pmz unrelated question but how is the visual disturbances side of your derealisation? is it gone? that and some brain fog is the only thing that remains of my Dr/dp. i notice the music thing bothers you, it's weird because for me i actually enjoy music more than I ever used to because it's one of the few things i can do that doesn't remind me my vision is still a bit off (it's not bad anymore, things just seem slightly off, like I'm wearing sunglasses but without everything being darker haha. thats the only way i can describe it)
also i know i was supposed to be avoiding this site but i was really bored so i caved!
I know what you mean man, I'm still getting bored extremely crazy, I even get excited to walk to a relatives house or something and actually do something, I'm a student too and I know exactly what you talk about with the Netflix thing! It's summer now too so I'm relaxing but also very bored hahaha, but I'm feeling like me again and can enjoy going out, can drink and eat whatever I feel now. I honestly think in a couple of weeks to a month or so I could be back to me, anxiety is dying down and happiness is rising back.pmz - the first two weeks my emotional response was terrible, felt like my soul had been ripped out. i tried to look at people more when talking to them in an effort to connect with them but the derealisation was so bad they looked like they were from planet mars and i had to look away after a bit. after that i found myself laughing at comedies again and started to doubt this was Dr/dp as now it's purely visual disturbances and some brain fog. i do perhaps get a bit less excited by things but only as someone would when they're going through a tough time. I got a job today and I'm genuinely excited, just not jumping around in glee like I would normally be. as I said because my emotional response is fairly normal now i wasn't even sure if i had Dr/dp and not just a silent migraine. when I think back to how I first was though i'm sure it is. one thing i will say though is although it is possible for me to get excited i get bored soooo easily these days, anytime I'm not doing something productive like going to the gym or looking for a job I'm bored out of my skull, and this is from a student who before this was perfectly happy to spend a solid week sat on the sofa watching netflix haha. free time kinda sucks right now
edit: tbh even when I am at work/at the gym i do still get bored sometimes. but I go by the logic that if I'm going to be bored i may aswell be getting toned/making money while I'm doing it haha
also pmz maybe you should do something crazy that scares the shit out of you like skydiving. at the very worst if you don't feel the adrenaline you'll just seem really fearless to whoever is there!
I don't do other drugs, I kept drinking alcohol occasionally and I never stopped drinking coffee, I only noticed that it had an influence in some way for a few hours. After 2 months I stopped drinking coffee for 2 weeks but the symptoms didn't really get that much better after stopping, so I started drinking again.Do you still avoid caffeine and other drugs?
The thing that alleviated the pain best was sleeping, I always felt better in the morning but everything got worse throughout the day. And for the rest I think you need to give it time. I really thought that I could be stuck with it for life, I'm so happy this isn't the case, it really does go away completely. I never had any cognition or social problems except for the down feeling the first few weeks but I already knew that feeling.You're 100% now? Anything that helped you in recovering from your head tingles other than time? Did you have any cognition/social problems...
I can just imagine where you are at, every person is different but for me the symptoms really didn't get that much better after a half year. It was a little bit better but not by much. If someone would have told me when I was 6 months in that it would go away completely I wouldn't have believed him.I still don't feel totally back to myself 5.5 months out.
I remember my bad trip was on one capsule of tested mdma. I am susceptible to psychoacts. and one full loaded cap of lets say 0.15 was wayyy too strong at the time. I wonder if I pop 1/3 of a capsule, 0.05, and I have an amazing time, forgetting about worsening my state, ill go back to normal. I feeel like this could work... Any advice?
It does make sense, how was your trip bad me2point0? I can see this all being anxiety from the emotional trauma we gave ourselves whilst in a sensitive state form the MDMA. It does say that it people do recover in time, so sticking to abstinence is going to be my route as I can already feel myself get better!This isnt linked to my older thoughts. That was purelly an idea from the dea article. Im not doing mdma recreationally for a long time, maybe ever. Im just looking for an answer..
It does make sense, how was your trip bad me2point0? I can see this all being anxiety from the emotional trauma we gave ourselves whilst in a sensitive state form the MDMA. It does say that it people do recover in time, so sticking to abstinence is going to be my route as I can already feel myself get better!
However I reckon if I were to make a smaller dose (even though my crippling anxiety was bought on by a TINY dose) with pre-load and post-load, without any need to worry, in a nice open comfortable place (like a festival gig) I could probably counter-act all of this with MDMA. But of course, my mind would get the better of me and I know I would start worrying about getting this all over again, so staying clean is the way. I've only done MDMA three times too!
Done mdma once, and it was that time. Badtripped for 20 minutes right from the start of the comeup and was frightened to death for that time. Ended up being comforted, removing all anxiety and panic. But a little too late... Rest of the night was good. Dizzy dpdr etc feelings started 2 days after, because of anxiety probably...
2 to 3 days after ingestion of MDMA is when the chemical depletion hits bottom, which in turn causes immense anxiety and/or depression, dp/dr. That's why you have terms like "tuesday blues" or "suicide tuesday" etc. The interesting thing is that for those of us that suffer a LTC those symptoms prevails and seem to not recover - or recover only partially as the depleted enzymes and neurotransmitters, and possibly down-regulated receptors, are replenished and up-regulated.
Excuse me for not understanding, i'm french Canadian and I don't always understand the full extend the message divered. Questions about this post:
1. What's the true meaning of LTC in this context?
2. Am I a victim of what you are saying or am I not included in that?
3. Is this backed up by anything? Im not being agressive here or anything, but is it really true that there's no room for recovery and i'll actually end up being dizzy and brainfoggy forever?
Sorry again for looking so dumb, you wrotte a small but very dense paragraph and I don't quite catch it all.
I remember my bad trip was on one capsule of tested mdma. I am susceptible to psychoacts. and one full loaded cap of lets say 0.15 was wayyy too strong at the time. I wonder if I pop 1/3 of a capsule, 0.05, and I have an amazing time, forgetting about worsening my state, ill go back to normal. I feeel like this could work... Any advice?