Quit smoking -- Now What!!
This is a harm reduction forum.. And I'm not a greenlighter.. but it is my first post in a long while and forgot my PW to old acct (So maybe its good I quit pot huh!...)
But anyway.. my situation is that I quit smoking to figure out my life. Had a lot of shit happen to me over the past few years, which I won't go into..
Just saying that it was heavy, some of the hardest shit anyone should have to deal with..
So I did it!! I'm a month and 10 days off and I have begun to sort things out. I HIGHLY RECOMMEND BREAKS PEOPLE. Living in that anxious, paranoid bubble is so limited.. even if ppl say they don't get that effect, I call bullshit..they don't call it being stoned for nothing.. its a hazy, dazy existence. YES the world is fucked. Western society is built to make every step a hurdle, thats why people turn to drugs in my opinion. If everything was less regulated and less mass marketed we could be a community, we wouldn't have to find inner peace through smoking up or dropping pills or boofing up or whatever takes your fancy.
So I'm about 75% of where I wanted to be with the decision of quitting the smoke.. Everything is so much easier when you give up that daily toke.. and for me, I don't feel like such a wash out all the time. The only thing I do right now is drink a bit.. which, with its shorter half life and more depressent effect, its quite managable... I've always had a few beers when smoking or not though.. I'd say my consumption spiked at the start, but its pretty managable right now.
But everyone is different. So What I'm saying now is this.. OK I've leapt through this hurdle, no more smoking.. It's been great, but should I leave it all in the dark, quit forever.. Mary Jane is echoing to me that I should come back for a quiet session in her domain. This is usually increased after a few drinks (such as now, fuck a joint, just the taste sounds GREAT). BUT I have this goal in the back of my mind that I should get a job, or sort out this financial situation before leaping back..
So I'm not stupid, this is Can Discussion and your all gunna say - don't drink, toke up.. or just spark up and be happy.. but I guess what I'm looking for is some input into the situation.. of quitting to bring yourself back up to speed with life and then relapsing.. Where does one begin? Or begin to re-begin? Is it difficult to stay on track with say just a J every now and again, or does it end up back to where we start, with multiple hits a day?
MJ is a treasure in moderation, I realise that now..that daily use situation is just no good for the piece or peace of mind..I don't wanna fall back into a hazy trap.. So any insight would be great!