THE_REAL_OBLIVION
Bluelight Crew
I think I have kicked opiates....replacing them with my scripted dexedrine that I refused to take for a while after breaking up with my ex gf.
The only reason I had went back to shooting dilaudid was to kill the pain of the breakup, but all of this was settled in ways i won't describe here, except that I got to see her as friends only and I think I had to see in her eyes that she didn't desire me anymore and it did the trick.
I have just obtained a large sum of money today and I have no desire in scoring more dilaudid after taking my scripted 30mg of dexedrine a day (20mg spansules in the morning, 10mg IR at 4 pm) like I used to take. I can't say I feel happy, but I do not feel unhappy either. And I have no desire to put syringes in my fucked up hand veins since 48 hours.
Give me some good vibes so I will continue this way. I turned 30 today, I think the time of fun and games is over with using opiates for pleasure.
Between 2000 and 2012, I have consumed so much LSD (until around 2008), I was always lucky enough never to dabble much into RC's...well one of the best experience in my life was on AMT in 2001 but it didn't feel deep at all like LSD' just extremely euphoric.) Then when the effects of getting older and having pains in various places in my body kicked in and had codeine scripted to me by a doc, it all went really downhill in the opiate lane for me since then...
I suffer from zero withdrawal effects since this morning when I acquired some methacarbamol+ibuprofen pills for whatever pains i might get.
Wish me luck guys, even if most of you will say that replacing opiates with even scripted amphetamines isn't much better. At least I get those for free, do not get in debt to obtain them, do not annoy people with cars to help me out and go see the person providing me with dillies and i don't IV those either.
The only reason I had went back to shooting dilaudid was to kill the pain of the breakup, but all of this was settled in ways i won't describe here, except that I got to see her as friends only and I think I had to see in her eyes that she didn't desire me anymore and it did the trick.
I have just obtained a large sum of money today and I have no desire in scoring more dilaudid after taking my scripted 30mg of dexedrine a day (20mg spansules in the morning, 10mg IR at 4 pm) like I used to take. I can't say I feel happy, but I do not feel unhappy either. And I have no desire to put syringes in my fucked up hand veins since 48 hours.
Give me some good vibes so I will continue this way. I turned 30 today, I think the time of fun and games is over with using opiates for pleasure.
Between 2000 and 2012, I have consumed so much LSD (until around 2008), I was always lucky enough never to dabble much into RC's...well one of the best experience in my life was on AMT in 2001 but it didn't feel deep at all like LSD' just extremely euphoric.) Then when the effects of getting older and having pains in various places in my body kicked in and had codeine scripted to me by a doc, it all went really downhill in the opiate lane for me since then...
I suffer from zero withdrawal effects since this morning when I acquired some methacarbamol+ibuprofen pills for whatever pains i might get.
Wish me luck guys, even if most of you will say that replacing opiates with even scripted amphetamines isn't much better. At least I get those for free, do not get in debt to obtain them, do not annoy people with cars to help me out and go see the person providing me with dillies and i don't IV those either.
