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Bluelighter
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MDMA experienced i cant stop rushing.
This was from 20th of April last year.
The evening before I smoked heroin for the first time, it was an incredibly intense feeling and after the initial effects wore off me and my friend went out to get his mum some fish and chips, I decided to buy 10 pills and phoned to get them delivered, as we walked back to my friends house the dealers car pulled up and I got the pills.
Then me and my friend say in his house and I pondered taking the pills, he said he had a funny feeling about me taking them and neither of us were sure I if it was a good idea after taking the smack. As the night went on we both got quite irritable and both seemed to experience just feeling empty and I decided it was best to leave the pills for that day as I didn't have the correct mind set.
The next morning I was awoken by my parents who were taking my sister back to university, I decided to put on the Ratpack tape I had borrowed from the friend I had seen earlier the day before where we had smoked the smack, it was an amazing tape of Ratpack from castle donnington in 92, I had already heard all of it or so I thought and as it played through I was enjoying it it finished and the tape kept playing and then they did an encore, the song that came on was Felix - Don't you want me, which I had never heard them play before and was one of my favourite songs.
I sat up in bed dancing and thought straight away, I'm going to have some of the pills. So I got myself woke up and cleaned up and came on the computer to talk to my friend H me and her were talking and I decided to swallow two of the 10 pills at about 10.30am.
After a about 30 mins she went offline so I set to work on what I had to do that day which was clear out everything from my room as I was about to move into my sisters room. I set to work just moving stuff about and the pills didn't really seem to kick in and I was getting frustrated so at approximately 12pm I decided to throw caution into the wind and double drop again.
It was a very sunny day outside and my bedroom curtains were open for the first time in months and the music was blaring out, after a while I started to feel a light mdma buzz although I knew due to my incredibly high tolerance this might be all I would get. I found a bottle of butyl nitrate and decided to inhale some, soon after doing this I sat back on the floor feeling waves of rushes come over me and I was coming up harder than ever before but not hard in a "oh my god i'm fucked" sort of way hard in "wow this feels so good" way.
I was still clearing through my room, touching stuff I hadn't looked at for years, there was a massive box that my tv had come in and it will full of tapes and cds from a few years ago, I found a dance tip 95 tape and decided to put it on, the feeling I got was incredible, it was like the most amazing loved up everything is so good mdma feelings but there was even more to it.
I was sweating quite a lot and everything was so clear and as I looked through old birthday cards and my life history all the stuff I had ever saved that meant something to me, everything in my whole life made sense and the warmth and empathy I was getting was astounding nothing could bear how I was feeling.
The songs made perfect sense as I shouted out the words and my body felt so perfect, in all my time taking ecstasy and taking large amounts I had never felt anything so strong and nice. I was recieving txts from H and sending the most loved up txts to my best friends telling them how good everything was, this lasted for a couple of hours and I had more energy than ever before. At one point I decided to phone one of my friends as I needed to talk to someone, I phoned his mobile and he was at work in a kitchen and I told his how good it was although he seemed quite disinterested and we arranged to meet later.
My room was quickly cleaned and I saw places in my room I had not seen for years and managed to sort stuff out with an amazing ease, everything was easy and I felt like the whole world was underneath me and had such clarity of thought.
Sometime around now my parents arrived home and I decided to go lie on my bed as I was rushing far too much this was about 4pm, although as I laid on my bed I felt the need to do something again and got up and walked downstairs, I had a conversation with my dad about loads of stuff I had put outside to be thrown away and he seemed upset, his tone of voice and manner seemed to me as though as was upset and I becamse obsessive in asking him if he was ok in a really soft and voice which to me seemed different to my normal voice, after a while he picked up on this and wanted to know why I was asking him if he was ok.
To me it seemed as though his world has ended and I felt so much empathy for him although he was perfectly ok it was quite a headfuck. I went online again and talked to H, this is where my head got incredibly confused, I was still rushing very intensely and became very agitated and felt strange, H was quite a confusing person and we had recently become good friends, I was discussing the situation between her and her what I thought was ex boyfriend, although as we talked my head got very messed up and I couldn't work out what she was saying.
It eventually appeared as though they had never split up and were still going out although they never spoke to each other, this messed with my head as me and H had been getting very close and I thought there was the possibility of us having a relationship and I would never have been so close to her had I have known she was already in one, this confused me as to her intentions and although we were great friends it seemed as though there was something more between us.
Then it was time to eat with my parents, obviously this was the last thing I wanted to be doing but there was food ready for me, I tried to eat through steak and potatos although every bite dried my mouth and I had to sip water with every mouthfull, During the meal I looked accross the room and my mum appeared to be crying, I could see tears rolling down her cheek and I asked her whats wrong but there was nothing wrong with her and although I felt exactly how I did when I saw my dad earlier it was confusing as there was actually nothing wrong with her but I had got it into my head there was.
After we had eaten my friend J called and he and T were at T's house where I was going, they told me that they were catching a bus somewhere to meet someone and I first decided I would get my dad to drive me so I would be on that bus when they got on, but my dad said he would take me all the way to T's house, so we set off and the drive there was pretty crazy I was still rushing harder than ever before and I felt very out of it although quite able to move just understanding things was quite hard, the time now was aprrox just after 7pm.
I got to T's house and started walking in when I heard my name being called from up the road there I could see my two friends at the bus stop, I walked towards them and stood there trying to explain the afternoon, T seemed quite depressed and disinterested. We got on the bus which was crowded with people so we ended up stood right at the front, there were people laughing and shouting and it was quite scary, I felt paranoid and decided I was glad I hadn't got on the bus by myself. People seemed to be looking at me and laughing and it was very weird, I looked at this one guy and his teeth changed one minute they were perfectly shaped and formed and coloured and the next they looked horrific and it was such a strong hallucination.
We got off the bus after a couple of stops and went to buy some cigs, me and T talked outside the shop and T had begun feeling very depressed and decided he was sick of doing drugs and was going to quit drugs. We then met someone then went to the bus stop where I was trying to stand still although I was still rushing so hard, I had to much energy and felt quite paranoid and strange.
Then someone came out of the pub, it was H's boyfriend, this scared me at that time as I was certain he was unhappy about the arising situation between me and H and as he walked towards me and my friends I said to them hes gonna hurt me I know he and was quite scared which is unlike me. He came up to us and said hello and nothing happened so I decided to mention H and he said he didn't know what was going on with her and that she was fucked up which I agreed with at this point.
The bus came and we got on and I had calmed down a bit though I still believed the reason why H's boyfriend had got on the bus was because he wanted to physically hurt me and I was quite scared of having to walk past him and get off the bus. We got off the bus and went to T's place then we decided we would go on a long walk hopefully to sort my head out and we set off walking, I was kinda panicking at this point, my throat and mouth was dry and I found it hard to swallow and my head was still full of energy, this was now after 8pm and I was still feeling very strong speedy effects.
As we walked down this very quiet back road we sort of had an amazing sense of emotional bonding between us, we had always been very good friends although now it all seemed to make sense and we all decided that we were going to stop taking drugs which was quite a big thing as me and T were heavy users of weed and I did e lots and him quite a bit amongst other things when we had the chance.
It got dark at this point and I was still walking although recieving confusing txt messages from H and stuff seemed to confuse me although between the 3 friends walking along we all agreed it felt like something out of a film, like a new era was dawning upon us and we were moving on even the countryside sunset seemed to suit the mood and it was almost poetic and everything seemed structured, neither of the other 2 were actually on drugs though but we all seemed to expeirence a clarity of mind and the kind of feeling that something was changing.
By the time we got back to T's house somewhere around 9.30pm I was still feeling the effects and I sat in the corner of his room while he mixed records, then an hour later I got on the bus to go home and went to bed, I laid in bed for hours still unable to close my eyes and feeling very strange, the day had drained all my energy out of me although my mind was pretty messed up and I remember being quite upset and depressed as everything seemed to have gone bad.
I didn't start feeling more sober till 4am this was 16 hours since I had taken the last pills, I have encountered a couple of ecstasy experiences similar to that and I would say there is a fair chance that it was meth and mdma, there was also a reliable pill testing source who used to come on this site who had tested what sounded to be identical pills for meth and mdma, from the effects and the comedown in the week after I would say this is most likely.
What started as one of if not the best feelings I have ever had in my life up till that point seemed to drag on and get too much after a few hours, it was incredibly intense and something that was too much for me to cope with and although it will go down as one of my best drug experiences especially with mdma it will also go down as one of my worst drug experiences.
I knew the pills were strong, some people have commented that 4 in such a time space is bound to be strong but since then and even before then I have taken more than four in that time space and I have never ever experienced anything vaguely similar or as strong.
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This was from 20th of April last year.
The evening before I smoked heroin for the first time, it was an incredibly intense feeling and after the initial effects wore off me and my friend went out to get his mum some fish and chips, I decided to buy 10 pills and phoned to get them delivered, as we walked back to my friends house the dealers car pulled up and I got the pills.
Then me and my friend say in his house and I pondered taking the pills, he said he had a funny feeling about me taking them and neither of us were sure I if it was a good idea after taking the smack. As the night went on we both got quite irritable and both seemed to experience just feeling empty and I decided it was best to leave the pills for that day as I didn't have the correct mind set.
The next morning I was awoken by my parents who were taking my sister back to university, I decided to put on the Ratpack tape I had borrowed from the friend I had seen earlier the day before where we had smoked the smack, it was an amazing tape of Ratpack from castle donnington in 92, I had already heard all of it or so I thought and as it played through I was enjoying it it finished and the tape kept playing and then they did an encore, the song that came on was Felix - Don't you want me, which I had never heard them play before and was one of my favourite songs.
I sat up in bed dancing and thought straight away, I'm going to have some of the pills. So I got myself woke up and cleaned up and came on the computer to talk to my friend H me and her were talking and I decided to swallow two of the 10 pills at about 10.30am.
After a about 30 mins she went offline so I set to work on what I had to do that day which was clear out everything from my room as I was about to move into my sisters room. I set to work just moving stuff about and the pills didn't really seem to kick in and I was getting frustrated so at approximately 12pm I decided to throw caution into the wind and double drop again.
It was a very sunny day outside and my bedroom curtains were open for the first time in months and the music was blaring out, after a while I started to feel a light mdma buzz although I knew due to my incredibly high tolerance this might be all I would get. I found a bottle of butyl nitrate and decided to inhale some, soon after doing this I sat back on the floor feeling waves of rushes come over me and I was coming up harder than ever before but not hard in a "oh my god i'm fucked" sort of way hard in "wow this feels so good" way.
I was still clearing through my room, touching stuff I hadn't looked at for years, there was a massive box that my tv had come in and it will full of tapes and cds from a few years ago, I found a dance tip 95 tape and decided to put it on, the feeling I got was incredible, it was like the most amazing loved up everything is so good mdma feelings but there was even more to it.
I was sweating quite a lot and everything was so clear and as I looked through old birthday cards and my life history all the stuff I had ever saved that meant something to me, everything in my whole life made sense and the warmth and empathy I was getting was astounding nothing could bear how I was feeling.
The songs made perfect sense as I shouted out the words and my body felt so perfect, in all my time taking ecstasy and taking large amounts I had never felt anything so strong and nice. I was recieving txts from H and sending the most loved up txts to my best friends telling them how good everything was, this lasted for a couple of hours and I had more energy than ever before. At one point I decided to phone one of my friends as I needed to talk to someone, I phoned his mobile and he was at work in a kitchen and I told his how good it was although he seemed quite disinterested and we arranged to meet later.
My room was quickly cleaned and I saw places in my room I had not seen for years and managed to sort stuff out with an amazing ease, everything was easy and I felt like the whole world was underneath me and had such clarity of thought.
Sometime around now my parents arrived home and I decided to go lie on my bed as I was rushing far too much this was about 4pm, although as I laid on my bed I felt the need to do something again and got up and walked downstairs, I had a conversation with my dad about loads of stuff I had put outside to be thrown away and he seemed upset, his tone of voice and manner seemed to me as though as was upset and I becamse obsessive in asking him if he was ok in a really soft and voice which to me seemed different to my normal voice, after a while he picked up on this and wanted to know why I was asking him if he was ok.
To me it seemed as though his world has ended and I felt so much empathy for him although he was perfectly ok it was quite a headfuck. I went online again and talked to H, this is where my head got incredibly confused, I was still rushing very intensely and became very agitated and felt strange, H was quite a confusing person and we had recently become good friends, I was discussing the situation between her and her what I thought was ex boyfriend, although as we talked my head got very messed up and I couldn't work out what she was saying.
It eventually appeared as though they had never split up and were still going out although they never spoke to each other, this messed with my head as me and H had been getting very close and I thought there was the possibility of us having a relationship and I would never have been so close to her had I have known she was already in one, this confused me as to her intentions and although we were great friends it seemed as though there was something more between us.
Then it was time to eat with my parents, obviously this was the last thing I wanted to be doing but there was food ready for me, I tried to eat through steak and potatos although every bite dried my mouth and I had to sip water with every mouthfull, During the meal I looked accross the room and my mum appeared to be crying, I could see tears rolling down her cheek and I asked her whats wrong but there was nothing wrong with her and although I felt exactly how I did when I saw my dad earlier it was confusing as there was actually nothing wrong with her but I had got it into my head there was.
After we had eaten my friend J called and he and T were at T's house where I was going, they told me that they were catching a bus somewhere to meet someone and I first decided I would get my dad to drive me so I would be on that bus when they got on, but my dad said he would take me all the way to T's house, so we set off and the drive there was pretty crazy I was still rushing harder than ever before and I felt very out of it although quite able to move just understanding things was quite hard, the time now was aprrox just after 7pm.
I got to T's house and started walking in when I heard my name being called from up the road there I could see my two friends at the bus stop, I walked towards them and stood there trying to explain the afternoon, T seemed quite depressed and disinterested. We got on the bus which was crowded with people so we ended up stood right at the front, there were people laughing and shouting and it was quite scary, I felt paranoid and decided I was glad I hadn't got on the bus by myself. People seemed to be looking at me and laughing and it was very weird, I looked at this one guy and his teeth changed one minute they were perfectly shaped and formed and coloured and the next they looked horrific and it was such a strong hallucination.
We got off the bus after a couple of stops and went to buy some cigs, me and T talked outside the shop and T had begun feeling very depressed and decided he was sick of doing drugs and was going to quit drugs. We then met someone then went to the bus stop where I was trying to stand still although I was still rushing so hard, I had to much energy and felt quite paranoid and strange.
Then someone came out of the pub, it was H's boyfriend, this scared me at that time as I was certain he was unhappy about the arising situation between me and H and as he walked towards me and my friends I said to them hes gonna hurt me I know he and was quite scared which is unlike me. He came up to us and said hello and nothing happened so I decided to mention H and he said he didn't know what was going on with her and that she was fucked up which I agreed with at this point.
The bus came and we got on and I had calmed down a bit though I still believed the reason why H's boyfriend had got on the bus was because he wanted to physically hurt me and I was quite scared of having to walk past him and get off the bus. We got off the bus and went to T's place then we decided we would go on a long walk hopefully to sort my head out and we set off walking, I was kinda panicking at this point, my throat and mouth was dry and I found it hard to swallow and my head was still full of energy, this was now after 8pm and I was still feeling very strong speedy effects.
As we walked down this very quiet back road we sort of had an amazing sense of emotional bonding between us, we had always been very good friends although now it all seemed to make sense and we all decided that we were going to stop taking drugs which was quite a big thing as me and T were heavy users of weed and I did e lots and him quite a bit amongst other things when we had the chance.
It got dark at this point and I was still walking although recieving confusing txt messages from H and stuff seemed to confuse me although between the 3 friends walking along we all agreed it felt like something out of a film, like a new era was dawning upon us and we were moving on even the countryside sunset seemed to suit the mood and it was almost poetic and everything seemed structured, neither of the other 2 were actually on drugs though but we all seemed to expeirence a clarity of mind and the kind of feeling that something was changing.
By the time we got back to T's house somewhere around 9.30pm I was still feeling the effects and I sat in the corner of his room while he mixed records, then an hour later I got on the bus to go home and went to bed, I laid in bed for hours still unable to close my eyes and feeling very strange, the day had drained all my energy out of me although my mind was pretty messed up and I remember being quite upset and depressed as everything seemed to have gone bad.
I didn't start feeling more sober till 4am this was 16 hours since I had taken the last pills, I have encountered a couple of ecstasy experiences similar to that and I would say there is a fair chance that it was meth and mdma, there was also a reliable pill testing source who used to come on this site who had tested what sounded to be identical pills for meth and mdma, from the effects and the comedown in the week after I would say this is most likely.
What started as one of if not the best feelings I have ever had in my life up till that point seemed to drag on and get too much after a few hours, it was incredibly intense and something that was too much for me to cope with and although it will go down as one of my best drug experiences especially with mdma it will also go down as one of my worst drug experiences.
I knew the pills were strong, some people have commented that 4 in such a time space is bound to be strong but since then and even before then I have taken more than four in that time space and I have never ever experienced anything vaguely similar or as strong.
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