melted away

[womanthatrolls]

So i wrote these two poems at different times but about the same relationship, and as i was looking thru my journal i thought it was odd how i could go from such innocence and happiness...to almost complete emptiness, so both these writings basically sum up all of one relationship

The beginning...


I felt like such a child today
sitting on the floor
at the bottom of the steps
twirling
incessitantly
the cord around my fingers
and toes
thinking about
if i should paint my nails
and giggling
wondering what ill wear
and how warm
your saliva is going to be
in my mouth
and how your arms
are gonna encase me
when you twirl me
incessitantly
around
your mouth
and lips
and fingers
and legs
you still make me nervous
even though i let you kiss my belly button

The end....


you said you loved me
because my hair smelled
like vanilla
and my cheeks blushed
when I said your name
because you liked running
your fingers
across my lips
right before we kissed
and holding me close
enough to feel me breathe
and all the times
I drank to much
you always picked up the pieces
and told me
we'd be okay
in the morning
but now
after one month without you
I think I've worn off
and you've forgotten
about my hair
and my lips
and the way I say your name
one month
was all it took
for vanilla
to melt into thin air
one month
without you
and I'm left
without me