MDMA / Paxil

[italianstallion]

I have had issues with taking MDMA a while ago! You can read my old post. I fucked up again and I feel really disappointed In myself! I am a loser.If your going to cut me down and make me feel worse there is no need. Your comment could be the difference in saving me or making me go off the depend again or ending up in the ground. So please think before you comment! I have lost my cousin in a accidental death this week as well
I have taken MDMA 1.5 years or Atleast I was told it was and had massive headaches and depression for about 3-4 months .... It started to go away and I then went on Paxil/ Theraphy and have been pretty much fine except went I get stressed or overwhelmed.

This Friday I took MDMA , just maybe 75 percent of small capsule I dumped it in my drink while I was in Vegas . I was with ten people I know it was pure bc the source I got it from. But the truth is no one knows what is in it. Everybody has different effects. I wanted to see if it would work! The reason being i was drugged by a friend in my first incident in Miami. He told it was pure MDMA but It was not. He was buying his stuff off the internet. Who knows what it was , but I do know it was a synthetic substance.
Back to my story I had a small little roll assuming bc I'm on Paxil. I woke up the next day fine.
Saturday night I did a little bit of cocaine. Sunday at 6 in the morning I started to get the sweats and chills when I got back to my hot, not to mention I was having sinus and cough before this which I am sure added to issue.
Sunday I slept from 7am-10:30 am
Relaxed by a pool all day and stayed out of the sun in the shade - hydrated myself immensely. Had some fruit and some French fries, and then proceeded to eat a normal dinner. Went to bed by 11 pm and woke up today 8 am. I was extremely tired the last two days I am sure a lot of it has to do with lack of sleep this last week between work and partying.
Am I going to be ok? I cannot go through 2-6 months of the depression and the pain again. I will die I cannot deal with it. I spent so much money on doctors and ruined my parents life. I should of thought about this before. But I didn't! I am a selfish fuck. Will I get these massive headaches again. Will I get serotonin death syndrome ?

Please respond quickly I'm on the verge of losing it .

If anyone needs my phone number please let me know - I had one guy on here help me through this

Thanks again

 

[derok]

if somebody tell you that you maybe have to wait those 5 months to get back normal again like a promise...will you do it? if you want the best source of motivation through this look for futura's story , he overcome 2 long term comedowns.

By the way my thoughts about this after all my research is, if you dnt have any physical symptoms, you got BIG chances too be ok in less time than the most of us could be.
Man im pretty sure that you will deal with it, this wasnt your fault, you have just been unlucky.

btw paxil (thing wich i took too for a while...) blocks mdma cause the med use the same serotonin chanel. infact ssri use to give a bad or null trip to the user.
if you need help PM , im not native but i can write it quite good.

 

[italianstallion]

Can you explain to me about the paxil? Was it safer for me to roll when I took 75% of this capsule of MDMA & I already had this Paxil build up in my system ? The next day I proceeded to take my 10 mg's of Paxil. I am taking 10 mg's a day been on it a year.

Did you read my post about what happened in Miami ? Please read it!

Do I have to worry about serotonin syndrome? Someone told me you can die up to 8 days - did I deplete my serotonin much?

I contacted my old therapist I didn't mention what happened but I asked him if i could take 5http with Paxil he said no!


Last time it took About 5-6 days and the headaches started - is that gonna happen again? I know it's tough to say. I really feel I cannot handle that again. My life was so awful and I ruined many peoples lives around me.

I cAnt take those headaches- I cant seem to pm anyone can someone pm future for me please.

By the way I did go for a run today - the lights outside seemed to bother my eyes a tad bit. Had this same issue before

Everything feels like a spitting image from my first experience

I could sleep all day- is sleep bad ?

I'm going to pump my body with vitamin c, e , omega's, h20...

Head feels a little tight ----

Why the last time did take 5-6 days to bother me ?

Thank you Derek or anyone

 

[JWills20]

Can you explain to me about the paxil? Was it safer for me to roll when I took 75% of this capsule of MDMA & I already had this Paxil build up in my system ?

Paxil will block the effects of MDMA, preventing it from releasing much serotonin. If you felt much from the 'MDMA' perhaps it wasn't MDMA.

Do I have to worry about serotonin syndrome? Someone told me you can die up to 8 days - did I deplete my serotonin much?

That someone is an idiot. If you got serotonin syndrome, you'd have ended up in hospital, but you didn't, so you didn't get serotonin syndrome, and you don't have it now, so you won't die in 8 days - chill the fuck out.

I contacted my old therapist I didn't mention what happened but I asked him if i could take 5http with Paxil he said no!

I'm not entirely sure why he said no, but you should avoid it for now, you're problems don't appear to be related to serotonin. You're creating anxiety by overthinking and worrying about the situation. That little capsule of 'MDMA' has barely changed anything, you're just freaking yourself out.

Last time it took About 5-6 days and the headaches started - is that gonna happen again? I know it's tough to say. I really feel I cannot handle that again. My life was so awful and I ruined many peoples lives around me.

Who knows. If you start to expect and worry about headaches, chances are you'll notice them and begin to generate them yourself. Who knows what the future brings, so stop worrying about it, and focus on the present.

By the way I did go for a run today - the lights outside seemed to bother my eyes a tad bit. Had this same issue before

Get some sunglasses? It's pretty bright outside during the Summer. I know my eyes are a little bothered by it too, and it's not anything MDMA-related.

I could sleep all day- is sleep bad ?

The mere fact you have to ask this shows that you're creating a lot of unnecessary anxiety for yourself. You KNOW that sleep isn't bad! STOP WORRYING. After nights of partying I've slept from like 8PM at night all the way through to 9AM in the morning. It's perfectly normal to want to sleep when you're excessively tired from partying.

Please focus on staying positive. It's highly unlikely that one little night of MDMA is going to cause you all these problems. They appear, at least to me, to be fuelled by anxiety at the thought that MDMA might be causing these problems. You should speak to your therapist and not us.

 

[italianstallion]

Thank you both!

But it's not easy being in these shoes! I guess maybe it was a blessing I'm on Paxil bc it controlled how much serotonin was being released.

I Am trying to stay positive, I have been tired all day, been doing some work on the computer to stay busy, but every time i leave the house I am worn out! I know I partied from Friday till Monday and got 2 hours of sleep Thursday night bc of packing

Head just feels tight on the temples and on the side of the head / jaw I'm sure a lot of it has to do with clinching my jaw. Also my teeth by my molars bother me I'm sure it's bc of what I mentioned above.

What did you mean by saying what if i told you it's gonna take 5 months to get back?

I mentioned also that I did cocaine the second night! And MDMA the first night just wanted to clear that up.

I believe by stressing I can make my head hurt , I have done this in the last year when my stress levels get high, so staying level headed and low key is prob good idea for now.

I just can't ever explain to you how I felt those 3-6 months I literally wanted to end my life, I will never go back there. I got skinny , had no muscle tone , cried like a bitch all the time, girls wouldn't talk to me bc my shit wasn't together, couldn't drive a car, racey feelings , state of panic , thought I had MS, lost tons of money on doctors , drove my friends and parents up a Fucken wall. My sister disowned me, our relationship is ruined forever. My dad doesn't trust me!

I was just starting to make head ground this past year. I don't wanna throw it all away!

I actually have a good job and bought a house I cannot fuck up I have no one to help me, parents don't have money they struggle

And yes i should of thought about this prior I am truly a Fucken dousche bag oh and a selfish prick prob why my ex left me 4 years ago -which completely why and how this cycle started!

Any info please help

Please read my old post about Miami and thank you and god bless those who have helped

 

[Dawglaw]

Dude, listen to me.

I was EXACTLY where you were. I had a comedown, got better, took MDMA again and felt TERRIBLE.

I used mindfulness to show myself that it was just anxiety and I got better within a few days. Do your absolute best to avoid linking how you are feeling with MDMA or paxil or anything. You gave yourself some more anxiety. Deal with the anxiety, dont speculate about the cause.

Read my old posts. You will be ok but it is VERY important you don't freak yourself out into a terrible loop by convincng yourself that you fucked yourself for life.

 

[Yeetbeat]

Positive mindset will always overcome minor comedowns. Always. If you disagree, then you either pushed it way too far or haven't a clue how to stay positive

I've recently rolled a little more frequently than I should have, along with redosing through the night...did I cop any comedowns? Yep. Did they actually bother me? Nope, coz thanks to being around fun positive people like my girlfriend, I didn't even notice any depressive dips in my general emotion. Was always relaxed and cheery even through the whole week following. She wasn't even trying to help either, wasn't even aware of any potential comedown I might be dealing with

 

[italianstallion]

Update - a little bit of a headache last night before bed ,it comes and goes. I felt asleep fine at 12:30and woke up at 9:30 I am still exhausted. Head feels foggy and a little out of it. Around the temples and the side to the back of the head. Nose is stuffed. So tired. Jaw tight still. Energy is shot. Head feels like people are swimming in it.

I was gonna attempt to go for a walk and maybe lay in the sun (vitamin d)?
I'm gonna keep hydrating I def need more water and food in my system!

The more people write me the better I feel, if someone would text me or call me that would amazing! Last time somebody called me as we kept in touch! It gave me hope

I'm trying to control my thoughts and not let them run wild! It's tough

I am gonna keep continuing to take the 10 mg Paxil I think it might help to equalize everything quicker but eventually want to get off it !

Still worried about these Fucken headaches! Dammit , I feel they are on the brink !

I took some vitamin b this morning
Gonna attempt a hot shower to get a little chill out of my body

Thank you- god bless