dspade
Bluelighter
Melancholic is how i see the world always. its is as beautiful as dreadful and i to be the observer vicariously trying to decode the world as if a complicated equation. over and over i run situations through my head and try to imagine outside of time. try to figure this out for myself and sometimes i feel selfish to keep to myself so much but i cannot interfere. eventually i get to thinking though is there anything watching us from afar too afraid to intervene, or am i merely hoping that one day someone will relieve me of my post, tell me its ok to look away now because i have you. someone to rest with me we would acknowledge each other without words. someone to help me enjoy the storms i love so much and hear the music coming off of every rain drop and thunder crash. a subtle symphony and we understanding each other too well with.we would share this bittersweet feeling in that we had found each other, but knowing one day we will lose ourselves again and doubting the other will be there when we are back from looking scares us both. but for now i look on and with a big smile on my face cry myself to sleep once more hoping that one day im going to look up and see someone staring back at me crying with a smile on their face an expression as if trying to say i know.
