MDMA long term comedown recovery?

[necrotyx]

Hey guys, if you check out my last post you'd read about how I am currently recovering from MDMA use. Basically, in late June I took 400mg of "MDMA" (what we took was very questionable) I am suffering from an infamous "long term comedown". Following my use, I have had horrible sleeping patterns, extreme anxiety (daily panic attacks, symptoms that are 24/7 and the whole nine yards), mild depression, and DP/DR. I just wanted to ask a few questions to those who successfully got through this type of experience. I'm on month 4 and 1/2 and my symptoms are still pretty horrible, but i've learned to function with them. My main symptom is shortness of breath. It seems that everytime I would have a relapse and start feeling like crap after I made huge progress, I would have a really bad panic attack (this occurs every month or so, but has been happening more often) and it would suck for a few days. But after several days, I would feel better than I did before the panic attack, which leads to the experience I had on Sunday. I was at church (i'd like to mention that the whole experience made me turn to Christianity, which is such a positive step for me) I felt like I was going to collapse. The following day, I had a panic attack in my back yard while smoking a cigarette. I haven't felt that type of fear for a while, everything slowed down, any sudden noise would send waves of fear throughout my body. I think that had to do with the excessive amount of adrenaline that was pumping out of me though (due to League of legends haha). But anyways, today was different. I felt this really weird positivit energy, like something was lifted off my shoulders. I feel enlightened. My breathing also seems to be a bit better, like my shortness of breath weakened. I don't have to struggle for air anymore or breath in through my nose for 5 seconds and out through my mouth for 7, which was a way of coping with it. Additionally, I am starting to feel my initial symptoms of anxiety, kind of like it is backtracking. My question is, do you guys think that I am closing in on recovery or do you think that it's just another phase of optimism? It would be greatly appreciated if you guys could let me know in detail how you guys felt when your recovery was finally almost over. Thanks in advanced guys!

Sincerely,
Necrotyx

 

[Alaska457]

Have you tried taking an anti-depressant? That worked for me, but now taking any other drug, the comedown can make me go into a panic attack for days. It's been 6 months since my roll, and ive still been experiencing DR that will send me into a panic attack, but I think that's just brought on by other drugs. Don't get to optimistic, because you'll just be let down if you go into another panic attack, just take it day by day and stay busy, and eventually you'll notice you're back to normal. Right now I'm back to 100% except for the sensitivity to panic attacks and instead of just worrying about things, I have to worry about going into a panic attack or panic episode that'll last for days to weeks.

Also figuring out what triggers your panic attacks will help to avoid them. For me it's things like not eating, not enough sleep, and being dehydrated. Anytime I take a drug and I go into that mode it usually has to do with one of those.

 

[necrotyx]

How often and how much did you use Mdxx? Yeah and by drugs do you mean over the counter drugs, or hard drugs? From what I hear, hard drugs make things a lot worse. If you're talking about over the counter drugs, they also give me anxiety. I took 25mg of benadryl a week ago and felt like complete crap the next day. I also have a really big fear of being dependent on something.

 

[MagickalKat777]

Don't listen to Alaska, he's fear mongering.

The best thing you can do for yourself is time. Medications should be an absolute last resort. Let your body heal itself. The time varies, just don't psyche yourself out by reading things here. It sounds like you're having "windows" (days of little or no symptoms) which is a good thing, it means that you are healing. If you add anything to your system while you're in that process, you can make it even worse as you found out with Benedryl.