Haven't slept properly since i started vapin it last Friday, or since i posted in this thread, think it were friday
lost feeling in my left thumb, and a large area of my back is numb, probs endin this madness soon.
had the odd fevered bucket sweatin' bed riddance for a few hours maybe.
Very strange, Trying to force myself to sleep,
Before this MDPV my normal 'get Brain to shut up and sleep' routine is usually something like:
Ganja the fuck out of it
get to bed and let mind theatre begin:
have some random song blasting away inside it, usually just one or two bars of the tune,
have some random guys face pop up/ can't remember the name of something,
obsess over that one fact, get massively angry can't think of the word,
try word association,
fury gets so intense i rip laptop open and search google for the answer,
only to realize the answer just before a page loads,
its always something insignificantly stupid, like forgetting the name of a comedy actor or the name of a drum and bass track...
Then,
play the days events over a couple of times till boring/depressing
then done-over and ultra focus on the shit aspects of my life,
(smoke, drugs, crap job, no tail, cripple,fucked University,lost people,can't drive,Big debts....)
this depressin mind shit quickly slides into the realms of awesome crazy abstract thoughts that i can never remember or describe, but i know once i hit abstract land sleep is very near..
But totally not happening on PV
i felt like i almost had it at one point, had the random abstract thinking and really felt like a dream/sleep was about to kick off,
but the second a real world thought occurred (usually a paranoid one) i was snapped back to totally conscious and fully awake...
