I know this is long. I love being thorough, though. If I get really detailed, it brings me right back and I can just describe everything better. =P Just in case someone wanted to read a really detailed one.
The first time I rolled was sometime in June of 2010. That night was one of the best times of my life. Everytime I think about it, my whole body just gets excited as I remember rolling that night. I was nervous about what a tab could have in it, so I had been waiting for pure MDMA(mollies) to come around. The moment I heard they had come to my area, I bought two and decided to do one that night. I met up with my sister A and her boyfriend B. This was my first time rolling, but they were very experienced, so I felt safe with them. We dropped our tabs/mollies at about 12:30 AM at her apartment and then drove to a rolling party at B's best friends house. I wasn't feeling the molly yet, and I was sort of anxious and was starting to feel uncomfortable. I thought I might be coming up, but after and hour and 15 minutes passed, I was only feeling a little tired and uncomfortbale. Everyone around me was rolling hard, and I was beginning to feel pretty left out. All of a sudden, I got a huge head rush and felt blown out of my mind. I muttered "Holy sh*t" and sat down. B was concerned about me, so he sat with me for a moment with his hand on my shoulder. As I looked around, things began to change but I didn't quite feel the affects yet. One moment, I was dizzy and feeling like I was starting to float, and the next I just calmed down. I looked around and everything started to look like when you're watching a 3D movie without 3D glasses. I started to smile and was feeling so good. B's hand on my shoulder felt so strange, and I could started rubbing his head, closing my eyes and enjoying how his skin felt on mine. it was so great. I rubbed my own hand and it felt even better. I moved to my ears, feeling them and studying every crevice and how they moved with my hands. I felt like they were shrinking, and was only brought out of my trance by B laughing at my newbish behaviour. He handed me some water and I drank a little. I always knew the importance of staying hyderated.
The whole time, I had been chewing on my car keys because my teeth were beginning to grind together. Some other nice rolling guy lent me his binky. As I sucked and chewed on it, I thought about how great it felt. Eventually, though, he needed it back so he could watch a light show without hurting his jaw. I was disappointed, but was soon mezmorized by the light show. I leaned forward with wide eyes and big pupils and exclaimed, "WHOA! That's so AWESOME" and everyone looked at me and laughed. I then layed down on a matress on the floor, rubbing my back on the blankets and my feet on the wall. Once I was sober, I realized how stupid I must have looked. haha.
I started to feel very curious about everyone around me. I went around and asked everyone their names and where they were born and how old they were. They answered me every time, and I was so happy with how nice they all were. I introduced myself to each person as "Hi, I'm A's sister!" in a very proud way, although my sister was just another person at the party. The guy who lent me his binky came back and let me borrow it again. he then asked for a hand massage. I looked at him with surprise, and said "ME?" and he gave me a confused look. He was like, "Well yeah." And so I started to rub his hand with mine, and he started to rub my hand too. It felt so amazing. I watched a light show while chewing on his binky and we were rubbing each others hands. It was just so amazing, I don't know how to describe it. Sometimes, I could feel my eyes wiggling or rolling back in my head. Sometimes, I had to just close my head and lay my head down with a huge smile because I felt so good.
The body high was just as good as the mind high. I felt so light. My body wanted to move, but I wasn't moving it. It just started moving to the music and when I wasn't dancing my leg would jump around or I would be forced to wiggle my foot. In the midst of my rediculous looking rubbing on the floor, B gave me some gatorade to keep me hydrated. A bit nervous it would make me sick, I took a little sip. I was shocked immediately, and stared at B as if I had just won a million dollars. The gatorade tasted so good, I can't even explain it. It was like it soaked into my taste buds and then exploded all over my senses. I could feel it and taste it and could imagine what it looked like.
Oddly enough, music wasn't that special to me. Dubstep sounded great, but nothinge else sounded very different. The lightshows were one of my favorite things. They had so many trails. The first time someone gave me a light show on E, I literally cried. It was the most beautiful I'd ever seen in my entire life. I couldn't even remember imagining anything more beautiful. It was such an intimate moment with myself, I feel like I had contact with my soul. I felt like I could be my soul and that the E was allowing me to be exactly who I was without any fears or shyness. I'm a very shy person, but I just talked and talked. I told everyone how my sister had been born in an earthquake. Mostly, I wanted to know things about people's pasts. They were so fascinating.
I started to come down at about 5:30 while we were at a park. To me, the journey to the park was cold even though it was summer and it felt like a quest. Once I was there, I was so content. it was still dark and I felt like we were the only ones in the world. I was swinging on the swings with a vicks covered bandana, and I could have sworn I was flying over a fragrant pine forest. No, not in an airpplane. Not with wings. Just flying with my body, free. I closed my eyes and smelled the vicks as I swung high up and down and I had never felt more free in my life. If B hadn't told me not to, I would have screamed "WHOOOOO!" Because I felt so free.
After the park, we went back to my sister's apartment and decided to drop the rest of our tabs and mollies. I took my second molly without really thinking about it. It hit me hard and fast and I was rolling so hard within 15 minutes. My teeth were chattering and I kept have crazy mind f**cks and visuals. One time, my eyes rolled back and I thought I was driving on the highway. When my eyes rolled back in, I found myself in the middle of the question, "What exit do I get off on" After realizing where I was, we all had a good laugh. Before I took the mollies, I thought I would be scared if I had a mind **** like that, but I wasn't scared at all. The only thing that scared me just a little was this insane visual I had. My sister's kittens were playing with a sock, and all of a sudden it wasn't a sock. It was a pipe, but not normal. The pipe had one bowl piece and about 20 mouth pieces and was dragging itself across the floor towards me. It got closer and closer and it looked limp and wiggly and creepy. I started to get scared and back up into a wall and stared at it. Then B was like, "Hey!" And I looked at him. "Are you okay?" I looked back at my monster bowl and it was a sock again. I was confused and didn't like it much, but it wasn't so bad.
At one point, we all decided to look at online videos and posters we had around the room. We had a couple black light posters, including a vortex of amazing colors. We turned all the lights off and all the black lights on, and I just kept saying, "whoa" over and over again as I stared at the color vortex. it looked like it was shimmering and spinning and it was beautiful. We turned all the lights back on and I looked at a different poster. it was super trippy. I can't really describe it. At the top was the sky, then it was the inside of a building, then lower was a running stream, and then space. All of these things flowed into each other so it looked like they were changing. Like, the water in the stream turend intot he stars and the rocks in the stream turned into meteors. I stared at this poster for about 15 minutes and I was in deep thought. Then, unexpectedly, I felt this rush of awe, and I could stop myself from screaming "OH MY GOSH! THAT IS SOOOOO AMAZING" and everyone was mad at me because I was loud. We watched Katie Perry's music video for "California Girls" Whch was soo awesome. We also looked at Alex Grey's paintings and one of them was tripping me out so bad that I just said "It looks like Legend of Zelda" Even though it didn't. At one point, my eyes rolled back in my head and I thought we were looking at the videos to see if we were in any of the clips. So when my eyes came back down, I was in the middle of asking, "Were we even in that video?" And no one understood what I meant and I couldn't really explain it.
Also, I was trying to text my sober friends to tell them how much fun I was having. But my pupils were so big I couldn't see the keyboard on my phone. I text to my friend, "tell me something normal" but ended up with "tem he soermrht nrom". One of my friends was trying to screw with me so told me of these mystical creatures that stare into your windows. I started to imagine being one of those creatures and it was very fascinating. In my opinion, talking to sober people that want to mess with you is a lot of fun.
As I sat down again. I started having more hallucinations and mind f**ks. This was my favorite visual to this day: There was a black cube thing for putting books in by the window. When I looked through the cube thing(It was an outline of a rectangle. You know?) I saw the ocean. I VERY clearly saw the waves crashing on a beautiful beach next to a huge, sandy cliff. At one time, I even saw an assortment of colored balloons fly out of the cube. I was really trashed, with my teeth chattering and eyes wiggling. I saw a giant cerial box painted on the wall, and a desktop displayed on the wall. The cieling swelled and danced around. When I looked at my sister who was sitting on a different couch with a golden wall behind her. I looked at the wall, and immediately had a mind ****. I saw the wall as a golden light and my sister being carried on the couch like a queen. Behind her, in the wall, I saw an old goose yelling angrily at a giant nose with a mustache. I thought this was quite amusing and really enjoyed it. It started to get light, and I was disappointed to come down. But I had an amazing experience that I wish I could experience again.
The first time I rolled was sometime in June of 2010. That night was one of the best times of my life. Everytime I think about it, my whole body just gets excited as I remember rolling that night. I was nervous about what a tab could have in it, so I had been waiting for pure MDMA(mollies) to come around. The moment I heard they had come to my area, I bought two and decided to do one that night. I met up with my sister A and her boyfriend B. This was my first time rolling, but they were very experienced, so I felt safe with them. We dropped our tabs/mollies at about 12:30 AM at her apartment and then drove to a rolling party at B's best friends house. I wasn't feeling the molly yet, and I was sort of anxious and was starting to feel uncomfortable. I thought I might be coming up, but after and hour and 15 minutes passed, I was only feeling a little tired and uncomfortbale. Everyone around me was rolling hard, and I was beginning to feel pretty left out. All of a sudden, I got a huge head rush and felt blown out of my mind. I muttered "Holy sh*t" and sat down. B was concerned about me, so he sat with me for a moment with his hand on my shoulder. As I looked around, things began to change but I didn't quite feel the affects yet. One moment, I was dizzy and feeling like I was starting to float, and the next I just calmed down. I looked around and everything started to look like when you're watching a 3D movie without 3D glasses. I started to smile and was feeling so good. B's hand on my shoulder felt so strange, and I could started rubbing his head, closing my eyes and enjoying how his skin felt on mine. it was so great. I rubbed my own hand and it felt even better. I moved to my ears, feeling them and studying every crevice and how they moved with my hands. I felt like they were shrinking, and was only brought out of my trance by B laughing at my newbish behaviour. He handed me some water and I drank a little. I always knew the importance of staying hyderated.
The whole time, I had been chewing on my car keys because my teeth were beginning to grind together. Some other nice rolling guy lent me his binky. As I sucked and chewed on it, I thought about how great it felt. Eventually, though, he needed it back so he could watch a light show without hurting his jaw. I was disappointed, but was soon mezmorized by the light show. I leaned forward with wide eyes and big pupils and exclaimed, "WHOA! That's so AWESOME" and everyone looked at me and laughed. I then layed down on a matress on the floor, rubbing my back on the blankets and my feet on the wall. Once I was sober, I realized how stupid I must have looked. haha.
I started to feel very curious about everyone around me. I went around and asked everyone their names and where they were born and how old they were. They answered me every time, and I was so happy with how nice they all were. I introduced myself to each person as "Hi, I'm A's sister!" in a very proud way, although my sister was just another person at the party. The guy who lent me his binky came back and let me borrow it again. he then asked for a hand massage. I looked at him with surprise, and said "ME?" and he gave me a confused look. He was like, "Well yeah." And so I started to rub his hand with mine, and he started to rub my hand too. It felt so amazing. I watched a light show while chewing on his binky and we were rubbing each others hands. It was just so amazing, I don't know how to describe it. Sometimes, I could feel my eyes wiggling or rolling back in my head. Sometimes, I had to just close my head and lay my head down with a huge smile because I felt so good.
The body high was just as good as the mind high. I felt so light. My body wanted to move, but I wasn't moving it. It just started moving to the music and when I wasn't dancing my leg would jump around or I would be forced to wiggle my foot. In the midst of my rediculous looking rubbing on the floor, B gave me some gatorade to keep me hydrated. A bit nervous it would make me sick, I took a little sip. I was shocked immediately, and stared at B as if I had just won a million dollars. The gatorade tasted so good, I can't even explain it. It was like it soaked into my taste buds and then exploded all over my senses. I could feel it and taste it and could imagine what it looked like.
Oddly enough, music wasn't that special to me. Dubstep sounded great, but nothinge else sounded very different. The lightshows were one of my favorite things. They had so many trails. The first time someone gave me a light show on E, I literally cried. It was the most beautiful I'd ever seen in my entire life. I couldn't even remember imagining anything more beautiful. It was such an intimate moment with myself, I feel like I had contact with my soul. I felt like I could be my soul and that the E was allowing me to be exactly who I was without any fears or shyness. I'm a very shy person, but I just talked and talked. I told everyone how my sister had been born in an earthquake. Mostly, I wanted to know things about people's pasts. They were so fascinating.
I started to come down at about 5:30 while we were at a park. To me, the journey to the park was cold even though it was summer and it felt like a quest. Once I was there, I was so content. it was still dark and I felt like we were the only ones in the world. I was swinging on the swings with a vicks covered bandana, and I could have sworn I was flying over a fragrant pine forest. No, not in an airpplane. Not with wings. Just flying with my body, free. I closed my eyes and smelled the vicks as I swung high up and down and I had never felt more free in my life. If B hadn't told me not to, I would have screamed "WHOOOOO!" Because I felt so free.
After the park, we went back to my sister's apartment and decided to drop the rest of our tabs and mollies. I took my second molly without really thinking about it. It hit me hard and fast and I was rolling so hard within 15 minutes. My teeth were chattering and I kept have crazy mind f**cks and visuals. One time, my eyes rolled back and I thought I was driving on the highway. When my eyes rolled back in, I found myself in the middle of the question, "What exit do I get off on" After realizing where I was, we all had a good laugh. Before I took the mollies, I thought I would be scared if I had a mind **** like that, but I wasn't scared at all. The only thing that scared me just a little was this insane visual I had. My sister's kittens were playing with a sock, and all of a sudden it wasn't a sock. It was a pipe, but not normal. The pipe had one bowl piece and about 20 mouth pieces and was dragging itself across the floor towards me. It got closer and closer and it looked limp and wiggly and creepy. I started to get scared and back up into a wall and stared at it. Then B was like, "Hey!" And I looked at him. "Are you okay?" I looked back at my monster bowl and it was a sock again. I was confused and didn't like it much, but it wasn't so bad.
At one point, we all decided to look at online videos and posters we had around the room. We had a couple black light posters, including a vortex of amazing colors. We turned all the lights off and all the black lights on, and I just kept saying, "whoa" over and over again as I stared at the color vortex. it looked like it was shimmering and spinning and it was beautiful. We turned all the lights back on and I looked at a different poster. it was super trippy. I can't really describe it. At the top was the sky, then it was the inside of a building, then lower was a running stream, and then space. All of these things flowed into each other so it looked like they were changing. Like, the water in the stream turend intot he stars and the rocks in the stream turned into meteors. I stared at this poster for about 15 minutes and I was in deep thought. Then, unexpectedly, I felt this rush of awe, and I could stop myself from screaming "OH MY GOSH! THAT IS SOOOOO AMAZING" and everyone was mad at me because I was loud. We watched Katie Perry's music video for "California Girls" Whch was soo awesome. We also looked at Alex Grey's paintings and one of them was tripping me out so bad that I just said "It looks like Legend of Zelda" Even though it didn't. At one point, my eyes rolled back in my head and I thought we were looking at the videos to see if we were in any of the clips. So when my eyes came back down, I was in the middle of asking, "Were we even in that video?" And no one understood what I meant and I couldn't really explain it.
Also, I was trying to text my sober friends to tell them how much fun I was having. But my pupils were so big I couldn't see the keyboard on my phone. I text to my friend, "tell me something normal" but ended up with "tem he soermrht nrom". One of my friends was trying to screw with me so told me of these mystical creatures that stare into your windows. I started to imagine being one of those creatures and it was very fascinating. In my opinion, talking to sober people that want to mess with you is a lot of fun.
As I sat down again. I started having more hallucinations and mind f**ks. This was my favorite visual to this day: There was a black cube thing for putting books in by the window. When I looked through the cube thing(It was an outline of a rectangle. You know?) I saw the ocean. I VERY clearly saw the waves crashing on a beautiful beach next to a huge, sandy cliff. At one time, I even saw an assortment of colored balloons fly out of the cube. I was really trashed, with my teeth chattering and eyes wiggling. I saw a giant cerial box painted on the wall, and a desktop displayed on the wall. The cieling swelled and danced around. When I looked at my sister who was sitting on a different couch with a golden wall behind her. I looked at the wall, and immediately had a mind ****. I saw the wall as a golden light and my sister being carried on the couch like a queen. Behind her, in the wall, I saw an old goose yelling angrily at a giant nose with a mustache. I thought this was quite amusing and really enjoyed it. It started to get light, and I was disappointed to come down. But I had an amazing experience that I wish I could experience again.
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I would avoid redosing again once you come down, I am surprised you even felt much from your second dose. Definitely, don't make a habit out of it! That's not the way you want to be using MDMA.
