fastandbulbous said:
I would guess that would be almost all bipolar cases. For some reason, people with bipolar illness almost have an affection for the manic/hypomanic phase as it just feels so good at first (early hypomanic stages)
I suppose the question I'm asking relies on a certain degree of self-awareness, but I still feel you're at least a bit off in that assessment.
I've been diagnosed with Bipolar Type I, as has my fiance, several close friends, and many acquaintences. Bipolar disorder seems to come in two very distinct flavors, a depressive oriented flavor and a manic oriented flavor. My girlfriend has very intense depressive cycles interspersed with hypomanic/mixed episodes that she doesn't enjoy any more than the depression. Many of those I know who've been diagnosed bipolar fit this bill.
On the other hand, I'm the exact opposite. My depressive cycles are mild in comparison, as well as much rarer. My manic episodes (full blown, not hypomanic) are about twice as frequent, though shorter in duration and most of the time I enjoy them. Mixed episodes are the only aspect of my illness that I fear. Everyone not fitting the former profile of my fiance, fits this profile, at least roughly and in my experience to date.
I, and everyone matching my type of bipolar, don't care very much for pot. Opiates don't give us that warm sense of well being many love so much. Amphetamines are the only thing that will pull me out of depression without fail, and I have never felt depressed or anxious afterwards.
Every single person I've had the chance to speak to who fits my fiance's profile has been on SSRIs or SNRIs and shown no improvement in their depression whatsoever. They all tell me pot is the only thing that gets them through the day many days, and that opiates/opioids are the only things that can truely lift the depression, if only temporarily. Not a single one of these people enjoys stimulants, each and every one citing the horrible depression and misery of the come down. The responses they've given to my questions are almost disturbing in the their near word-for-word similarities.
So, I was just hoping to increase my sample size.