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Good for you. There is a lot of hate for SSRIs on BL. In the end, you need to do whatever you think will make you feel the best. I am interested in hearing about your experience.
Just a quick update. I went on a date with a girl and afterwards we danced a bit in a club and I had a GREAT time. I can honestly say that for the first time in 5 months I actually felt genuinly content in the moment. It really gives me hope for the future.
Never give up, always fight for your life.
Never give up, always fight for your life.
Lol....I can completely relate. Back in the days when I used to trip, I would constantly drink water and freak out if I didn't have any. Yeah, I don't think it was anything serious either. I was just pointing out all the phases we all go through while we are going through this LTC. Periods where one symptom or another dominate. That phase lasted about a month. I was drinking....oh...12-15 glasses of water a day where normally I might drink maybe a few. And, the real pisser is (pun intended), I didn't urinate as often as you'd think from drinking that much. But, like I said, that phase has passed.
I've actually had a couple days this week with 0 symptoms, but that damn "dull" feeling or forehead pressure always seems to return before too long. So damn annoying!
Has anyone ever found that Dr/dp literally dulls all of your senses, rather than just affecting your vision/ability to think? Even my hearing and my sense of smell have been bad recently, if I'm in a loud environment i basically have to rely on lip reading, and I'm constantly asking people to repeat stuff. My sense of taste is also a bit crap atm, i can eat something i enjoy and still enjoy it but the tastes aren't as strong. Eating and music are one of the few things i can still enjoy though (if anything i love music even more nowadays), thank god
Im going on week 7 now... Head fog is starting to clear but.. On week 5 i have developed constant high pitch ringing in my ears that hasnt stopped... Usually after a concert you get it bit then it goes away... I feel like 80% but this ringing is killing me
Its hard to not notice it.. Bc its always there .. But sometimes if i keep busy and dont think about it .. It becomes less... However its still there...
Has anyone gone through this "high pitched ringing" and it go away? Any time length success?
Its hard to not notice it.. Bc its always there .. But sometimes if i keep busy and dont think about it .. It becomes less... However its still there...
Has anyone gone through this "high pitched ringing" and it go away? Any time length success?
Ifeel4u - everyone's experience is unique. Some people have LTCs for a few weeks, others seem to last many months. I think it depends on the individual and how they manage their mental health problems triggered by the drugs.
Anecdotal evidence seems to show that once someone suffering stops focusing on "does anyone else have this specific symptom and how long does it last" to "well my brain is a bit off right now and I am experiencing unpleasant symptoms but I need to keep on with my life," people generally get lot better and really start making significant strides in their recovery.
Anecdotal evidence seems to show that once someone suffering stops focusing on "does anyone else have this specific symptom and how long does it last" to "well my brain is a bit off right now and I am experiencing unpleasant symptoms but I need to keep on with my life," people generally get lot better and really start making significant strides in their recovery.
ro4eva
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Are you overweight? How's your blood pressure? They can greatly contribute to the sensation of tinnitus (ringing in one or both ears).
Ear infections, ear injuries, and various drugs (legal or not) may also be the cause.
For example, many people report tinnitus when using large amounts of certain stimulants, such as cocaine.
I have been dealing with chronic tinnitus (ringing in the ears) ever since I started taking low-dose Aspirin about 3 years ago.
At first, it used to drive me crazy. Oh man, I used to bury a dozen Q-Tips in each ear in a vain attempt to stifle the situation.
Eventually, I just got used to it. Not like I had much of a choice, unless I stop using the Aspirin - which results in tinnitus going away.
In any case, perhaps it would be best to see your doctor if it's causing you a lot of stress, which it can.
Well, I am taking the plunge today and starting on Paxil. After a couple of good days, I've had a couple of shitty days. Just feel really worn down and tired with everything. Anyway, I don't know if it is the pill I took earlier or not, but I am feeling some unpleasant side effects already. Just curious whether anyone else has taken Paxil and what their experiences were? I'll just add that I've taken Paxil in the past with no problems whatsoever. I've had the prescription for a while now, but I wanted my brain to have some time to heal before I introduced it into my system. I'm hoping it stabilizes my symptoms and helps my mood, but I'm getting nervous now about the side effects under these conditions.
ro4eva
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Unfortunately, you may have to do a bit of trial and error before you manage to find an SSRI (or another type of antidepressant) which won't make you feel unbearably shitty.
I had to try Paxil, Prozac, Lexapro, and Celexa before finally getting around to (and staying on) Zoloft (Sertraline).
Some people find they respond better to a non-SSRI antidepressant, such as Wellbutrin (Bupropion). I combined it with my Zoloft after a few months because I heard it helps with symptoms of fatigue and weakness, which it did big time, probably because it's a Dopamine & Norepinephrine Reuptake Inhibitor. And combined with an SSRI (the Zoloft in my case), I felt so much more energized. It's not for everyone though - obviously. Some people have said that it gets them pissed off for no reason. This one other acquaintance who tried to use it to help him quit smoking told me that he began to hear voices.
P.S. - Some SSRIs have more of a stimulatory effect than others. For example, Prozac (Fluoxetine) really psyched me up when I tried it out. Felt like I drank a little too much coffee when on it.
The important thing to remember with SSRIs, is that they take a few weeks to start working, and, that it takes a couple of weeks for the adverse side effects to lessen in severity (as the body becomes used to the medication).
Good luck with everything.
Yeah wow my tinnitus was insane.
Luckily it has died out to just the evenings and it's only really present if I focus on it.
I'm sure it'll go away. I can't give you an estimate on how long it took for mine to go away since I didn't really care (was too busy with my other symptoms), but it'll definitely die down.
Yeah definitely. When I took my first Lexapro I experienced a very large feeling of fear later that night. This went away after 2 weeks. Also on between day 5-10 I got a very noticable worsening in symptoms, but given how SSRIs work- that's to be expected. I'm on day 5 of my dosage increase now and luckily it has been treating me gently this time *knock on wood*.
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When do you expect beneficial effects from it?
I'm already experiencing beneficial effects. I notice I have become a lot more "accepting" of my symptoms. Also I talk more/less humble. And I'm doing a lot of things and feel like doing a lot of things I couldn't before starting the Lexapro. Like this weekend I've been to the club, watched the football games with my friends and have visited my grandparents. Currently I'm even working on some music. I don't know really, it's all so subtle. I just feel... hope. Like I'm getting my life back.
It's about 5 months since it all started for me. I think I'm caught in a bit of a vicious cycle now. I have frustrating physical symptoms still, muscle spasms, palpitations and sometimes feeling short of breath. When I start to dwell on it I get rushes of adrenaline which I'm able to stop from becoming panic attacks now. I think the only way it will get better is if I force myself back into normal life but the problem is I'm stuck in the house as it's summer holidays and normal life for me before involved a lot of time partying, drinking and smoking weed all of which I can't do anymore. I'm trapped until college starts again. I feel like my body is so on edge all the time, like even stretched out on the sofa watching TV and not feeling anxious my body just won't relax.
ro4eva
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Many people who are suffering from a bad roll and/or long term comedown (who have posted in this thread) have stated that they too had a similar lifestyle of partying on a regular occasions, and using all sorts of drugs. This includes myself as well.
When I did get sick, it forced me to change my lifestyle big time. And for the next couple of years, I only went to a party once or twice.
As boring as it may (or may not) be to be sitting at home for the summer, perhaps you can use this time to try and recover.
Just an idea, but ultimately your choice.
thejibberman
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So much better recently guys. Not coming on this website and dwelling on it is the true cure for me. I don't feel crazy anymore. I've basically forgotten all about it, until I remind myself coming on here! It's like when I come here to update I talk as if something is wrong with me, but there really isn't. Also IFeel4U, I think I have tinnitus, but for as long as I can remember I've had it so I don't dwell on it at all. It's not a biggie.
Ciao for a while hombres!
Ciao for a while hombres!
Wow I've been making insane progress these past few weeks. I just went on a date with a girl, felt pretty good the entire time. No real feelings of derealisation. I had a bit of DP though and a bit of difficulty following the conversation but overall I had a very fun time.
I feel like I'm finally getting my life back.
I feel like I'm finally getting my life back.
I abused MDMA for a good year almost every weekend keep eating it after the rave till Sunday going through 3.5grams on a normal weekend I've not touched it since Boxing Day 2013 however am going to a festival soon going to get off my tits it's scary reading that people have been on 7 month comedowns I couldn't imagine that I've cried and stayed in bed for a day or two but 7 months that's put me off that isn't normal right ??
No, unfortunately people with long term side effects appear to be in the very small minority. There is a debate on BL of whether the people who suffer extended symptoms suffered from actual damage from the drug or the drugs triggered a temporary, but significant imbalance that a select few are predisposed to encounter.
Given that more and more on BL are reporting significant to total recovery after time and investing in their recovery via mindfulness and overall healthy living, it is my opinion that the symptoms are stress/anxiety related and the drugs were the catalyst - similar to PTSD.
Either way, it is not fun. The good news is that BL has turned into a resource for people suffering from long term issues due to MDMA and it appears that the vast majority of people are recovering.
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