Mdma hppd

[raubskibun]

I'm sure u guys are already sick of these HPPD posts here, but here it goes.

Already wrote the main story 2 months ago here https://www.reddit.com/r/MDMA/comments/5er1ik/still_seeing_hallucinations_after_a_week_taking/


Probably the biggest problem I had was the fact I didn't stop using other than weed since it brings the visuals back very vividly.. Though in the beginning like week or two later I got the symptoms, smoked weed too with my mate, like one or two hits from a bong, which was an obvius mistake.. After that stopped it & then In that 2 month period I had some coke, speed, meth (powder) & subutex. Ofc not every day, there were probably even full week sometimes when I was sober until used again.

Now 2017 present time
Started seeing psychologist, doctor even gave me a SSRI for my anxiety & depression..took 2 of those last week and of fucking course they boost it, again.. After taking those been sober since, close to one week now. Got so fucking anxious when I had to tell'em why I can't use them (or anything else either really) at least right now, jesus.. Planning to stay like this until and if this goes away eventually. And no, not even having any caffeine, it made it worse too.

Also, I'm vegan so my diet is healthy, no any junky shit. Vitamine B12 is the only supliment I need to take separately. I do try to sleep as much & good as I can, there're some minor CVs.. Exercise is the only thing I should probably do more.

Shit I need to deal with: Visual snow like everyone else,my ceiling looks like fabric, I myself like some kinda cartoon ish character from the mirror (skin gets kinda softer, facial hair more dark etc) colours change weirdly and shit, different shapes on the floor, surface movement, auras around stuff(especially text) u know the usual what M gives u, obviously not as vivid, but if I stare something a little longer, then yes. Visual snow, auras & after images are the most annoying in everyday life.

They say ur more likely to get HPPD if the trip is dramatic which it was. Like mentioned in the original post I wasn't even expecting to get any hallucinations & when I did it freaked me the fuck out & was almot crying rest of that night..

Idk, maybe it's gonna fade away eventually now that I'm actually sober, which is what I'm obviously hoping for, and thinking that I still have it so much bc I was such a dumbass & didn't stop using right in the beginning... But if not, dude Idek....What do u think? Did the other drugs effect it & could that be why it's still going so strong?

Lastly, is there any point seeing like an eye specialist/Doctor? If I can afford to that shit.. Maybe they could check my visual cortex & tell how shitty the situation is.

Being sober can suck my a**

 

[Mazzab]

After readying your reddit story...I think you need a test kit. 220mg spread out in 2 doses shouldn't be giving you symptoms like this. I'd be willing to say what you took was not MDMA
Ps. The eye doctor will not be able to see your brain (visual cortex) incase your wondering it's in the back of your brain

 

[raubskibun]

Yes. I will be getting a test kit for every substance next time, whenever it's gonna be, definitely not gonna risk it anymore after this bull bull. And saying 220mg is not much. Hmm Idk, I'm only like 70kg. I still feel like the boost dose was too much, shouldn't it only be like half of what u originally took in the beginning? But who knows, maybe it had some acid or something like that in it too. Though I don't see why the big sellers on deeb web would do that, ur just gonna lose customers like that man.

And ya I actually realized the whole visual cortex thing after posting this. Spent so many hours searching that shit, like probably everybody else who has gotten this. Guess my brain just thinks there is something that really is not there & needs to learn how to properly see again.. Luckily it's only little auras & visual snow if & when I don't focus on'em. Had some CEV's too but they are pretty much gone, I think the magnesium has started working for that & it's good to take anyways in general, especially with this condition. Better just forget drugs for awhile & focus on other stuff. It's gonna be fine I think.

Anyways, thx for the reply

 

[Durzo1258]

I've seen people weighting less than you take more than you including re dosing and being fine. MDMA shouldn't be that hallucinogenic in the first place. Small percentage of MDMA you ingest coverts to MDA which is more psychedelic but 220 mg in two doses is nowhere near to get enough MDA from conversion to feel it.
This is also why I haven't touched pills in two years. And yes powder can and often is cut too, but it seems to lesser extent.

 

[raubskibun]

Tru tru, pills are quite scary. But what I took was crystal & supposed to be pure. Took it orally, w/o wrapping it into any capsule or anything like that. Was thinking also that could be the reasong why it converted more to MDA, as well as the fact that I might be just more sensitive for this stuff.

 

[RDP89]

Tru tru, pills are quite scary. But what I took was crystal & supposed to be pure. Took it orally, w/o wrapping it into any capsule or anything like that. Was thinking also that could be the reasong why it converted more to MDA, as well as the fact that I might be just more sensitive for this stuff.

Why are pills scarier than crystal? You do realize that without testing, the crystal could be anything, and even if MDMA could contain impurities, cuts, etc.

 

[raubskibun]

In a way how popular they're and ppl just seem to take'em, roll, go party. Idk at least that's how I see it. Crystal seems more safe & pure & the ppl who use know more about the stuff, more likely to test it first.

Idk maybe maybe I'm alone with this.