Hello
Hello, i am new to this forum and this is my first post.
I am also currently experiencing this long term comedown, as it has all started after my last party where i combined one and a half of untested pill with alcohol.
Before that i rolled around 10 times consuming on average 2 pills per roll. The pills were untested by me, yet were good and clean according to the "pillreports" webpage. Sometimes i did mix the pills with some alcohol sometimes i did not. Interesting fact is that i never had a comedown after my rolling sessions, only an "afterglow" which lasted about a week.
Now, my last roll was pretty weird and pretty reckless because i did not plan to consume any xtc pills, i.e. i did not plan to roll and i was going to only consume alcohol, yet being drunk removes all the sane reason from one's head as well as turns one into a proud mfer... Somehow deep inside me i knew that these pills were bad and unclean, yet my friends consumed them and were rolling hard and the dealer said they were good and strong; so me being a stupid drunk at that time decided to buy and eat them. The good thing is that somehow i managed to consume the pill and a half after about 4 hours since my last drink of alcohol and did not drink any alcohol during the roll itself, only water. The roll itself was pretty strange, it was somewhat euphoric, however the "loved up" feeling was absent and the effect lasted only about 2 hours; other than that there were no negative problems during the roll itself.
All hell broke loose when i got home and decided to get some sleep. During my sleep i woke up with a strong panic attack, apparently i was very scared. After that panic attack i was very anxious and restless an suddenly felt all the effects of a bad comedown which i have never experienced before: uncontrollable anxiousness, depression, trouble sleeping, loss of appetite, difficulty concentrating, brain fog, a degree of depersonalization and derealization, sluggish thinking and so on..
With the help of benzos i managed to get to sleep after one day of insomnia. After about 3 days most of the negative effects subsided, yet i was still somewhat "off" emotionally and mentally, however i was fully functional.
For about a month after the roll i felt ok, then the second month came and i slowly started experiencing typical symptoms of anxiety and depression, i sucked them up assuming that they will go away, yet they did not and only grew in intensity.
After about 2 months i started having trouble with my sleep and that only exacerbated the symptoms which started to grow more and more. When the third month came i was totally annihilated by symptoms of anxiety and depression which were very intense.8( At that time i assumed that i suffered a full blown agitated depression with mixed stated, i thought i was going crazy or had some terrible mental illness, you know all the nasty things anxiety makes you believe.
The fourth month was somehow easier emotionally and mentally for me, yet symptoms of anxiety and depression still were very strong but i somehow got used to them and continued to function.
So far it has been 5 months since that tragic roll and my symptoms are somewhat lessening in intensity, however it is hard to say...
My insomnia got a lot better ( i can sleep without any type of sleep aid either natural or not), i no longer suffer intense emotional pain, my mind became clearer, dp/dr lessened.
What i still suffer from is bearable although fluctuating depression and anxiety, mild brain fog, increased sensitivity to every chemical that goes into my body be it food, drugs ( i no longer consume any drugs except occasional coffee) or supplements, a mild form of anhedonia and emotional numbness.
My physical symptoms are currently mild head pressure, feelings of heat on the scalp and on my back and an occasional headache.
Hopefully as the time goes by my symptoms will lessen even more and i will be fully cured.
Sorry for the long post and thanks for reading.
