke to begin with... I have a severe risk of losing my wife and must tell myself the dope may make me not care NEAR as much now but I know I'd regret loosing her forever later on, most likely sending me to use more...it's a shitnado of doom.
Sorry for the ramble but it was somewhat necessary for the real bulk of what I am trying to explain. I'm now 10 days clean and have been exercising for about 5 days. I've found that associating you're drug of choice with everything you've ever hated in your life lights a raging fire of motivation. I associate with being picked on for 10-11 years of my life. (Which may of been an underlying cause to use in the first place) With every rep imagine your DOC as a person whose deceived you worse than any girlfriend or boyfriend. Imagine punching that person in the face with every rep!
When you're sitting there and feel no motivation and depressed, just clear your head, stand up and MOVE to the gym. On your way there listen to motivating music, think of all the bad things the drugs made you do while on "the other side". It's important not to shame yourself, the decisions you made were mostly drivin by your addiction, this is a new you! Also associate with something you hate. Had a shitty step dad? Got bullied? USE IT to fuel your workout. I often listen to As I Lay Dying on the way there, and then Dave Matthews Band on the way back. Unwind your mind and ride the natural healthy high of a good workout on the way home.
Create a new persona of yourself. Think of how bad things WERE and how good things CAN be. Another piece of motivation is to think of what I just stated as a PAWS scale from shit to normal sweet sobriety. Think of lifting as a way of tipping the scale in favor of sweet sobriety. Every rep, every drop of sweat will distance you a little further from the shit side of the scale.
If you don't know how to or have never lifted use Google and YouTube to learn. There are countless videos and articles. Anyone can PM as well, I know of many reliable websites and have created many routines over the years, for beginners and intermediate lifters. Quitting is about creating a new you, it's honestly an exciting prospect. Kind of like going to college your freshman year, just have to make sure it's a SOBER you! Lol...Once you notice a physical change, your mental and emotional state will improve. Eventually you may find yourself ripped and addicted to a new awesome habit of pumping IRON.
EDIT: Sorry thought I in-dented for paragraphs but I'm on my phone so it may have screwed with that. ..
In order for people to fully grasp what I'm going to be explaining I have to discuss my own personal experiences. Growing up I was always the one to be picked on, I kept to myself. Years of this treatment lead me to lifting. I got massive, my senior year of high school no one picked on me and I vastly expanded my social network, especially with the females. I relate lifting and to a large amount of positive effects, physically, emotionally and mentally.
I then went to college and eventually started experimenting with basically anything and everything. There was always one true favorite for me, of course this was the blissful (at first) feeling of pain killers. I eventually tried heroin at the end of my senior year (graduated in 2012) and fell of the wagon a couple months. I moved away with my soon to be wife (not far enough). I would dabble here and there and kept it under control until about November of last year. Then a friend hit me up for $40 buns and all control was lost. You could say my decision making ability was behind the moon and out of contact for a while.
I was lifting regularly while using. It actually allowed me to never go through acute WD no matter how much I did, granted I was the crazy guy sweating and almost vomiting at my peak of fitness. The high from both was incredible. But of course I got lazy eventually around May and everything then went to shit.
I kept using (snorting I may add, needles and the risk was always to much for me) a secret from my wife. Eventually she found out in July...and then again just about 2 weeks ago. $50 a day is easy to notice when we are broke to begin with... I have a severe risk of losing my wife and must tell myself the dope may make me not care NEAR as much now but I know I'd regret loosing her forever later on, most likely sending me to use more...it's a shitnado of doom.
Sorry for the ramble but it was somewhat necessary for the real bulk of what I am trying to explain. I'm now 10 days clean and have been exercising for about 5 days. I've found that associating you're drug of choice with everything you've ever hated in your life lights a raging fire of motivation. I associate with being picked on for 10-11 years of my life. (Which may of been an underlying cause to use in the first place) With every rep imagine your DOC as a person whose deceived you worse than any girlfriend or boyfriend. Imagine punching that person in the face with every rep!
When you're sitting there and feel no motivation and depressed, just clear your head, stand up and MOVE to the gym. On your way there listen to motivating music, think of all the bad things the drugs made you do while on "the other side". It's important not to shame yourself, the decisions you made were mostly drivin by your addiction, this is a new you! Also associate with something you hate. Had a shitty step dad? Got bullied? USE IT to fuel your workout. I often listen to As I Lay Dying on the way there, and then Dave Matthews Band on the way back. Unwind your mind and ride the natural healthy high of a good workout on the way home.
Create a new persona of yourself. Think of how bad things WERE and how good things CAN be. Another piece of motivation is to think of what I just stated as a PAWS scale from shit to normal sweet sobriety. Think of lifting as a way of tipping the scale in favor of sweet sobriety. Every rep, every drop of sweat will distance you a little further from the shit side of the scale.
If you don't know how to or have never lifted use Google and YouTube to learn. There are countless videos and articles. Anyone can PM as well, I know of many reliable websites and have created many routines over the years, for beginners and intermediate lifters. Quitting is about creating a new you, it's honestly an exciting prospect. Kind of like going to college your freshman year, just have to make sure it's a SOBER you! Lol...Once you notice a physical change, your mental and emotional state will improve. Eventually you may find yourself ripped and addicted to a new awesome habit of pumping IRON.
EDIT: Sorry thought I in-dented for paragraphs but I'm on my phone so it may have screwed with that. ..
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