memoirs of may

[beanpoophead]

I remember when I was the most depressed
I had this apartment, downtown, busy all the time
Beautiful hardwood floors and picture windows
With this beautiful view of new buildings
I saw it from my old balcony
Everyday I was woken up by construction at six am
I didn’t have a couch or a box spring
Just a single mattress
On the floor of my living room
I had no job, I didn’t ever go to high school
Eighteen years young on welfare
I just laid there in my living room
Smoking weed and tobacco
Drinking and
Drinking and
Drinking
I would lay there until day turned into night
Already drunk on life and high from fumes
I would go out and do what I always do
Laugh and talk and smile
Drink more, and more, and more
Do chemical drugs until my head spun off
And then I would come home
Too high to sleep, and knowing
That at six am, the drills would start
So I would stare at my ceiling and think
Somehow that ceiling was comforting
And somehow I moved onto june...

 

[Raz]

Wow, that was so cool...that really painted a picture of that period of time...nice one!

 

[FixXxer]

Shit man.. im really proud of you..
for this work, and the work i know you are doing now.. youve really gotten ahold.

this work < -- probably my favorite by you..

good to see us both here again for even a little bit.
hit me up whenever u got time

 

[Dastrix Slogan]

I think this is the most honest introspection from you, I have always keenly followed your work and felt sad at what I have read. Keep at it girl, I have no doubt that good things willl come from seeing this sore place again!

 

[beanpoophead]

thanks!!!!

this piece is probably the most heartfelt, real thing i have ever written. its really, really close to my heart, and completely defines a time in my life.

 

[up all night]

This was amazing. You have the same honesty and insight as E-Girl [whose work I also love]. I've also been reading your writing for a long time and the simplicity of this, the acknowledgment of the every day is what makes it so powerful.

 

[lostNfound]

I can relate that to a decent part of my life.
Like UAN said, the simplicity makes it seem so warm and heartfelt.
Definitely took me out of this room just now, if only for a few minutes.thanks!

I liked everything about it. The only word that seemed to break flow was off after spun.

 

[cherub]

girl first glad to see you write again... definately miss it when you are gone.

Love the raw writting.. you know i have always been a fan of that.

being honest with ones self present or past can be hard.. beautifully done!