goodbye (for now)!!
Staring at an empty baggie

Don't know how the hell that happened so damn fast, I swear there was a whole gram in it a few days ago! 8( I did give several hundred mgs to a friend though, which I am now regretting slightly
Washed it out with water and plugged it to get every last bit, then started searching like mad through a load of capsules that I'd been using to store single-dose quantities a few days earlier in an attempt to collect some residue. Got one smallish line in the end but the comedown is hot on my heels
All good things must come to an end though (or so I've been lead to believe - I reckon Dedbeet could be the one who finally disproves that old axiom, if he really goes for it

)
At this point I'm very glad I'm doing this shite now and not a year ago in the days of legal next-day delivery in the UK (how tempting that would be right now

) - I could really do with a break & some solid meals

4 or 5 days (not quite sure? - definitely feels like less!) of daily use has taken it's toll...hardly eaten or moved, let alone looked after my teeth during that time. Sleept ok so the shadow peeps have been kept at arm's length, but more through circumstantial necessity than will-power. It's irritating having to cut short your binges after ~48 hrs all the time, it's just so damn rare that I get the 3+ days with no responsibilities & no encounters with people who disapprove of such antics that would be necessary to push it into shadow-territory (only did so once & pissed off/worried my friends in the process - was an, errr, interesting experience :D I didn't understand quite how literal the term shadow-person was before then!). I feel like eventually I'll need to find the time & space to just go at it hell for leather - halfway measures just don't cut it with peevee.
So at this point my peevee-fuelled postings are on temporary hiatus - not sure if that's a good or bad thing

Seriously though, i really have no idea what kind of impression i've made since i've been here, so sorry if my posts have been excessively long/rambling/eccentric - guess that comes with the territory
Anyways i doubt i'll be posting as much here, if at all, while I wait for my reorder to arrive so thanks everyone for keeping me company these last few days & tolerating my late-night ramblings

and for being awesome in general

i think it's fair to say that mdpv attracts a unique & eclectic bunch of people

I appreciate this thread all the more as I don't generally run with a druggy (let alone speedfreak) crowd & more vocal elements among my friends & family have been expressing their 'concern' over my appearance & behaviour in recent days...not that they don't have a point, it's just cool to be able to talk about these things with people who 'get it', so to speak. Not all bad though, I've had some of the best conversations of my life (as good as any I've had on MDMA), reconnected with some old friends & had some particularly deep chats about my drug use with my mum that have led to new levels of mutual understanding (see mum, drugs are good!:D)
basically this thread is made of win

don't know how peevee gets away with it to be honest 8(
If I don't drop in before then, see y'all in megathread 7!