I have been thinking today in fact about maybe taking a little break.
Been smoking daily now, sometimes night, sometimes both day and night, for probably about a year, up and down in amounts.
I used to smoke 20 - 30 nice huge cones a day, when I had a lot of it (while still at school mind you) but I set that shit right as I never allow something to have such a hold on me.
So I got rid of my buds, and now a long while later I've got a whole lot again and I just can't stop myself smoking daily when it's there.
I've been on holidays for ages, and I've just started back at Uni this week and I just got a new job today.
My use is still mild compared to what to what it used to be and I'm proud of that but it's still daily, no questions. That being said but I never feel like it effects me that negatively, at least not enough to quit, I have a short term memory that fucks me a little more than it used to and I tend to be a little more introverted but I always felt before I started weed at 17 that I talk way too much and can't help myself anyway, whether I want to or not, so I consider this a positive effect. Almost like getting access to my own head back by not having to constantly see what's going on everywhere, all the time. This behaviour is most likely due to my ADHD.
At any rate I've recently let my smoking get to a bud for the day and a bud for the night, but that's because I've had a three month holiday.
I first got concerned when I tried to take a night off and just couldn't seem to. It's not too big a deal, I just don't want to not be able to adjust to my new schedule and have the weed get in my way like it did it in College even though I passed in the top 15% of my state, despite my stupidly heavy use for school time.
I want to make sure I don't have to smoke it if it's ideal not to.
Honestly, I'm usually pretty good at regulating my use, namely decreasing when I'm starting to hit it too hard. I've just had a shitty, apathetic day for some reason and this topic was running through my head earlier as it does every now and then mainly because a lot of my friends are slowing down and I just feel like an irresponsible fuck up for continuing to smoke when the heavy smoking friends I have, who taught me everything I know are all backing out on it. Although I feel this way the positives of marijuana always seem to outweigh the negative for me, it's so hard to tell yourself it's doing you damage and convince yourself you need to quit when you smoked your hardest and still knocked a college UAI out of the water. It's such a good fucking excuse because everything I was told about how it wrecks your studies, it just didn't end up that way for me and I know one other person who did even better than me at school and smoked even harder for longer to further validate it.
Right now I'm just venting some shit off my chest without even really realising as I was typing it, so I don't want to sound like a cocky dickhead, but it is hard to tell yourself you need a break from daily smoking when you do well at school, hold your job, have a nice functioning relationships with my girlfriend, family and friends. Why take a break from something that makes me feel so good and seems to only mildly impact my life?
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That being said, I probably need a break.
It's a vicious fucking circle. Thanks for listening if you did

Thoughts and comments would be appreciated.