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This is what was making me quit smoking like a year ago. Then I did MDMA and it fixed it. 
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thebenster of Ra
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I used to be one of those assholes in their early teens who could not for the life of me quit smoking pot, even when threatened by parents to be thrown out of the house. Weed was the shit!
As time went on I would occasionally get paranoia and social anxiety during a high. As the days went by this would become more frequent and severe. Now every time I get stoned this is what happens, no matter how muh I smoke. For me, enough to get stoned is enough to start freaking out.
I stopped smoking it completely for a good year or so. Then, just a month ago I picked up a gram, I would take one hit and get stoned and trip out, I did this until the gram was gone. Then I tried the same thing with a gram of indica, same thing happened.
Maybe I over abused it in the past and fucked it up for myself? Oh well, after turning to real drugs as an alternative way of getting high, I can say I much prefer drugs over weed.
As time went on I would occasionally get paranoia and social anxiety during a high. As the days went by this would become more frequent and severe. Now every time I get stoned this is what happens, no matter how muh I smoke. For me, enough to get stoned is enough to start freaking out.
I stopped smoking it completely for a good year or so. Then, just a month ago I picked up a gram, I would take one hit and get stoned and trip out, I did this until the gram was gone. Then I tried the same thing with a gram of indica, same thing happened.
Maybe I over abused it in the past and fucked it up for myself? Oh well, after turning to real drugs as an alternative way of getting high, I can say I much prefer drugs over weed.
I started having panic attacks when I was 18 or so, had no idea what they were just that it was scary as hell, hands and feet sweating, heart racing, falling/rushing feelings ect. Only happened when I was trying to go to sleep, went to the docs to see what was up and he told me that I was winding up instead of down, his advice was not to lie there worrying but start doing something boring and mundane like cleaning my shoes or whatever until it passed.
Funny thing was they stopped happening almost straight away, maybe because once I knew what they were I was less afraid of having one, your attacks could well be linked with the death of your father and that's where the anxiety is coming from, maybe you should take a break until you have had more time to come to terms with your loss. Best wishes for you man, losing loved ones is hard.
Funny thing was they stopped happening almost straight away, maybe because once I knew what they were I was less afraid of having one, your attacks could well be linked with the death of your father and that's where the anxiety is coming from, maybe you should take a break until you have had more time to come to terms with your loss. Best wishes for you man, losing loved ones is hard.
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RobotRipping
Bluelighter
I used to be one of those assholes in their early teens who could not for the life of me quit smoking pot, even when threatened by parents to be thrown out of the house. Weed was the shit!
As time went on I would occasionally get paranoia and social anxiety during a high. As the days went by this would become more frequent and severe. Now every time I get stoned this is what happens, no matter how muh I smoke. For me, enough to get stoned is enough to start freaking out.
I stopped smoking it completely for a good year or so. Then, just a month ago I picked up a gram, I would take one hit and get stoned and trip out, I did this until the gram was gone. Then I tried the same thing with a gram of indica, same thing happened.
Maybe I over abused it in the past and fucked it up for myself? Oh well, after turning to real drugs as an alternative way of getting high, I can say I much prefer drugs over weed.
did you happen to turn to other drugs during your cannabis use? this i think is what changed my smoking experience. After benzo addiction/withdrawals then opiates and benzos again, cannabis just isn't the same. One or two hits is the most ill take at a time and that is enough. If i had a pure indica strain i'm sure i could handle it better but hard to find in an unregulated market and not being a grower myself.
Bagseed
Bluelighter
man, get professional help as soon as possible. and really, do yourself a favor and quit smoking. weed isn't always that nice, forgiving drug. to me itseems, you have to deal with a lot of pain right now, but trying to numb it with weed doesn't work, and the anxiety is (in my opinion) a first sign of that. as i've said before, don't wait until you really start freaking out, it's not fucking worth it.
LindaMulder
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Get yourself checked out to see what is going on. Never do anything that might trigger a panic attack.
Weed and myselfs love-hate relationship..
This is my personal experience with Ms. MaryJane, i'll try and keep it clean and short so I don't put you all to sleep
~~First time ever: Me and my friends, total of 4, gathered around, excited to see what all the high school kids were always talking about. Puff puff pass all the way around, cashed, load another and repeat. Went through a good 6-7 bowls (Keep in mind, we were 14 and had absolutely no tolerance). After the shed we were sitting in looked like a steam room, we all went out, looked at each other and all agreed that we felt absolutely nothing. I walked across the back yard, as I was walking a warm sensation came down my back and BOOM there was the high. I immediately hated it and went running to my friends scared shitless from this "dreamy" state of mind. When I tried to explain how I felt, from the expressions on there faces followed by their obnoxious laughing, I could obviously tell, we were high. We slept out side that night gazing at the stars, the whole time I felt like poo.
~~Between the first time and present time: Was always the guy to skip in the circle, never smoked, occasionally i'd get a wild hair and take some hits and get a little sensation of anxiety mixed in with a bit of floaty'ness. Nothing special, so I ruled myself out as the kid that'll never enjoy weed
~~Present Time (As in 3 days ago, to typing this out): Just got a new apartment friends came over and said time break the place in, out came the grass. I said eh, screw it, lets do it. Lit it up, 20 minutes later, I was flying. I felt great, no anxiety, no worries, nothing but a good time. Next day, I was like must of been a fluke, lets try again, same thing.. nothing but a good time!
~~The future: Smokin
I've come to the conclusion that for me its mind set and atmosphere. I have anxiety just as a sober person and grass only increased it, but for some reason, my mind has reversed that into making me enjoy myself rather then worry. I've seen a lot of people on here that have the same problem I use to have, so I thought I would share the story of the nice little gift I was granted :D
**Sorry for rambling, and mods sorry if I posted under the wrong section!
This is my personal experience with Ms. MaryJane, i'll try and keep it clean and short so I don't put you all to sleep
~~First time ever: Me and my friends, total of 4, gathered around, excited to see what all the high school kids were always talking about. Puff puff pass all the way around, cashed, load another and repeat. Went through a good 6-7 bowls (Keep in mind, we were 14 and had absolutely no tolerance). After the shed we were sitting in looked like a steam room, we all went out, looked at each other and all agreed that we felt absolutely nothing. I walked across the back yard, as I was walking a warm sensation came down my back and BOOM there was the high. I immediately hated it and went running to my friends scared shitless from this "dreamy" state of mind. When I tried to explain how I felt, from the expressions on there faces followed by their obnoxious laughing, I could obviously tell, we were high. We slept out side that night gazing at the stars, the whole time I felt like poo.
~~Between the first time and present time: Was always the guy to skip in the circle, never smoked, occasionally i'd get a wild hair and take some hits and get a little sensation of anxiety mixed in with a bit of floaty'ness. Nothing special, so I ruled myself out as the kid that'll never enjoy weed
~~Present Time (As in 3 days ago, to typing this out): Just got a new apartment friends came over and said time break the place in, out came the grass. I said eh, screw it, lets do it. Lit it up, 20 minutes later, I was flying. I felt great, no anxiety, no worries, nothing but a good time. Next day, I was like must of been a fluke, lets try again, same thing.. nothing but a good time!
~~The future: Smokin
I've come to the conclusion that for me its mind set and atmosphere. I have anxiety just as a sober person and grass only increased it, but for some reason, my mind has reversed that into making me enjoy myself rather then worry. I've seen a lot of people on here that have the same problem I use to have, so I thought I would share the story of the nice little gift I was granted :D
**Sorry for rambling, and mods sorry if I posted under the wrong section!
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Dr. Rabid
Bluelighter
It definitely has to do with set and setting, and it's also possible that you have were experiencing different strains, and/or that you're just more mature and better able to hand and appreciate the effects.
Good for you. Beware that that negative feeling is dormant - it can come back if you're not careful.
Marijuana induced my disorder
i just wanna know if anyone has heard of pot, even in a person experienced in years of blazing, triggering an anxiety disorder.
i had a two day break from bud, went to my buddies house and was feeling GREAT. freestyling with positive rhymes on a skateboard ride there, got some new threads (color coordinated, made me feel fly as fuck) and all in all it was a good day
then my buddy gave me some amazing looking weed, him and my other friend were already half passed out on the couch, and i sat down, and bought a popper (tobacco and weed through a bong around my area) for a SNIP.
i was feeling a little uneasy after that, i knew id be a bit higher due to the two day break (before then i hadnt gone a single day without toking for god knows how long) and so i decided to take another pop.
sitting in the chair i was in, i started to feel uncomfortable, i couldnt put my finger on it, and then i got this literal sinking feeling that made me shoot out of my chair, my whole body tingling, heart pounding, and i went into a full fledged panic attack (at the time i thought i was having a heart attack, thinking to myself "this is it man, you're 17 and you're already done for)
i went outside and started pacing around, and it slowly subsided, but i still felt the dread and anxiety days after,
that was august of 2012
and to this day, any kind of pain, paraesthesia, or strange feeling i get convinces me im going to die.
of course, im always wrong.
but i get chest pains, short of breath, and all kinds of random things i wouldnt have given a second thought before.
and no matter how irrational i recognize the fear to be, it just doesnt stop.
i cant even smoke a joint without getting bad anxiety, not to mention the anticipatory worries of it happening only making it worse
now, i wanna know if anyone has experienced this before, or even know someone whos going through what im going through.
my favourite thing in life, destroyed my life.
im open to suggestions (except the obvious benzo+ssri treatments, im on this forum for a reason )
but its awful.
i envy those who can still hit a bong and have no wrong going on.
but maybe my time for that is over.
i just wanna know if anyone has heard of pot, even in a person experienced in years of blazing, triggering an anxiety disorder.
i had a two day break from bud, went to my buddies house and was feeling GREAT. freestyling with positive rhymes on a skateboard ride there, got some new threads (color coordinated, made me feel fly as fuck) and all in all it was a good day
then my buddy gave me some amazing looking weed, him and my other friend were already half passed out on the couch, and i sat down, and bought a popper (tobacco and weed through a bong around my area) for a SNIP.
i was feeling a little uneasy after that, i knew id be a bit higher due to the two day break (before then i hadnt gone a single day without toking for god knows how long) and so i decided to take another pop.
sitting in the chair i was in, i started to feel uncomfortable, i couldnt put my finger on it, and then i got this literal sinking feeling that made me shoot out of my chair, my whole body tingling, heart pounding, and i went into a full fledged panic attack (at the time i thought i was having a heart attack, thinking to myself "this is it man, you're 17 and you're already done for)
i went outside and started pacing around, and it slowly subsided, but i still felt the dread and anxiety days after,
that was august of 2012
and to this day, any kind of pain, paraesthesia, or strange feeling i get convinces me im going to die.
of course, im always wrong.
but i get chest pains, short of breath, and all kinds of random things i wouldnt have given a second thought before.
and no matter how irrational i recognize the fear to be, it just doesnt stop.
i cant even smoke a joint without getting bad anxiety, not to mention the anticipatory worries of it happening only making it worse
now, i wanna know if anyone has experienced this before, or even know someone whos going through what im going through.
my favourite thing in life, destroyed my life.
im open to suggestions (except the obvious benzo+ssri treatments, im on this forum for a reason
)but its awful.
i envy those who can still hit a bong and have no wrong going on.
but maybe my time for that is over.
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I've always had terrible anxiety. More often than not (roughly 99 times out of a hundred, I'd say) weed helps relieve my stress, racing thoughts and it even calms down my hand tremor that gets noticeably worse the more stressed I am, mentally or physically. I have had a few fucked up sessions before, but they're incredibly rare and, when they do happen, seem to amplify an already higher-than-normal amount of anxiety and the like.
On just a regular day, with regular amounts of stress and anxiety beforehand? Herb's strictly medicinal in that case, brings me right back to baseline.
As far as suggestions, the best I could give you would be to leave the weed alone for a while. Achieving a high isn't worth it if it's causing you're mind to go through hell.
On just a regular day, with regular amounts of stress and anxiety beforehand? Herb's strictly medicinal in that case, brings me right back to baseline.
As far as suggestions, the best I could give you would be to leave the weed alone for a while. Achieving a high isn't worth it if it's causing you're mind to go through hell.
i miss that feeling jibult. i really do.
im thinking it could have been laced, it was some pretty sparkly green and both of my buds said they were feeling kinda weird from it.
im the only one that had that reaction.
dont get me wrong, my hypocondriac tendencies have decreased quite a bit, but they have yet to completely deplete themselves.
it was my first panic attack, so maybe im just shaken up by it. (understatement of the year)
but i wish someone could relate, my friends think im crazy, in fact, i lost a lot of them
i find it strange that ill skateboard in the middle of the road, dodging traffic in between cars like frogger without a care in the world,
and a single ache or pain convinces me its the end.
maybe its the fact that the anxiety is unrelated to any kind of situation,
and i subconsiously assume that i must have something wrong with me.
so many things to ponder...
im thinking it could have been laced, it was some pretty sparkly green and both of my buds said they were feeling kinda weird from it.
im the only one that had that reaction.
dont get me wrong, my hypocondriac tendencies have decreased quite a bit, but they have yet to completely deplete themselves.
it was my first panic attack, so maybe im just shaken up by it. (understatement of the year)
but i wish someone could relate, my friends think im crazy, in fact, i lost a lot of them
i find it strange that ill skateboard in the middle of the road, dodging traffic in between cars like frogger without a care in the world,
and a single ache or pain convinces me its the end.
maybe its the fact that the anxiety is unrelated to any kind of situation,
and i subconsiously assume that i must have something wrong with me.
so many things to ponder...
Panic attacks are a bitch. Feeling like the world is collapsing on top of you is a fucked up experience to shake. When I was younger I used to freak out over every little ache or issue. I remember one time I thought I had cut my hand (like 7 or 8 years old) and decided I would just use my mouth to stop the bleeding. After I took my knuckle from my lips I couldn't find a cut and swore on my life it couldn't have been my blood and I now had AIDS. Lol, it was kind of fucked. Nowadays I just kind of have a fuck it mentality... As long as I can see a possibility where things won't end negatively I just kind of let the river run it's course.
Honestly, I would say the pain you experience in the future might put your mind right into the place it was in when you had your panic attack, working to amplify what you already consider hypochondriacal tendencies.
ah, for me it was reverse. i had a fuck it mentality before this. life used to be a game to me.
anxiety is a blessing in disguise i suppose, it made me realize how real, and how precious life is.
im going to die. that is a fact.
and letting myself worry about dying conflicts with actually living, is the most illogical thing anyone could do.
i dont know, before all of this it never occured to me that my life is going to end one day,
and maybe the one incident that made me believe it was going to end that second, caused that notion to hit me all at once.
ive literally been in tears, knowing one day ill lose everything, my memories, my personality, my body, and my life.
if it wasnt obvious already, this one experience has really shifted my life in a whole new direction. lol
anyway, back on to topic,
im gonna give some mids a go when i have a chance, and ill see how it plays out.
i live in the boonies with literally no source of bud whatsoever, so its been quite some time since ive dived into the magic bushes, and my tolerance is probably near zero.
if i expect it to be hectic, i'll accept it for what it is.
i hear thats the best thing to do for an anxious mind
accept your fear. because thats all it is.
fear. nothing else.
i dont know why but this put my mind at ease. thanks for taking the time to reply.
anxiety is a blessing in disguise i suppose, it made me realize how real, and how precious life is.
im going to die. that is a fact.
and letting myself worry about dying conflicts with actually living, is the most illogical thing anyone could do.
i dont know, before all of this it never occured to me that my life is going to end one day,
and maybe the one incident that made me believe it was going to end that second, caused that notion to hit me all at once.
ive literally been in tears, knowing one day ill lose everything, my memories, my personality, my body, and my life.
if it wasnt obvious already, this one experience has really shifted my life in a whole new direction. lol
anyway, back on to topic,
im gonna give some mids a go when i have a chance, and ill see how it plays out.
i live in the boonies with literally no source of bud whatsoever, so its been quite some time since ive dived into the magic bushes, and my tolerance is probably near zero.
if i expect it to be hectic, i'll accept it for what it is.
i hear thats the best thing to do for an anxious mind
accept your fear. because thats all it is.
fear. nothing else.
i dont know why but this put my mind at ease. thanks for taking the time to reply.
No problem. Also, for what it's worth, you may want to get an anxiolytic prescription to hold onto for the case of future episodes. I know you say you're in CD for a reason, but that medication exists for a very legitimate reason as well.
ssri's make me scare myself, i think of some really dark shit.
i was petting my cat once when i was on cipralex, and thought to myself "i wonder what it would be like if i snapped this cats neck, he wouldnt see it coming"
i dont know why they have that effect on me but zoloft was even worse, my brother and grandma were arguing while i was trying to sleep and they got loud to the point where i walked out of my room and hooked my brother straight in the jaw, he fell on the floor, my grandma screamed, i thought nothing of it and went to bed. it was a while before they even looked at me the same again. he was 14 and i was 17 for fucks sake.
i do take benzodiazepines, klonopin is a savior for panic, and i regularly order etizolam for stressful situations like an interview.
and if you're reffering to medicinal anxiolytic cannabis, im in canada, and im not sure what the status of medicinal bud is around here or how i would go about doing it. but i suppose ill look into it.
i was petting my cat once when i was on cipralex, and thought to myself "i wonder what it would be like if i snapped this cats neck, he wouldnt see it coming"
i dont know why they have that effect on me but zoloft was even worse, my brother and grandma were arguing while i was trying to sleep and they got loud to the point where i walked out of my room and hooked my brother straight in the jaw, he fell on the floor, my grandma screamed, i thought nothing of it and went to bed. it was a while before they even looked at me the same again. he was 14 and i was 17 for fucks sake.
i do take benzodiazepines, klonopin is a savior for panic, and i regularly order etizolam for stressful situations like an interview.
and if you're reffering to medicinal anxiolytic cannabis, im in canada, and im not sure what the status of medicinal bud is around here or how i would go about doing it. but i suppose ill look into it.
lazydullard
Bluelighter
Amiltryptaline is a sweet (tricyclic) ssri. It helps the first morning after, it helps with spooky pseudo pains, it helps my paranoia and anxiety (some doctors think I'm a schizophrenic?). I think it makes me less violent.
also, fantasizing about killing animals is kinda common. It happens to everyone in pretty sure.
I don't think ssri made you hurt your brother. That was you.
so after a year sober from weed i don't get panic attacks. But weed is forever a poison. That's some peoples luck.
also, fantasizing about killing animals is kinda common. It happens to everyone in pretty sure.
I don't think ssri made you hurt your brother. That was you.
so after a year sober from weed i don't get panic attacks. But weed is forever a poison. That's some peoples luck.
Fire&Water
Pumpkin King
I've never thought about killing an animal...especially breaking a cat's neck. Thats fucked in the head
Seconded. I have less tolerance for that than I do violence against people.
Where did that even come from, though, lazydullard? Was something edited out here or deleted that I missed?
[edit: Never mind, I figured it out. I need to start reading entire posts instead of skimming.]