A really sad question
I need to put my dear, old dog down, and I want to do it gently and at home. He's a nearly 15 year old german shepherd whose arthritis and hip dysplasia has been getting worse for the last 2 years. He can't walk by himself anymore, and he poops and pees himself often. It's terrible because he has a really independent kind of temperament. He lets out this long, dejected sigh whenever it happens. I feel so bad for him. I don't mind helping him stand up by lifting him and holding his hips so that he doesn't fall... But today something more awful happened. He's bitten into his hip and exposed the joint, as far as I can tell. It must hurt him horribly. He is trying to pull out the "foreign object" with his teeth, but the stabbing pain is his own deteriorated joint.
It's just so sad that I cannot defend keeping him alive any more, I think. A few weeks ago I took a decision to put him down after he could not get up for two days, but then he got up by himself and walked around that same day... But it was a temporary improvement. I am going to have to do this, probably... I was hoping that he could go naturally in his sleep, but he is a tough, old guy. If only there were doggy wheelchairs he would be rolling around for another year, at least.
I am planning on doing it with codeine atm. I once accidentally overdosed on heroin, and it was not an unpleasant experience at all. Morphine is also how they offer euthanasia to terminally ill patients here. So it seems like death by opiates must be a gentle way to go.
I have some prescription codeine, but I am not sure if it will be enough. I overdosed on much less than I have, but it was intravenous. I have looked up the ld50 for codeine, and I think about 800 mg orally should be enough for a big dog like my guy. I have maybe 600, total, and it is old - leftover from when I had an injury some years ago.
I am in Canada, so I can get the AC&C tablets over the counter. I want to know if the caffeine in these tablets is going to prevent an overdose. Or if it would keep him too alert as this would also be bad. My accidental overdose was like drifting into a warm, numb dream... I did not even feel it when I stopped breathing. I want him to go like that - to just feel really comfortable and then very sleepy and then go gently. Will the over the counter tabs be ok for this? I don't want to mess it up... It's important to me that this is a one shot deal and that it doesn't hurt him.
Someone is probably going to ask why I don't take him to the vet. Well, he can't walk. And it would be painful and terrifying for him to be dragged there and subjected to all that weirdness in his last hours. Home is the best for him, even if it is harder for me. Then there is the cost issue. To get a vet to come here and do it is a LOT more than I can afford right now. I have not been working for some months and only just started back. I am behind in my bills and can only just cover the rent.
Besides... I know, from experience, that this is a kind death. I don't know if the lethal injections are as gentle as this. Maybe they are, and then maybe not. I have never been in this position before, so I don't know, sigh...
Well, I would appreciate your informed help. Thanks in advance.
