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MDPV Megathread 10: Stuffandnonsensemonger

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Shambles said:
Has got fuck all to do with who iz more hardcore. Any and all of the peev thread regulars iz hardcore as they come by definition. But being hardcore doesn't mean you also have to be a statistic. Have been pondering in and around the whole "hardcore" issue for some time now. Such labels meant something to me once. I'm really not sure why. Insecurity in one form or another, no doubt. Am coming round to the idea that being "hardcore" in and of itself is as meaningless to those of us who ostensibly are as it is to the rest of society. Being able to take fuckloads of drugs and not die in and of itself is not especially noteworthy or impressive. Knowing you are one of those "hardcore" types and finding ways to reel it in, not dying (and/or being totally fukked over) and still being able to find pleasures in this world seems infinitely more "hardcore".

Am not suggesting "surrender" so much as adopting different tactics. "It" will not destroy you or your world. But you will if you let yourself become caught up in any form of competitive prugpiggery. Doesn't matter who or what "it" has taken down cos "it" took nobody down. We take ourselves down. You can't beat you. So stop trying to live up to a standard that is utterly meaningless. Peev (and associated drugs) are ruining your life right now. So stop ordering them. It really is as simple as that ultimately. I know that if I were to order any significant quantity of peev (or related) it would only mean I was trying to live up to some bullshit standard I convinced myself of when I was wasted 24/7 or (even worse) that I was trying to convince myself I was somehow now "better than that". Hopefully I'd never do it cos I thought it was expected from me cos I know it isn't... but I am also aware that I've done precious little fiending of late for a self-confessed fiend and as a self-confessed fiend that feels like it should matter. But it really doesn't. Not in the way my fiendbrain sees it anyway.

I'd like to think I can still use peev now and then. Have had intense cravings of late as it happens. Can think of few things I'd like more than to lose myself in psychosis. But this is not a good reason to use so am so far still managing to hold off clicking that "Confirm" button... I kinda suspect I will be indulging again soon. But if/when I do I'm gonna be ordering the bare minimum and doing my damnedest to not reorder whilst fukked/fiending. Am undecided so far as to whether I could get away with 500mg as "acceptable" or whether I'd realistically need a gramme. Either way, the not re-ordering is kinda key to me. Have done well on reeling in my addictions of late. Perhaps a bit too well cos I almost don't feel like me anymore. I feel the need to let my inner fiend play... but I feel a far more important (in the grand scheme) need to be able to fiend on my terms cos I have no interest in being a slave to an inanimate object.

(please excuse mostly irrelevant ramble, have drunk quite lots of booze tonight for first time in ages :o)
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Well your right in that hardcore thing thats for sure when you put it like that Shambles, but I do not at all see myself as "hardcore",
in any matter, I see my self as an weak as fuck-piece of shit.

As you also wrote, stop ordering (it is easy as that), hell yea it is, but still I do order, so in sum way I still wants
this crap in my life.. And yes it myself takin me down, mdpv just help me doing it faster, and boy do it go downhill these days.

Hope you can keep your hands from the confirm button mate, but I understand the cravings.
 
Just recivedd 5 grams in the mail some days later... ooohh... i am ruined alredy. Havent eaten for 2 weeks... i am so mad at the bulb and the foil make me look like a heroinist... crap drug
 
Please take care of yourself Anatrica! Get sum sleep and sum food in you, no food in two weeks is madness. :( <3
 
Glad I've not signed on last two weeks so no money to spend on the stuff even though I've just finished 3g of mpa mostly vaped

wondering to my self if it really is as good as the hype or have i just done so many stims that they all blend in to one in away these days
 
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Ok I can't do stims anymore, have not could do a long time, but man my anxiety raise like an insane just after a little mdpv line?! WTF fuck this hittin the beers instead now
 
You think mpa is strong? Have done my share of that for sure, and it does not come close to MDPV, at all, mpa is weak as fuck compared to MDPV.

Weird you feel it like that.
 
no I would not call it strong as that well depends who and where you get it from im talking once you get into a binge of 4 days or so and I know my mdpv is just that as I get it from the same place as every body else in here Christ im the guy gave most of them the invite code for the place

what I mean it all becomes samey if you get me
 
Dude im not hatin on you, at all. Just trying to figure out how you think even after a 4 days binge or so, that you can feel mdpv feels like mpa, or other stims. It really chockin for me.

Ofc it depends on the person, but man still.

You the guy who gave invites to most people in here of the vendor I think I know you talking about or what ya sayin?
 
no no sorry was not meaning to sound bitch at you man fuck your the one in the thread knows there stuff .

guess it because ive been on stims for 20 years non stop usage for 9 years and I mean all most daily with that things become samey could just be me

and yes one or two of them got their invite codes of me and then I guess it just spread lol :)
 
haha you didn't sound like that, just wanted to make sure you didn't think I was hatin on you, cuz I am not ;)

Well yea thats a long time, and as you said, depends on the person, and it sure does, with every drug, just wild it can feels so much a-like the stims for you.

Should thank you (or not since its there I get my MDPV, ha) in sum way then :D.

How many times you tried MDPV? Just out of curiosity.
 
not to sure to be truth full as it was back in the ivory wave ultra days when I first found out about it pure 4 or5 times im not sure last gram was mixed with mxe which was great till 2 days later when I had very very bad breathing problems felt like my chest was turning to concrete
 
you did too much mdpv too fast right?

Did once 500mg MDPV in like 24 hours, couldnt fuckin breath myself, trying to get air was a fuckin challenge
 
Yes had sum weird mxe a month or more back myself.. Really weird.

LOL I fuckin flushed half a g of MDPV this time (had too, long story...) but have 1g coming my way again lol.

Damn I have loads of troubles in life, and I keep going on at it, should fix myself man.

Hope ya all good, anybody on a binge right now? <3
 
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