Like anything else, different people--you and I for example--obviously respond to MDMA in wildly different ways. If it makes you feel like that, then of course your antipathy for the drug is personally well justified based on your experiences with it just as my enthusiasm for it was personally well justified based on my own experiences with it.
However, mdma science has made more than one outrageous claim over the years, and believe me, I have been following this story closely for decades: for example, at one point it was being claimed that a single standard sized recreational dose of mdma caused Parkinson's in humans and at another point in time they were promoting the idea that mdma, and again I'm not making this up, causes actual holes in one's brain. Not surprisingly, many people believed these claims and probably still do to this day. Yeah, that irks me. Maybe it shouldn't, but it does. I'll try to work on that, I guess.
For a drug to be considered truly neurotoxic, though, something bad--reallly bad--should happen after you take it. This is obviously true for something like MPTP, but 99% of the time, it's simply not true for something like MDMA, and that's a fact.
You're upset because you've never gotten information about science through an appropriate publication. It's obvious, because those claims were never published. Re: Holes- this was a reference to 'dead' spots in PET scans. This absolutey happens.
It's so obvious that you've never read a single journal when you keep bringing up nonsense like this. The news media sensationalizes all sorts of things, most much worse than drugs. Bringing up scientifically irrelevant science like Ricaurte's 2002 Science paper and out of context "holes" and parkinson's is hilarious, because if you had, you'd know what the actual evidence for them is.
I'd suggest reading all of these:
Ecstasy use-Parkinson's disease link tenuous.
Jerome L, Doblin R, Mithoefer M.
Mov Disord. 2004 Nov;19(11):1386. No abstract available.
PMID: 15389978 [PubMed - indexed for MEDLINE]
Rapidly progressive parkinsonism in a self-reported user of ecstasy and other drugs.
O'Suilleabhain P, Giller C.
Mov Disord. 2003 Nov;18(11):1378-81.
PMID: 14639685 [PubMed - indexed for MEDLINE]
What is the evidence that Ecstasy (MDMA) can cause Parkinson's disease?
Kish SJ.
Mov Disord. 2003 Nov;18(11):1219-23. Review. No abstract available.
PMID: 14639660 [PubMed - indexed for MEDLINE]
The reality of psychomotor problems, and the possibility of Parkinson's disorder, in some recreational ecstasy/MDMA users: a rejoinder to Sumnall et al. (2003).
Parrott AC, Rodgers J, Buchanan T, Scholey AB, Heffernan T, Ling J.
Psychopharmacology (Berl). 2004 Jan;171(2):231-3. Epub 2003 Nov 21. No abstract available.
PMID: 14634710 [PubMed - indexed for MEDLINE]
Response to: Parrott AC, Buchanan T, Heffernan TM, Scholey A, Ling J, Rodgers J (2003) Parkinson's disorder, psychomotor problems and dopaminergic neurotoxicity in recreational ecstasy/MDMA users. Psychopharmacology 167(4):449-450.
Sumnall HR, Jerome L, Doblin R, Mithoefer MC.
Psychopharmacology (Berl). 2004 Jan;171(2):229-30. Epub 2003 Nov 21. No abstract available.
PMID: 14634709 [PubMed - indexed for MEDLINE]
3,4-methylenedioxymethamphetamine (ecstasy) inhibits dyskinesia expression and normalizes motor activity in 1-methyl-4-phenyl-1,2,3,6-tetrahydropyridine-treated primates.
Iravani MM, Jackson MJ, Kuoppamäki M, Smith LA, Jenner P.
J Neurosci. 2003 Oct 8;23(27):9107-15.
PMID: 14534244 [PubMed - indexed for MEDLINE]
Take a look at the case studies out there from people who used MDMA only. Unfortunately they're the best we'll get, since giving people the high dose chronic MDMA that causes these problems is more than a little unethical.