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I really appreciate the help guys honestly . It's been rough and the most painful part is when your younger your just so stupid and then when you get older and wiser you think what the hell was I doing.
 
Itsgoneundertheboa said:
Sorry to hear your having such a long recovery.

Obesity will definitely have an impact on recovery (even mentally it can add to social anxiety) and key to giving yourself the best chance is to get the weight off.

Also re your cardio remember that it can work against you if you go beyond your capability. Could well be that at current you simply can't cope with the cardio intensity you think you can by the fact you are getting light headed. We all get light headed if we overdo it.

Build your cardio gradually and always monitor your heart rate so you can see when it is getting high or low and adjust accordingly. Look up your age weight etc and find the optimum for you. Sounds like a good speed walk is what suits at current. Stay with that and do it regularly (3 times a week minimum) until you find you can do more. If your heart monitoring your heart will tell you when and if your getting fitter. You will also get thinner quicker by staying in the right heart rate.

I lived most of my adult life as obese to then lose 30 kg In a year. the positive effect mentally and physically from weight loss will definitely help you along the way.

How did you feel when you lost that much weight ?
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TrulyBlessed87 said:
Itsgoneundertheboa said:
Sorry to hear your having such a long recovery.

Obesity will definitely have an impact on recovery (even mentally it can add to social anxiety) and key to giving yourself the best chance is to get the weight off.

Also re your cardio remember that it can work against you if you go beyond your capability. Could well be that at current you simply can't cope with the cardio intensity you think you can by the fact you are getting light headed. We all get light headed if we overdo it.

Build your cardio gradually and always monitor your heart rate so you can see when it is getting high or low and adjust accordingly. Look up your age weight etc and find the optimum for you. Sounds like a good speed walk is what suits at current. Stay with that and do it regularly (3 times a week minimum) until you find you can do more. If your heart monitoring your heart will tell you when and if your getting fitter. You will also get thinner quicker by staying in the right heart rate.

I lived most of my adult life as obese to then lose 30 kg In a year. the positive effect mentally and physically from weight loss will definitely help you along the way.

How did you feel when you lost that much weight ?
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Amazing in every way. Not just from the self confidence it gives you. I noticed very quickly as the weight came off how much more alive you feel. Just walking down the street you see a difference in the way people view you (perhaps perceived only by yourself). Going out on down the beach is a pleasurable experience. Just being able to walk into a clothes shop and know you can finally buy what you want not what fits.

Honestly losing weight and exercise is the best thing you can do. I can also tell you that if you focus on it you won't think as much as you do about LTC. Having another focus and having something to achieve is your way to the fastest recovery.

Re heart and linkage to effects of LTC it is always difficult to scientifically link. I believe that it's actual more linked to an imbalance of liver and kidneys. Studies I've read already suggest that anxiety issues could well be linked to our organs producing an imbalance of the feel good chemicals. I'll try to search it for you and put a link.
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Thank You Truly Boa , My whole family tried to tell me just get the weight off and you will feel like a new person . I did not believe them as I thought that no way weight and being inactive would do this to me. Since an LTC never happened to me before I always thought that this would be it.
 
I would ask your doctor about Belsomra, Clonidine (I take these two myself) or low dose Seroquel for sleep. Mirtazapine works pretty well but might cause weight gain. Small risk of weight gain with Seroquel as well.
 
Why you truly blessed wouldn't take my suggestion we should get 2 or more people or make a large group of people to look for the answer because society and doctors don't take us seriously but as a group of course they will. I'm 2 years clean not even wine or coffee ..btw how you can start a threat on mobile android anybody???
 
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17 months.

HPPD still scares me. Snow. Shadow people. The CEV I actually enjoy a lot.

Brain fog & derealization noticeably nearly gone. Anxiety's still bad, but not all the time. Just funny moodswings in general. Wanting to cry for no reason, stuff like that. But I've gotten pretty good at fighting these moods via my CBT exercises, so they don't last long.

Still on SSRI's and DNRI. Benzos only a few times a month. Eating & sleeping well. Back to work full time. Have myself a girl who loves me. Hang in there everyone. There is hope for all of us.
 
robmatch22 said:
I've recently been having really bad panic attacks due to various stuff and the doc has supplied me with ssri's (citaprham I think it's called) which are antidepressants.... I'm really determined to get rid of these brain zaps which are definatley getting better but will these tablets make them worse? I've heard they are linked with brain zaps after extended use ? thanks
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I've heard of brain zaps from abruptly quitting SSRI's, but never from starting them. I had brain zaps for about a month and knowing how painful they are, I would suggest you try it.
 
Hi TrulyBlessed. I won't go into my situation as you probably already know it as I have been on here for two plus years but in summary I totally fucked myself up in ways that you would not believe is fathonable on my fist dose of mdma (or any drug for that matter) at the ripe old age of 37. A drunken peer fuelled uncharacteristic decision which has ruined or at least catestrophically altered my life. So enough of the doom and gloom. Basically I have been taking Ashwagandha and black seed oil morning and evening and been doing cardio for a month now. Now don't get me wrong I am still fucked but my suicidal ideation has lifted and my racing uncontrollable mind has settled some what. It's a relief which I can 'enjoy'. Not the magic pill but it may provide some glimmer of hope. Know we in this battle together.
 
Hey Nambo, I just wanted to say that I believe your improvements stem from the cardio rather than the ashwagandha/black seed oil (just so you know where to direct your efforts so that you may recover). I hope you get there slowly and steadily, keep up the exercise. <3
 
Agreed. I don't think it's psychological either. If it is psychological, it is the most psychosomatic thing that can happen to anyone. I have over 15 symptoms. I could understand 1 or 2 from anxiety or something like that, but 10-15 symptoms? And it's supposed to be ALL in my head? I desperately want that to be true, but I can't help but think these are fundamental brain and hormone changes, and potentially not just the brain but other aspects of my nervous system as well. It's all fucked, I just want to be normal, or part way there. I'm not really suicidal anymore, but if I'm not at least partially better in a year or so I might seriously consider it. And I don't want to, but life is so shit and I don't know how to improve.
 
Cardio increases heart rate, thus increasing blow flow around the body, including the brain. As a result of cardio, expression of BDNF is enhanced. BDNF is the little bugger involved with the neuronal survival/promotion, including migration, phenotypic differentiation, axonal and dendritic growth, and synapse formation. - All of these factors are involved in generation of serotonergic neuronal cells

http://www.nature.com/npp/journal/v33/n1/full/1301571a.html
 
for real bro on here bluelight any idea or suggestions we post is not take seriously-- getting a group of people no homo is a good idea to get the answer o well hopefully one day on here they understand this ..president Obama don't listen to one guy in fact he doesn't care if this guy agree with him but 10.000 he going to adresses the problem ... When one person get sick in nyc nobody cares but 100 you will see reports on every single channel.. the same goes to any research money is not the problem for the research when they see a lot of people suffering at the same time... Dr google is not the answer... maybe later on here bluelight see that I was right oh well
 
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