Tan always just makes me randy as hell but the white never did - not even a little bit. Got deeply obsessive about all sorts of things - for hours at a time - but not so much as a whiff of perving. Almost more like being really wired on shit speed unless I redosed high enough to get a bit euphoric.
Feels a bit 'lifty' & positive here at lower doses, but that's about it, unless I just dosed too high & stayed there (possible, considering I last used MDPV over a year ago and probably forgot how to dose right so things stay balanced).
Next use I'm gonna keep doses low to moderate instead of high, which should reduce the tweakiness (which sucks) and move gradually into a 'seat of the pants' redosing curve. This is what I did with the tan stuff, but for some reason have been way more immoderate & "what the hell" with this, even downright stupid.
Even then (usually after sniffing a line with a vaped chaser) I'd get a bit of that peevee euphoria for a while but rapidly go back to staring into space. Was almost more like jumping straight into a peevee binge halfway through when it's just on the turn from great to not so great. Odd stuff - would like to know what it is cos it's not peevee as I know it.
Just too much Peevee here lately, plain & simple... I keep getting up & sitting back down, can't sit still or chill out really at all. Kept chasing 'perv' & getting disappointed, do more, no perv, do more w/different route of admin, no perv, etc. No paranoia or anything, but central tweaksville for sure... haven't even had a smoke or dip the past 4 hrs, way too wired. Definitely feels like bad crank or something, maybe mixed with a bit of ephedrine and caffeine for good measure.
Ahh, me no care tho... I've seriously let thought / mind go the past year or two & nothing really phazes me anymore. The problem is ALWAYS "wanting things to be different than they are"... all's cool as it is, cuz it IS as it is. Peace...