Quitting for a month....
Hello everyone, i'm fairly new here :D ...yeah..for noobies...!
Anyway, i've decided that it's time to detox from weed. I've been trying to quit since 1995 and been practically smoking every single day. The last 3 years, I've been smoking very potent strains...and basically, i feel it's time to give the body 'and mind' a rest.
Right now, life is pretty bad. I mean, it's good, but it's bad. I have a really good job in a Fortune XX company and have about 5 years experience at a fairly good field and have taken classes to keep my skills current, so it's not been a 'total' loss. but my job SUCKS and i LOATHE IT! and i guess for the last 3 years i've been trying to forget about it. I should have stopped smokin when I got the job cuz the people there are uptight assholes who probably never touched a drug in their lives and they drug-test. and trust me, I can tell who the druggies are usually.
anyway, the weed is just NOT fun anymore. I used to smoke and go work, then go out for drinks and not skip a beat. and I did this for 'years'....
NOW: if I smoke, it's only cool if i'm by myself as I tend to get pretty self-conscious around others. and funny....this was NEVER me. i was practically the one crackin all the jokes and making people laugh..even high as HELL. I guess this has something to do with paranoia and anxiety. which is why I need to stop smoking because now i'm in the 'isolation' phase and have gotten quite ANTI-social.
all the while, wondering how I got to this horrid stage. all i wanna do is chill by myself, and smoke weed...and this has gotten pretty old and depressing.
so i've been reading some of the posts on this site about people stopping or taking a break from drugs, and i've been inspired to do the same cuz i can't continue like this for much longer. I don't even want to STOP perse...just get 2-3 months behind me, get my mind and confidence back,
anyway, I will keep you all posted...for 30 days...
and damn, marijuana abuse REALLY sucks balls...
i thought they were kidding when they said it cause anxiety and paranoia....the bastards
TODAY is 3 hours into Day 1....and yup it's 3:30 in the morning and I can't sleep. oh well, this is normal right?
Era