This is an older entry from a month ago ... I haven't had the energy or motivation to work on my blog for a while. Several weeks ago, I had migraines, near constant nausea, fever/chills, crawling skin, aches, restlessness, insomnia, and dizziness. These things I could handle; they weren't so different from a bad case of the flu. But the lack of motivation is the worst, and I don't know how to deal with it. How long does it (the lack of motivation) last? Except for doing basic chores I've promised other people I would do -- feeding horses here and a cat in town are the only things I've been able to keep up with -- I haven't gotten much done. That's even more frustrating considering that during the worst part, I went 3 nights without any sleep and several more nights with only a couple of hours of sleep.
The sheets haven't been changed in a couple of months. Neither have my clothes. Dirty cups and paper plates are every where. Worse, there was a die off of "grass bugs" last month when it started to get cold. Millions of them made their way into the cabin for warmth. Now, dead insects are all over the floor. I've swept a few paths through them, but haven't cleaned them up yet.
This cabin doesn't have electricity or running water, but it has a refrigerator. It's a kind of bush refrigerator that runs on propane. I came home the otehr day and found that it was no longer working. I spent an hour lying in a puddle of decomposing juice from the 20 pounds of previously frozen meat that was in there trying to light it and repair it with a Swiss Army Knife. I took apart the main valve and brass tubing underneath it, but it seems that the pilot light has gone out and it isnt' getting any gas. A faulty valve is my guess as to the culprit. It's fairly cold in the cabin so I'm surprised that everything thawed so fast. Now that the meat had warmed, I felt that I had to cook it to preserve it, so I spent the next 3 hours cooking it over a wood fire in the fire ring outside. While I waited for it to cook, I found an ice chest and put snow in it to keep the food cold.
The sheets haven't been changed in a couple of months. Neither have my clothes. Dirty cups and paper plates are every where. Worse, there was a die off of "grass bugs" last month when it started to get cold. Millions of them made their way into the cabin for warmth. Now, dead insects are all over the floor. I've swept a few paths through them, but haven't cleaned them up yet.
This cabin doesn't have electricity or running water, but it has a refrigerator. It's a kind of bush refrigerator that runs on propane. I came home the otehr day and found that it was no longer working. I spent an hour lying in a puddle of decomposing juice from the 20 pounds of previously frozen meat that was in there trying to light it and repair it with a Swiss Army Knife. I took apart the main valve and brass tubing underneath it, but it seems that the pilot light has gone out and it isnt' getting any gas. A faulty valve is my guess as to the culprit. It's fairly cold in the cabin so I'm surprised that everything thawed so fast. Now that the meat had warmed, I felt that I had to cook it to preserve it, so I spent the next 3 hours cooking it over a wood fire in the fire ring outside. While I waited for it to cook, I found an ice chest and put snow in it to keep the food cold.