angel_baby55
Bluelighter
before i begin this i must say it was one hell of a night. ive been too busy to write about it till now.
~Pre-drug ingestion~
the night before i talked my girl friends into going to a NYE rave, since i rave alot and they never have. and i get my usual raver buddy, D, to go also. its a costume party! i descide to make the girls dress as catholic school girls, its the perfect costume for the three of us.
i hadnt dropped E in 4 and a half weeks (i usually use once a month) and was very happy about doing it again.
that day, i was too full of energy, i had trouble sleeping the night before in anticipation... and i felt like i was comming up on E all day. i got starbucks with my girls (probably a bad idea with all the energy i already had.. i was seriously jumping up and down clapping with all stupidity) finally the sun went DOWN and i got dressed. our last friend L was late (stuck on a flooded freeway, 50 miles away!!!) so we waited 2 hours till the group was complete, and headed out! we got lost on the way to the rave (stupid unclear directions on the info line, as usual!) and ended up having our countdown for new years in the shuttle parking lot with other ravers waiting to get in. that SUCKED BIG TIME. i was so mad that i missed it! but once we all got in, it was great. i started dancing right away and was just happy. i didnt think i could get happier. than my friend D taps me and says "we goin to drop?"
oh it was so perfect after that moment... for me, anyway.
~post drug ingestion~
0:00 - i took a light green euro, tested as pure MDMA. my guy friend, D, took another, and my girl friend L, took a CLEAN MDMA red squirrel (that i have taken twice before, this will be important later) and it was her first time dropping E, and my last girl friend T took nothing, she's a sober raver
1:00 - not until an hour after dancing and running around sober did i feel like i was comming up. so hard, i had to run to the bathroom and see myself smiling. ive dropped E seven times before and knew what was comming.
1:30 - it built up on me like a thousand bricks falling, and suddenly i was underwater. my voice was so far away, all i was aware of was my skin, and my thoughts gathering up like a ball and needing the release of conversation. i forgot about the countdown, i forgot about my day, my friend being late, everything. i started to touch my skirt, my hair, my bracelets. it was all so perfect, everything was in unity with my mind and soul. i wanted to scream.
i hugged my friends and suggessted we dance. we went around and i felt i was getting higher as i danced with them and saw everyone around me just enjoying their night. i was happy to see everyone else around me happy.
1:45 - i remembered i had 1g of dried shrooms with me. i ran off with D and took them. i dont know why. i was just so happy, i had to.
2:00 - i gave a lightshow for a while after we sat and started to give massages. first-timer friend L commented after i stopped massinging her and said "wow i can still feel you giving it to me!" haha...she told me that she realized why im such a calm person, cause E helps with thoughts and told me that she liked it better than alcohol. i saw D (who i used to go out with) and we made out for a while. i remember someone saying "wow he's surely having a happy new year" since i was all over him for a good while. =) it was great. some ravers came and asked if we wanted light shows, and after about 5 minuits L says that she doesnt feel too good. uh oh.
2:25 - we go to the bathroom, and she tells me she wants the feelings to stop. she tells me she has an anxiety problem, SHE NEVER TOLD ME THIS BEFORE. my friend D tries to talk her down, but she wants nothing more than for it to stop.
she started asking what would make it stop, and i tell her to breathe and think about why she came here and why she is happy and tell me what she feels. but she isnt cooperating, and i realize she's a very panicky person and got irratated she didnt tell me about her anxiety.
she then washed her face, and started screaming about how the water felt weird on her.
??? - by this time, i was tripping and on E and shrooms, and thought it was the funniest thing ever. my sober friend took her away, and i told her to make her drink water and sit somewhere bright and away from me so i wouldnt have a bad trip.
then what did i do? splashed my face with water and giggled at how it felt. and spend the night with my friend D. i felt like i was stepping into candyland every few seconds.
the shrooms made the room melt, the lights jitter. i saw swirles everywhere when i closed my eyes, and everything was smiling at me.
i felt like like i had just taken a shower. so REFRESHED. i forgot about my friend and remembered i was there to party. i felt my balance VERY off though. usually on E i feel very grounded but with shrooms it was as if i forgot how to walk and i was a child learning how all over again.
i bought a lollipop cause i was grindig my teeth like crazy, and i danced for a good while. when my eyes jittered around, i saw colors in every movement, a mixure of red, green, purple, orange, blue, cascading out from the center of my eye and reaching the ends of the room. it was BEAUTIFUL. i couldnt see the room anymore, i saw paintings covering everything and everyone and it was just so bright and beautiful.
someone was giving a lightshow with orange lights and i saw him giving a lightshow out of fire. i starred for a while, and wanted that feeling to never end.
some raver gave me his 3-D glasses to wear. omg. that was the end of it all. everything divided into seperate realities and each one was a slice of heaven. D gave me a lightshow while i wore the glasses and i saw a full sky of colorful stars fall on me.
i descided i was seeing too much and wanted to dance again, got on the DJ stage with another girl and moved to the best trance ive heard in a good while.
3:45am - the E started to wear off and i felt the shrooms going strong. my eyes we're still blurry from the E so things looked as if oil was spilled on everything. kinda cool to look at. sadly the rave started closing up cause it ended at 5am. this gave me a feeling of dread. i kept asking D where everyone was going. i got into a thought loop and started thinking that i would have to be in a car, tripping, with no music on cause my friend was sick. i got worried. he told me that the music would stay till 5am and i would be better by then, but i didnt believe him. i tried to dance to get my mind off of it but couldnt.
i visited my friend who said she was better. the 4 of us danced after that. the croud was getting smaller.. but after i was with all my friends i didnt feel so alone anymore and D told me we could have music in the car. whew.
4:30am - we left the rave cause i said i felt better to go. i was still tripping and still felt some E effects .. i figured this cause we were outside and i wasnt cold in 35 degree weather. =)
we dropped off my friends and i went to Ihop with D.. i just wanted hot chocolate for some reason. after that i got home and showerd.. woah. everyone needs to try showering while comming down from these drugs, it was great and lifted my mood super high and i was able to sleep after that.
next morning i had lunch with all the ppl we went to the rave with and talked about it. it was great. my friend said she felt she was having an anxiety attack but her 5 second memory on E didnt give her much recollection the day after about it, but she remembered being happy. said she isnt trying that again though. oh well for her.
im planning to do another MX missle at home with a high dose of shrooms in 3 weeks at my appartment. wish me luck! =) happy new years everyone.
~Pre-drug ingestion~
the night before i talked my girl friends into going to a NYE rave, since i rave alot and they never have. and i get my usual raver buddy, D, to go also. its a costume party! i descide to make the girls dress as catholic school girls, its the perfect costume for the three of us.
i hadnt dropped E in 4 and a half weeks (i usually use once a month) and was very happy about doing it again.
that day, i was too full of energy, i had trouble sleeping the night before in anticipation... and i felt like i was comming up on E all day. i got starbucks with my girls (probably a bad idea with all the energy i already had.. i was seriously jumping up and down clapping with all stupidity) finally the sun went DOWN and i got dressed. our last friend L was late (stuck on a flooded freeway, 50 miles away!!!) so we waited 2 hours till the group was complete, and headed out! we got lost on the way to the rave (stupid unclear directions on the info line, as usual!) and ended up having our countdown for new years in the shuttle parking lot with other ravers waiting to get in. that SUCKED BIG TIME. i was so mad that i missed it! but once we all got in, it was great. i started dancing right away and was just happy. i didnt think i could get happier. than my friend D taps me and says "we goin to drop?"
oh it was so perfect after that moment... for me, anyway.
~post drug ingestion~
0:00 - i took a light green euro, tested as pure MDMA. my guy friend, D, took another, and my girl friend L, took a CLEAN MDMA red squirrel (that i have taken twice before, this will be important later) and it was her first time dropping E, and my last girl friend T took nothing, she's a sober raver
1:00 - not until an hour after dancing and running around sober did i feel like i was comming up. so hard, i had to run to the bathroom and see myself smiling. ive dropped E seven times before and knew what was comming.
1:30 - it built up on me like a thousand bricks falling, and suddenly i was underwater. my voice was so far away, all i was aware of was my skin, and my thoughts gathering up like a ball and needing the release of conversation. i forgot about the countdown, i forgot about my day, my friend being late, everything. i started to touch my skirt, my hair, my bracelets. it was all so perfect, everything was in unity with my mind and soul. i wanted to scream.
i hugged my friends and suggessted we dance. we went around and i felt i was getting higher as i danced with them and saw everyone around me just enjoying their night. i was happy to see everyone else around me happy.
1:45 - i remembered i had 1g of dried shrooms with me. i ran off with D and took them. i dont know why. i was just so happy, i had to.
2:00 - i gave a lightshow for a while after we sat and started to give massages. first-timer friend L commented after i stopped massinging her and said "wow i can still feel you giving it to me!" haha...she told me that she realized why im such a calm person, cause E helps with thoughts and told me that she liked it better than alcohol. i saw D (who i used to go out with) and we made out for a while. i remember someone saying "wow he's surely having a happy new year" since i was all over him for a good while. =) it was great. some ravers came and asked if we wanted light shows, and after about 5 minuits L says that she doesnt feel too good. uh oh.
2:25 - we go to the bathroom, and she tells me she wants the feelings to stop. she tells me she has an anxiety problem, SHE NEVER TOLD ME THIS BEFORE. my friend D tries to talk her down, but she wants nothing more than for it to stop.
she started asking what would make it stop, and i tell her to breathe and think about why she came here and why she is happy and tell me what she feels. but she isnt cooperating, and i realize she's a very panicky person and got irratated she didnt tell me about her anxiety.
she then washed her face, and started screaming about how the water felt weird on her.
??? - by this time, i was tripping and on E and shrooms, and thought it was the funniest thing ever. my sober friend took her away, and i told her to make her drink water and sit somewhere bright and away from me so i wouldnt have a bad trip.
then what did i do? splashed my face with water and giggled at how it felt. and spend the night with my friend D. i felt like i was stepping into candyland every few seconds.
the shrooms made the room melt, the lights jitter. i saw swirles everywhere when i closed my eyes, and everything was smiling at me.
i felt like like i had just taken a shower. so REFRESHED. i forgot about my friend and remembered i was there to party. i felt my balance VERY off though. usually on E i feel very grounded but with shrooms it was as if i forgot how to walk and i was a child learning how all over again.
i bought a lollipop cause i was grindig my teeth like crazy, and i danced for a good while. when my eyes jittered around, i saw colors in every movement, a mixure of red, green, purple, orange, blue, cascading out from the center of my eye and reaching the ends of the room. it was BEAUTIFUL. i couldnt see the room anymore, i saw paintings covering everything and everyone and it was just so bright and beautiful.
someone was giving a lightshow with orange lights and i saw him giving a lightshow out of fire. i starred for a while, and wanted that feeling to never end.
some raver gave me his 3-D glasses to wear. omg. that was the end of it all. everything divided into seperate realities and each one was a slice of heaven. D gave me a lightshow while i wore the glasses and i saw a full sky of colorful stars fall on me.
i descided i was seeing too much and wanted to dance again, got on the DJ stage with another girl and moved to the best trance ive heard in a good while.
3:45am - the E started to wear off and i felt the shrooms going strong. my eyes we're still blurry from the E so things looked as if oil was spilled on everything. kinda cool to look at. sadly the rave started closing up cause it ended at 5am. this gave me a feeling of dread. i kept asking D where everyone was going. i got into a thought loop and started thinking that i would have to be in a car, tripping, with no music on cause my friend was sick. i got worried. he told me that the music would stay till 5am and i would be better by then, but i didnt believe him. i tried to dance to get my mind off of it but couldnt.
i visited my friend who said she was better. the 4 of us danced after that. the croud was getting smaller.. but after i was with all my friends i didnt feel so alone anymore and D told me we could have music in the car. whew.
4:30am - we left the rave cause i said i felt better to go. i was still tripping and still felt some E effects .. i figured this cause we were outside and i wasnt cold in 35 degree weather. =)
we dropped off my friends and i went to Ihop with D.. i just wanted hot chocolate for some reason. after that i got home and showerd.. woah. everyone needs to try showering while comming down from these drugs, it was great and lifted my mood super high and i was able to sleep after that.
next morning i had lunch with all the ppl we went to the rave with and talked about it. it was great. my friend said she felt she was having an anxiety attack but her 5 second memory on E didnt give her much recollection the day after about it, but she remembered being happy. said she isnt trying that again though. oh well for her.
im planning to do another MX missle at home with a high dose of shrooms in 3 weeks at my appartment. wish me luck! =) happy new years everyone.
