I kid you not, when I sleep after a really long break, I have these dreams..
It's so intense that I honestly feel like I am rolling face. I wake up in the morning and remember it only slightly, but while I am having the dream, it's like I'm living it out second for second, and the feelings are so real and intense. The dreams are so vivid, and it's unreal how I actually feel the effects of ecstasy in my dreams, and the dream usually follows the same structure. It's night time.. I'm with all of my good ass friends that I used to roll with, we're on the beach, it's dark everywhere, I take some MDMA, and I roll with my friends. After that, the events may be different, but the dream always follows the same template.
I know flashbacks are associated with psychedelics and sometimes MDMA, because of the intense, life changing experience they give you. I've never had any flashbacks while awake, but I have had them sleeping, and they feel so real. I know it's a flashback, too, and not just a normal dream, because, I can't stress enough, I am actually rolling in my dream.
In terms of flashbacks, it's sort of like how a war veteran has horrifying flashbacks from highly traumatic situations while fighting abroad. Or anyone else with PTSD for that matter.. whether it's someone who witnessed a murder, was raped, etc. Flashbacks also occur for the polar opposite of terrible traumatic events, such as spiritual or life changing experiences that are experienced on MDMA or psychedelics.
I went through several surgeries, and was heavily addicted to oxycodone at one point because of it.. I sometimes have dreams where I find a trail of Roxies and I keep eating them and eating them, ingesting the roxies.. but I don't actually feel the effect of the drug in my dreams, because Oxycodone isn't a spiritual drug. It's more-so because of the cravings I still get.
I'm surprised no one else has experienced this. It usually happens when I take an extremely long break from going out, and socializing with my real good friends (I.E., living in a different city/living in complete exile from my social life back home). The dreams are so vivid and real, I can't explain it. I know that it's not actual mdma causing this feeling in me when I dream, but it is of a life changing memory that I have stored in my mind that I relive through my dreams.
I usually wake up in an indescribable emotional state.. It's a type of sadness that is not necessarily bad. The only way I can describe it is nostalgic. I wake up feeling happy, at ease, but the only way I can describe it is of an old man near death, reflecting on all the good memories in his past. There's a sort of sadness to that, but at the same time it's refreshing and cheerful.
