Um so im an ex stimulant abuser who has gone fucking nuts. Anyway during a day of immense depression and fucked up shit.... ive taken this shit called 5htp? doesnt seem like much you can get it over the counter. However ive taken it and gone really fucken weird.... I can only explain it as... stimulant psychosis... but calm and weird instead of tense and agitated. Just walking around all day saying weird shit thinking weird shit just being REALLY weird laughing and giggling to myself and being... real fucked up. I already had messed up brain chemistry and i dont know what this shit has done but its no placebo effect.... i am being fucking bizzarre took a few people to make me realise it. any ideas why the fuck this would happen? its meant to make me sleepy but i was the opposite... talking about the most bizzare weird shit constantly.
Yeh that absolutely sounds like a meth type of psychosis. Those are kind of what the "inbetween" phases were like for me.
Like the way a person with bipolar can have a "normal" day, a person with meth psychosis can have a "normal" day too. Except their day isn't ever really remotely normal. Its just not as bad as their full blown psychosis days.
I'd have days where I couldn't even look out my front window. Other days where I'd make it to my car and walk back to the house.
Other days where I made it to the parking lot of where I wanted to go, then got back in the car and turned around. I always had some fear, that wherever I was headed, once I got there, something terrible would happen. It was the most intense form of paranoia imaginable. Not to mention I also was having hallucinations for years after stopping meth (you didn't mention the drug you were taking however Im assuming its related to amphetamines).
Those kinds of days though where you're just goofy, neurotic, and talk to yourself really weren't too bad imo. I'm still somewhat like that a lot today. I talk to myself and have really elaborate conversations in front of people (people I know). If I'm around strangers occassionally I will do it too, but they tend to think its funnier than scary now. Back in the day I didn't have any real witt to it, now when I do it I try to be somewhat enertaining. But I get random bursts of excitement where I tackle our dog and start flicking his weiner screaming "RAPE!!!" I don't know why I do weird things like that but I notice sometimes the neuroticism is just funny for other people. So I've managed to somewhat turn around most of that older super weird stuff.
I wouldn't be too concerned about it, stimulants fuck with the brain more than any drug I know, so just expect to be like that and don't be so surpised. It does get more stable over time, and can wind up integrating somewhat into your personality so you can AT LEAST appear normal. But I don't know a lot of friends who like to pretend rape animals lol... I just think amphetamines kinda buried a lot of my boundaries really.