Mdma

I did MDMA for the first time tonight. I like it. I feel good. Sadly still BL can push a button that I've had pushed one to many times and I still go off. Not that I really give a fuck at the moment. Just hate that "You're not trying" bullshit when ppl aren't here they don't know and when I actually fucking was... now time to leave BL alone and not let it ruin my damn trip

 

Its not like I was going to make a HABIT of it. It was SUPPOSED to be a one time deal because its too hard to get. But now I'm doing one more away from fucking BL so they can't ruin my roll. I'm not gonna continue to use it over and over. Why do ppl assume that you use a drug ONE time you will just keep doing it. I didn't even peak before my roll was ruined. I'd like to have a good experience and leave it alone after that.

 

You can't even get it where I live. I have to get it special. So even if I wanted it all the time I couldn't have it. Tramadol is about all I got since weed isn't an option. My mom keeps a drug test in the house. Lil does she know I have shredded the directions so its going to be difficult to prove anything. I'm try to stick to those that won't show. THC is about the only once I'm concerned about, when really thats likely the safest and drug that does the most for me. But yeah if I wanted it, I would have to know the right ppl and drive over an hour to get it here. This is just special circumstances. If figure if someone ruins my trip I'm allowed at least one good one. So much lecturing on this... jeesh.