MDMA - Semi-experienced - Crazy to try again?

[just.breathe]

Hello. The first time i did ecstasy i had done bars that same night before i decided to roll and dont really remember rolling. i took pink lips (it think about 2)and woke up fine the next day- just felt like a hang over. All-in-all fine; except for the fact that i woke up sick 3 days later.

Since i couldnt remember my first time i decided to try again 2 weeks later on a Saturday. Originally i was just going to take one roll- orange monkey which i took at about 11:30. I took it and started feeling something soon and decided to take half of a green monkey at around 12:00 and about an hour after that i puked . - but felt alot better! At around 2 i took half of a yellow and another half at 4 and another half at 7. - not the smartest thing to do.

I felt pretty shitty the rest of that day (Sunday) and had bad jaw clenching and some twitches but i handled it ok. I woke up the next day (Monday) and was able to eat and i made sure to drink lots of water and juice and yada yada. That same day i smoked weed about twice and decided to drink like 2 cans of soda. At around 5 i started noticing my heart rate beating pretty fast so i sat down and tried to watch some TV. For about 3 hours i tried to convince myself that i was just tripping out and that it would go away- i even tried taking a nap but eventually the pounding in my chest got harder and i started to see things blurry and i started to feel a really heavy pressure in my chest and i couldnt really stand up straight. my best friend tried to reasure me that i was just having a panic attack and after looking up the symptoms of a panic attack i had pretty much convinced myself that that was what i was having but my heart was still racing and i still felt really bad. the palpitations continued the rest of the night- i had to force myself to fall asleep and when i woke up at 6 the next morning, my palpitations still hadnt gone away and i was feeling worse than the night before. at that point i decided to go to the hospital. at the hospital my heart rate was at 146 and after being hooked up to an IV and being given oxygen my heart rate started to go down. after blood tests and urine tests came back ok they gave me a xanax and sent me home and told me not to have any sort of stimulants for the next 3 days of which i spent feeling like assss.

i honestly think that i just over did it- i really want to do roll again but im afraid that even 1 will make my heart go crazy again. im just confused because it couldnt have been an overdose since it happned 2 days after i rolled?? was it the weed or the coke that made my heart spaz out ?

 

[F1n1shed]

Not sure could have been the weed causing a panic attack but it could have been bad pills to. I had alot of those symptoms at a rave when i had a orange monkey. I rated that pill as the worst pill i ever took.

 

[just.breathe]

im sorta convinced that it waz a panic attack too.. the hospital didnt really do much; it just kinda went away on its own... :/ hmm

 

[uprightuk]

years ago, when I was a bad pill head and smoked a ruck of weed, I used to get all manner of symptons. I'd have palpatations sometimes and sometimes anxiety - never when flying - always towards the end of the night.

This is when weed was at an Oz/week and pills were mostly daily for a period of at least a year- with a bit of booze here n there too. There were times when I couldn't sleep for the excited state my body was in, but my mind i think was too tired to care and I'd eventually fall asleep.

I wolud often feel what may be called anxiety, but I always got the impression that it was just a side effect of being on so much shit and it kind of made it like a nice alternative of anxiety - as mad as that shit sounds.

Another dodgy side was to often fall asleep at a desk when working alone on a quiet loading bay and wake up and not have any feeling in one side and fighting for a minute before being able to move my left side - there were no pins n needles at all or dead leg or shit - there were no fucking limbs to be moved as far as my brain knew - even though I knew they were there - bizarre - scared me a little but not enough to grow a brain and stop...

All these chems come with sides that may be rarely documented and not considered by the masses but beware...