Nordic thunder
Greenlighter
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- Jan 1, 2013
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Lasting Anxiety caused by Weed
Hey, so I have this problem, I never really cared much for weed and just smoked some with mates now and again , but a few months we were celebrating a friends 18th and we hotboxed a lot in his room. I had weird feelings like I'd shat myself or that something was wrong but it wasn't too major. The next did I had a joint lying around and no cigs so I thought fuck it, might aswell, lit up and listened to underworld long dark train ( if any of you know it) and next thing I know I'm tripping balls thinking in going to die and having a heart attack and not feeling real anymore
I said to myself there and then, I'd I survive it ( I didn't know it was a panic attack at the time I thought it was real) id never touch the stuff again, as I said I never really cared for it. But ever since then every week once or twice I get hit with crazy depersonalisation and anxiety, it isn't a full blown panic attack most of the time thank god. But it's enough to make me shit myself. I don't know what the fuck to do, I feel like ive lost it, that im different. I used to be a amateur bodybuilder and now it feels like a joke for me to say that, I'm not as confident and my body has gone to shit, so has my work ethic. I've tried to stop smoking and drinking caffeine and start running again and getting to the gym 5 times a week again I stead of 1 or 2. But I can't. I've had panic attacks at college and work, I even lost my job because I didn't go on one day due to being paralysed with fear during an episode. I'm 18 and I feel like my life is over, it's depressing and makes me so angry. I've tried the whole thought reprocessing thing, saying 'come at me bro, I don't give a fuck' when the attacks or derealisation starts but it's useless it just ends up making me worse and worse till the full blown panic attacks are almost as bad as the first one,
The only time of the day I feel normal is when I wake up in the morning and then I remember why I couldn't sleep the night before.
I know this sounds so melodramatic but I'm lost, I never had any anxiety or panic attacks before that night I was always laid back about everything.
The only light at the end of the tunnel is that it does feel like they are getting less severe with time. I need advice or at least someone who's had the same experience to tell me it will go away.
I don't want to have to see a doctor about this, I'd humiliate my family.
Hey, so I have this problem, I never really cared much for weed and just smoked some with mates now and again , but a few months we were celebrating a friends 18th and we hotboxed a lot in his room. I had weird feelings like I'd shat myself or that something was wrong but it wasn't too major. The next did I had a joint lying around and no cigs so I thought fuck it, might aswell, lit up and listened to underworld long dark train ( if any of you know it) and next thing I know I'm tripping balls thinking in going to die and having a heart attack and not feeling real anymore
I said to myself there and then, I'd I survive it ( I didn't know it was a panic attack at the time I thought it was real) id never touch the stuff again, as I said I never really cared for it. But ever since then every week once or twice I get hit with crazy depersonalisation and anxiety, it isn't a full blown panic attack most of the time thank god. But it's enough to make me shit myself. I don't know what the fuck to do, I feel like ive lost it, that im different. I used to be a amateur bodybuilder and now it feels like a joke for me to say that, I'm not as confident and my body has gone to shit, so has my work ethic. I've tried to stop smoking and drinking caffeine and start running again and getting to the gym 5 times a week again I stead of 1 or 2. But I can't. I've had panic attacks at college and work, I even lost my job because I didn't go on one day due to being paralysed with fear during an episode. I'm 18 and I feel like my life is over, it's depressing and makes me so angry. I've tried the whole thought reprocessing thing, saying 'come at me bro, I don't give a fuck' when the attacks or derealisation starts but it's useless it just ends up making me worse and worse till the full blown panic attacks are almost as bad as the first one,
The only time of the day I feel normal is when I wake up in the morning and then I remember why I couldn't sleep the night before.
I know this sounds so melodramatic but I'm lost, I never had any anxiety or panic attacks before that night I was always laid back about everything.
The only light at the end of the tunnel is that it does feel like they are getting less severe with time. I need advice or at least someone who's had the same experience to tell me it will go away.
I don't want to have to see a doctor about this, I'd humiliate my family.