I know there is a possibility this could end in a long time and there is also a possibility it couldn't.. only reason I haven't killed myself is because I'm chicken shit to do it.. I keep telling myself I'm going to do it then find myself waking up to another miserable day because I couldn't go threw with it.. it's a lot harder to kill yourself than you think also... bridge is the only like for sure way and jumping off a bridge is terrifying.. dying is terrifying but I just don't think I can handle this.
Waking up every hour is not necessarily the 'deep sleep' that leads to recovery. As in You may think you are sleeping fine but may not be. See a psychiatrist asap.
If I could just enjoy anything or distract myself it wouldn't be too bad.. but the fact I can't enjoy anything is fucking awful.. and yeah not other symptoms besides no feelings... and I can't feel love or connection with anything or anyone.
Just FYI, this is yet another cranial nerve thing (see trigeminal neuralgia for example)the wind blowing against it alone caused it to hurt - against all odds, it's massively recovered now.
Just FYI, this is yet another cranial nerve thing (see trigeminal neuralgia for example)
8bit thanks for the advice.. how long did you take to recover from your emotional numbness ? How much did you do also ?
Did you try any meds ?
Im currently 6 months into this horrible experience but I can say routine, therapy, exercise, healthy eating and meds do help. My outlook a month ago was constant suicidal thoughts every day. I still think like this at times but most of the time I can see that after this experience, I could lead a life more meaningful and fulfilling than any I would have lead without this suffering. Time And support does help so keep pushing on! I never thought I would be writing one of these posts supporting someone else a couple of months ago but people who go through these recoveries live better lives than people who go through life with no issues as we now know what is important and how much we take for granted.
And that's so long, Idk how I'm suppose to make it through, I don't think my mom has enough patience for that either she just keeps saying I have to pull myself out of it.
They put me on Zoloft for a week and I didn't notice anything but they imediatley switched me to Wellbutrin because they thought it would work better. I've been on it 3 weeks and can't notice anything... and someone told me to stop taking it and switch to Prozac
They put me on Zoloft for a week and I didn't notice anything but they imediatley switched me to Wellbutrin because they thought it would work better. I've been on it 3 weeks and can't notice anything... and someone told me to stop taking it and switch to Prozac