Medicade and new prescriptions

[dilated_pupils]

For the first time in my life, as an adult, I will be able to walk into the doc's office and just be real, the person who unadulterated can speak freely and not have a past following them.

In note, I have been medicated in some fashion starting when I was about 7 yrs old, with ritalin for a short while, then adderall into my teens. After that I had started abusing stims.

I see this as my chance (getting medicade) to be honest & open about how I truly feel and get an actual answer from the doctor about what I should be doing, taking, etc.

I have a couple questions:

Other then mentioning the above and mainly keeping out the abusing stimulant part (which I feel is necessary to do only because I do not wish to do so, nor do I find that with proper medication or therapy would I be doing so), is there anything I should/shouldn't mention?

Every time I've walked into a doc's office before this it's been a referrel (drug abuse/psych eval) - this time it will be of my own doing. I've been yearning for this moment the ability to be open and judged appropriately. Any advice would be great - I'm sure many can relate to such a situation.

-dp

 

[Speed King]

How's it going dilated_pupils? You know for a fact that its against the rules for certain information to be told. I however will help you as best as I can. First, making a deep, spiritual decision about stopping abuse of stimulants on your own, will be half the battle. Don't go in there and mention ANYTHING related to a problem or abuse of any type. That's why I said to make the deep, spiritual decision, to be over the abuse on your own. That way, you walk in fresh, open and honest. No lies or baggage. These doctors can read you like a book. If you can be wide open, they see your not trying to hide something. You now have the ability to tell the truth, looking them dead in the eye, nice and calm. If you do that, you just avoided a ton of shit. Fine, now this stuff will not happen instantly, but you are so much closer. A primary care doctor basically doesn’t do any real shit. However, you tell them , FOR EXAMPLE, I have a anxiety problem, and some issues that you feel a psychiatrist can help. Bam, referral. Lets put it this way, my psych doctor, who I am an open book with and built a level of trust and loyalty too, has me on clonazepam for anxiety, tamazepam for insomnia and dextroamphetamine for adhd. I take low dose risperdone for little other shit, but I feel great. I was open and honest and I get treated with top shelf shit. I am 100% honest. That is the answer. BTW, this wasn't overnight. I had select records from other doctors backing up my story. That always helps if you can do it. That's pretty much it. If you see the doctor and truthfully have panic attacks,don't do illegal drugs, don't drink that will help you further. Doctors don't want to dick around. Have yourself organized, mellow, but bright, calm and direct. That's pretty much it. It may take a little time, but it's worth every second. If you tell your primary that you have some anxiety and Lyrica or especially Gabapentin alleviates that, that doctor probably wouldn't mind, because the Gabapentin is uncontrolled. Lyrica is schedule 5 but you tell him that helps the sciatica you have. There you go. The Psych doctor is where you want to start. If you want to chat, PM me. I like helping a fellow Bluelighter. Everything I said was based on a true story, but fiction Speed King

 

[dilated_pupils]

Thanks. I can see the advice you gave as honest and to the best of your ability as it's probably the advice I could see giving to someone else. I don't mean that in a negative sense, I mean I need to hear it and I'm glad you wrote it out.

I guess my issue is those amounts of time between getting from point a - getting the doc to make a referral & being able to afford such things to point b - actually getting the scripts I need.

I truly want to get the actual help that can be provided for me, but how do I go about doing this whilst awaiting for meds that in the mean time I have to just sit there and bare it gritting my teeth? I have enough benzo stock to ween off slowly and safe without pain (not that I was back to my previous dose of 3mgs of kpin a day, so it's not that bad) - however the stimulants are my biggest issue.

I need something - when I get ethylphenidate I get ansty and anxious, I end up IVing it and before ya know it I'm using it for recreational purposes. I would never do this if it were a medication but I don't treat it as one I treat it as a means to and end of suffering from ADD type things. Although the cons are very over powering the pro's each time I do so.

I have a small access to adderall which when I do take, I don't think about using recreational stims (nothing I fear anyway). But that can only be for so long.

I'm also on probation so about once a month I have to kick whatever I'm on and bite the bullet - sometimes it's just been easier to use ethylphenidate in these cases due to the fact it doesn't show up (or has yet to cause any issues). Same thing always went with MDPV - when I was using it never showed up - I'd literally do an IV shot as I heard the doorbell ring, go answer it, take a UA for my PO and that would be that.

Disregarding the issues with probation, whom even if a doctor prescribes, is trying to tell me I can't be on any stims/benzos, I have a family willing to support me or get a lawyer involved if necessary so I can take actual medication if and when the time comes. I've just been unable to afford a psych visit.

Before when I was younger it was $200 check, under the door, and a script of suboxone, adderall, and klonopin. Obviously laws have changed and my will to do something better has as well.

Anyway, thank you for the response.

-dp

 

[Speed King]

If I can think of anything else that may help, I'll send it your way.