Me Again. for the 2nd time?

[BananasAndOranges]

What the fuck is taking a vicodin if my methadone wore off reasonable or junkie style im tapering down again and at 98mgs? Shit has been hell lately and I'm just thinking if tapering is worth it is it guys? I've been at the clinic for a year now. I just don't know what to do as my current doc is a dumbass pill mill fuckwad who knows mnothing about being benzo dependent so i go from 4mgs of xanax to ativan 2mg-3mgs, and now im at 3 5mg diazepam!!!!! Can I go to urgent care if im feeling uneasy I feel nauseated almost and its because i think i AM INFACT ALLERGIC to diazepam! It would explain the bumps that were on my skin like when I was on klonopin acne looking pimples but huuurt. XANAX IS THE ONLY benzo I have found with Temazepam to work for me. Can I please get some insight I don't want a high from my medication management thats as dumb as fucking dumb gets sorry been there and i dont play that anymore so what the fuck can I even do? I mam going to run out early no matter WHAT! He (doc) threatened my several times trying to kick me out in WD FOR NO REASON. I just want to know where I should go and if methadone should stay where its at and continue nowhere else below 98mgs? I don't want trouble. Or highs. TBH 9 dexedrine....45mgs a day is almost too much anymore..

 

[Jabberwocky]

xanax has a short half life. moving to meds with a longer half life. Your doctor is doing things soundly, especially if she recently has begun to consider you drug seeking or addicted.

Doctors are supply side or sources. We have threads about choosing drs for medical reasons. We don't deal with threads that are about optimizing ones source of drugs however. This thread is on the verge of getting closed if it stays focused on the doctor as a supply or source.
Do you have plans about how you could live OK on fewer or even no benzos at all?

 

[BananasAndOranges]

you dont understand my doctor is a knob. he cares nothing about what i say....hes not a doctor at all actually who has done this to me its my psychiatrist. I do NOT have a doctor. I DID and right before i had things going good she fucking said my insurance didnt go through and fucked me making me go back to the prick who thinks 2mgs of klonopin for a benzo depent person never on a lower dose and the same dose years ago ........giving me the same dose like a prick. whatever if you think this is going a wrong way im asking like what to do in case of emergency this isnt a JOKE find me pills thread and tell me what to do to get them its a help me i dont have anyone to help me and i dont want to waste time at an urgent care with the small amount of money i have for a no. make more sense?



im not a benzo addict for fucks sake. I would never puke fest take a whole bottle and get wasted gross man fucking zombie are you joking? this is VERY serious not much joking or asking for a source of what to do when i go to a help facility nif someone can tell me what i dom incase of an emergency. close it if you want but thats a shame man .

 

[BananasAndOranges]

xanax has a short half life. Moving to meds with a longer half life. Your doctor is doing things soundly, especially if she recently has begun to consider you drug seeking or addicted.

Doctors are supply side or sources. We have threads about choosing drs for medical reasons. We don't deal with threads that are about optimizing ones source of drugs however. This thread is on the verge of getting closed if it stays focused on the doctor as a supply or source.
Do you have plans about how you could live ok on fewer or even no benzos at all?

i started on benzos with a long halflife way before getting put back on xanax then switched to a low ass dose of diazeoam and i said fuck it ativan must do better it didnt he went bipolar on me all caps man